Help Me!!!!

I am a 42 year old Cancer woman who met a 58 year old Gemini man online. I did not think it was possible to be attracted to a man via email, this man was amazing. We moved from the site and into our own phones where we conversed and texted every day. About a month later he drove down to meet and it was kismet! He was shorter than I. I did not care. He wasn't the most handsome man. I didn't care. It was amazing! We really ramped up a notch after that. He came down another month later and we slept together. The heavens opened and angles were crying tears of joy down on us. ? He was texting and calling and checking in and everything they say a gem man does NOT do. He told me he liked my mind and that I was smart. Suddenly he started backpedalling. Not calling but once a day. Not texting before bed. But he did confide in me about something that happened in his youth. After he said it, he paused and said I have no idea why I told you that. Anyway, he still kept backpedaling and after he spent the night at my place last week, he left with no mention of meeting again. I know I shouldn't have done it because Gemini men are very cerebral, but I told him I was going to fall for him if we kept seeing each other. Boom that was it! He told me he did not want the responsibility of that. I flipped out and went off on him. I lied and told him I had a bf. He stopped talking to me, and I haven't heard a peep! Iogged onto the site where we met, and he was online for HOURS. I made a racy vid apologizing for my behavior and saying I still wanted him in my life. He ignored me. I refuse to humiliate myself and I miss him so so so so much. What should I do? Will he ever return?