(vent) I miss this water bearer so much...I feel as if he can be my twin flame or just the guy version of me...I wanna let go bcuz of course it's so unhealthy & tried but it's like I feel a pull from him and try to not think of him and then he pops up in my mind. I have a feeling that he still lives with his child's mother with an on and off relationship..which I have no room to fill the shoes of a rebound/side and I'm definetly better than that. It's just hard for me to like someone and he's sparked my interest. I understand opposites attract...it's like networking strengthing the others weakness but I really like him and he may feel like I'm using him or trying to play him but that's not my intentions at all I've done my part with trying to hold a man up that it's time for someone to put me 1st. I'm no gold digger but he may feel like all women are like that nowadays. I can even look pass the fact that he may have a small dick bcuz luv isn't based on that we all have "flaws" until u meet someone and it's not flaws it's just uniquely u...but anyway I always play with fire just to get burned but all have been really good lessons. I could have a bf but I'm very picky ? & now just may take someone on there offer bcuz I like hanging out,cuddling,"chilling",him rubbin my a $ $ ,hicking me up bcuz I can't wait 4 him 4eva I'm still a woman...I've had my share of frogs I just want my prince...I just wanna give him a BJ & bake him cookies ?
