Narcissistic house hold rules

Ok let me get this straight I love my parents but I totally acknowledge that they fucked me up growing up and this is the proof.



Let me just start that without fail whenever my mum does something for me she makes me say “thank you mummy darling who I love and adore” but sometimes she keeps adding more things to it.

My dad is a jehovas witness and he is always trying to uphold this “clean family” ideal even though he fucks prostitutes and drinks etc

I love them and I sympathise with them for the way they brought me up and I know they love me BUT that doesn’t excuse the way I was treated as a kid.

I know I come on here all the time and complain about something shit in my life and then I get back on top of things and Then im fine and strong again but in my reality I’m so tired of constantly having to get on top of my shit.

I’ve finally quit my job and I’m moving back to Sydney to pursue a career in entertainment.

I want to seek professional help and I want to have a plan because I’m so scared atm I feel that it could be a fly or die situation but it’s good because I feel more pressure to succeed.