Venting Rambling post

So I have (should be had but I’m horrible at letting shit go) a crush on this bartender and I see him about once a week when I do karaoke. He’s always kind to me and greets me but we haven’t talked much. Combination of my nerves and him being at work. Some mild flirting but he’s a pretty heavy flirt and I haven’t had much of that experience with him yet but I’ve witnessed it with other patrons.

Anywho I sent this Leo bartender a dm a few weeks ago and no response “I think you’re cute and would like to get to know you” . BITCH!

But when I go in the next week , he’s right in my face the moment I step in the bar. I act normal although I’m a fun mix of annoyed, sad , over invested, and angry. Again, this bitch.

I should also mention that he asked his coworker to smoke with me since he couldn’t (still working) and provided the 420. All this after I had no response to my message.

This past Thursday he wasn’t there but guess who Was?

(Lbgtq bar)

I’m sitting there alone waiting for my song to come up and two girls keep looking at me. I stare back. This goes on for about 10-20 mins. Then one of the girls come over, let’s call her Tiffany. Tiffany invites me to join and introduces me to Molly. I think molly finds me attractive based on the introduction but not sure and Tiffany and I kind of hit it off right away. We chat and then we go outside to have a smoke. The other bartender I know joins us( the one he asked to smoke with me) so Tiffany starts venting about her relationship problems (clearly not over some ex) but when we go back in I try to stay by myself but since the karaoke stage is up front, I pass them when I go up. “Where have you been?” I just smile and sang. So Tiffany is talking at me and I’m kind but losing patience. If I had to guess I would say she was flirting with me.

She starts talking about her ex and the shitty breakup. Guess who her ex is? One wild guess!

So we ended up exchanging numbers because I’m an idiot . I told her no promises because I’m not even sure we’re compatible as friends.

This entire situation feels messy but I want to know if he ignored my message because . My Leo moons pride is hurt. I’m cute, we were flirting, you gave me free stuff, asked me to hold your ball (an actually toy ball) and now I’m gettung approached by your ex. And all these girls are talking about you around me. If he told them about my message, I would like to politely curse him out but I won’t because that’s his right. All I can do is let it go. However I do want to ask him if he did tell her and that’s why she’s all in my face because . That isn’t cool. You don’t have to like me( _although you should) but don’t set me up for drama when I simply come in there and don’t bother anyone .

I should start a blog, My addiction to drama.