Irrational pregnancy worry?

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If a so weird, but EVERY month I have a freak out until my period. I do this every month and always have, my friend says it's not healthy and she always assures me I'm fine.

My bf does not pull out, and we do have sex a lot! But I have been on the pill for 4+ years, I have never missed one, I take it close to the same time every day, if I take any meds or anti biotics I make sure they don't interfere with my pill. In other words, I am OCD about my pill. I also have endometreosis.

It honestly wouldn't matter if my bf wore a condom and pulled out every time in addition to my pill, it still wouldn't set my mind at ease.

I love sex, I'm not going to stop having it, and I make sure I'm careful. But why do I worry so much?

The thought of having kids anytime soon absolutely terrifies me, it's the worst thing in the world. I would rather get a bacterial std than be told I am going to have a kid. I may change my mind 5-6 years from now, but as it stands, if the doctor told me I was sterile and couldn't ever have kids I would weep tears of joy.

The thought of it makes me sick...would rather take a bullet to the foot.

Why can't I just stop stressing? My friends tell me I'm fine every time and to stop my worrying...I'm on protection I'm Anal about...so why am I so damn worried??
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If a so weird, but EVERY month I have a freak out until my period. I do this every month and always have, my friend says it's not healthy and she always assures me I'm fine.

My bf does not pull out, and we do have sex a lot! But I have been on the pill for 4+ years, I have never missed one, I take it close to the same time every day, if I take any meds or anti biotics I make sure they don't interfere with my pill. In other words, I am OCD about my pill. I also have endometreosis.

It honestly wouldn't matter if my bf wore a condom and pulled out every time in addition to my pill, it still wouldn't set my mind at ease.

I love sex, I'm not going to stop having it, and I make sure I'm careful. But why do I worry so much?

The thought of having kids anytime soon absolutely terrifies me, it's the worst thing in the world. I would rather get a bacterial std than be told I am going to have a kid. I may change my mind 5-6 years from now, but as it stands, if the doctor told me I was sterile and couldn't ever have kids I would weep tears of joy.

The thought of it makes me sick...would rather take a bullet to the foot.

Why can't I just stop stressing? My friends tell me I'm fine every time and to stop my worrying...I'm on protection I'm Anal about...so why am I so damn worried??



Agent Im going to be honest right now but you are talking about things that should be kept private. And seeing you are dating a Scorpio if he ever found out what you were telling us here about him your ass would be single. I wont even lie right now but this is TMI. I feel you have no respect for privacy because when I read this I cringed.
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Well I don't think its TMI but then again I don't think anything is really TMI.
I also don't think your worry is irrational. I realize you would rather hear "nah girl you are on bc, you will be fine!" But honestly, women get pregnant everyday on bc, using condoms, and other prevention methods. Sex comes with risk.
You will probably be alright tho. *shrugs*
I say keep doing what you are doing.
If you are positive that you never want kids, you could have your tubes tied. But.. you could change your mind and a lot of doctors wouldn't want to do that when u are young and childless.
You aren't the only women out there that stresses and waits for the crimson tide every month.
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0.o

I wonder why people say such negative things about b control hm. True, the pill I switched to is not working well for me side effect wise so I'm switching back to my old pill, but b control (the pill) in general helped me.

It was common for me not to get my period for 2-5 months at a time and when I did, it would last 1-2 months heavy. I would get nausea when I had to wake up early, cramps that would make me black out etc. the pill has very much dulled those symptoms.
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You feel it...over the screen? 0.o

I've always been anxious, but this specific one is making it way worse.

The one I was fine on was ortho tricyclen lo...the lo was good to me. But there was no generic, but there was one for the original ortho. I go, how much a difference can slightly higher hormones be? Turns out, A LOT. So I'm switching back this week and my bf is helping me pay for it.
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I know you can get pregnant on the pill but I try to be careful by always taking mine at the same time.

I was with my ex for years; I was on the pill and he only came in me 4x ever...I still freaked out everrrrry month, even with him pulling out.

The last pap I had, I had abnormal cells. I also had a cramp attack...shooting sudden cramps, cause me to be dizzy, feel hot flash, want to black out, blurred vision. This happened a few weeks ago. I got one of these attacks about 2 years ago too while I was driving, and another one before that where I blacked out in my bathroom.

My stomach is MESSED up. It's hard to know symptoms because dizzy, nausea, feeling faint, bad cramps, all symptoms I've always had. And before my pill, I was NEVER regular. I'm lighter now, but still about 50 tampons worth on my cycle. Luckily now it lasts around 4-6 days vs 1-2 months.

I have endometreosis, IBS, and diverticulitis...welcome to my hell.
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Also, I'm anemic and have low blood sugar...like that's a shock lol.

But despite all of that, I really am healthy! Besides the abnormal pap I'm following up for next week, I tested healthy. Even got healthy blood pressure on the low side which they were really happy about.

I've got my own issues but I've never gotten the flu etc. my stomach plagues me constantly and if I eat the wrong thing either I'm bloated beyond belief, throwing up, or can't leave the bathroom.

I get sick maaaaybe once a year...if that. Usually bronchitis because it adores me.
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Well since I got on the pill I am pretty regular. It's usually clockwork for me to start the weds of my sugar pills....maybe late tues at the earliest, or thurs morning at the latest (over night etc) but I worry if I'm not smack Dab on that day. I'm feeling extra moody and cramping right now so maybe soon! I generally don't get cramps until right before. Although I have been getting irregular cramps since I switched to this different b control. So glad I'm switching!

I battle anxiety, I stress easily. I can get in sad moods but I snap out of them fast. Talking to people helps...my mom retreats into herself and I do the opposite.

My lungs are sensitive I think because I was born early, I was in an incubator thing and my lungs were underdeveloped. But I still weighed 6 lbs and luckily I don't smoke, and have a strong singing voice!
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Lol obviously, it's satire. It's just to express how much I really don't want kids.

I was reading that on the pill at times, it's natural to miss a period. You aren't actually having a period, it's withdrawl bleeding.

In the 4 years I've been on the pill, I've never even been a day late. However, I had also never switched to another birth control with a different hormone (which I did last month)

Still none yet but I feel it's coming. I had mild cramps yesterday and some brown last night, now reallllly bad cramps!

I read if you haven't missed any pills, have taken them at around the same time, no anti biotics, and no pregnancy symptoms you are unlikely to be pregnant.

I have no nausea etc, just cramps. I'm actually not even bloated in the slightest, my stomach is super flat.

I'm also not sure if this is related...but yesterday on the day I usually get my period, I noticed a hard pea size bump that rests at the top of my neck/hair line. It's also pretty tender. I've never gotten anything there before, but it could be an ingrown hair etc? This hurts when I touch...maybe a mutant.