Oooh That Hurts!

Well, fellow Lib's, I always swore I wouldn't air my feelings on this board, but this is my share agonies of the heart day.
Two years ago I met and began a romance with a Taurus. I guess you could say I have never fallen like that in my life and I have been around for awhile. We had a great year, but he had divorced right before we had gotten together and had a yearning to be single for awhile, he said. So..single he was.
He had a month fling with one younger woman, which is understandable, then appeared back in my life, head hung low. We interacted as friends only for a month or so before I dared hope that it might actually work, and perhaps that was all he needed was a chance to try out his wings and decide which direction he wanted to fly.
All the emotion came back into our relationship, but we were both giving it time and taking it slow.
A close female friend of mine had some x-husband problems. He was being threatening and violent with her and her daughter and caused her to have to look for protection.
You guessed it. He stepped forward and insisted she and her daughter stay at the house to insure their safety. She and I worked together for Mother's Day at a charity function and she kept telling me thankyou for being so understanding and that there was nothing between them and she was not the kind of person who would ever be intimate with a friend's boyfriend x-or present.
Sorry, I could not believe her or him, But...did not make any waves, but could not bring myself to go out with him, so just worked a few more hours and became unavailable so to speak. My intuition is usually right on and I must admit I could literally see the electricity between them and they are both still trying to tell me there is nothing going on.
This evening there was a bus trip with a group of people that we socialize with and they went. A few friends could not get to the phone fast enough to call me when the bus returned to tell me the wonderful news that they were very close on the bus!
You know, why is it that it is so difficult to just be honest and say yeh, we are having an affair and I am not ready for a relationship. Why does someone have to play the role of the fool to make it exciting for the other two.
And wouldn't you think that this one would be mad instead of just hurting like hell! What is the matter with this Libra heart that it can't decipher what is real and what isn't.
Thanks for being here tonite, because there is no way I want all of my grinning so called friends to know how bad this hurts.
This is definitely a baddy.

You know what? He doesnt sound worth it. Sometimes the Universe cleans our lives up for us and while it hurts, the best thing you can do is let nature take its course and let it go (I know, easier said than done, but you'll see it in hindsight). The same thing happened to me and while the betrayel hurts, i can get over it.
He sounds a bit used up and warn out if you ask me, let someone else have him!

To add to post above. There is nothing wrong with your libra heart, it is normal. I have a hard time seeing through people too sometimes. It is a bad time for us at the moment. The Universe or Life or whatever you want to call it is cleansing us BIG TIME...
You may have noticed a lot of things falling off in your life. Is this true?
When i read your line, 'my so called friends' i so totally understood how you felt. The same thing happened to me recently. I came to the realisation that i didnt have that many 'friends' at all. I realised it was time to cleanse my life of all the dead wood, the people that had been hanging on for way too long.
Do you know how i feel now? Relieved. I dont care anymore. If someone is s.... me i let them know. I know that i am the most important thing in my life now and people should be lucky to be my friend because i have a lot to offer.
You should always be your own best friend. My mum once told me, "choose your confidantes carefully. Keep a closed court" (she is a scorpio/sag cusp).
I know it is a painful time for you but believe me, the Universe is doing you a favour.
You dont want gossips in your life anyway, they are boring. I would far rather talk about the things that make the world go round.
Good luck 🙂

I wrote this right before I left on vacation to attend my youngest daughter's wedding. It was such an upper to read your responses this morning. Thank you both!
That is exactly what has been taking place in my life the past year. A cleansing. It is time to begin to develop a few neglected talents and grow instead of being concerned about what could have been.