
ScorchedWater
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Posted by ScorchedWater
So, basically, I'll explain this quickly.
I have sexual fantasies about my ex. I don't like it. He was controlling and pretty sadistic (would always swear at me and call me a c*nt, sl*t, wh*re because I took too long to answer his texts, he'd get angry over everything, we'd be on the phone and I'd be crying and he'd say he smiles hearing me cry, etc.). However, he took my virginity and he's the only guy who has given me climactic pleasure (orgasms haha). When he broke up with me, I went out and I had sex with another guy, who was selfish in bed. Then, I told my ex about it, and we started talking again (somewhat back together but no longer official), and I told him I would quit talking to the other guy who was selfish, but I decided to keep selfish guy on the back burner because of the great chemistry and I was just really vulnerable and I wasn't thinking clearly.
Anyway, long story short, I got fed up with ex and so I ended things with ex. Then, he somehow got a transcript of my text messages and forwarded the transcript to my sister, and he accused me of having sex with a Danish friend of mine who liked me (but I did not have sex with the Danish friend).
Anyway, ex and I no longer speak to each other. But... I fantasize about him sexually, and although I don't miss him, when I'm alone feeling bored I miss being cuddled and wonder how he's doing.
I feel so mad at myself for feeling this way.
Thoughts?



Posted by Nicrobliz
Reading your posts, and knowing your age, you're going to be one of those f***ed-up flakes that will piss a lot of decent men off because of your failure to come to terms with both yourself and your immature mistakes. And you also need a slap.
Sorry but someone's got to tell you the truth...








Posted by acrabbycrab12Posted by JynjaPosted by acrabbycrab12
Sometimes an "alpha" personality comes with being a jerk, which I do not like.
It's unfortunate that SOMETIMES 'alpha' goes hand in hand with 'jerk'.
NO IT DOESN'T. JERKS OR SCUM ARE WHAT THEY ARE.
Wow Crabby 😛
SW - I agree with this statement, though. Submission doesn't make you a slave, which is why I suggested giving yourself time to grow with patient and understanding men who treat you well traditionally. Then, finding a real "master" would be easier - don't give yourself away to power hungry asses. 🙂
Like RTN suggested: Smoke weed, make him a sandwich and don't talk so much.
I hate it that people think in order to be an "ALPHA MALE" they have to act like assholes and treat women like shit. The proof is right here as to what kind of females you attract with that attitude, just read her original post. she needs to as you said grow emotionally and mature mentally. Just because your body looks like an adults doesn't mean your mind is, scum will take any oppertunity to get some.click to expand

Posted by ArticleL
Its fine you just like how he fucked you like Crabby said get someone who fucks better. Also on the fucked up thing your young so youll grow. Have fun and fuck the world there are things like maturity that life will beat into you most likely telling you is pointless. Keep your head up or down. Ahem.
-Throws a Skittle at you-

Posted by ScorchedWaterPosted by ArticleL
Its fine you just like how he fucked you like Crabby said get someone who fucks better. Also on the fucked up thing your young so youll grow. Have fun and fuck the world there are things like maturity that life will beat into you most likely telling you is pointless. Keep your head up or down. Ahem.
-Throws a Skittle at you-
Mwahhhh *hug* 🙂click to expand




Posted by Nicrobliz
ScorchedWater,
I'm not trying to be an arsehole here - just being brutally honest and sometimes you have to be cruel to be kind. You're 18 and you have SOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH to learn about life. Unfortunately, 18 year-olds often think they know it all and often come unstuck later on. I'm in my 30s and I've experienced, seen and heard a lot of crap regarding relationships. One ex-boyfriend and a fling amounts to nothing, for most of us here.
Why did I say you needed a slap? Because you degraded yourself. Your ex-boyfriend never loved you - you're well aware of that. But still you allowed him to degrade, abuse, use, betray and humiliate you, and yet you're still yearning for more?! Where is your self-respect? The fact that you have failed to realise this alone means that you've hardly learnt anything at all and really need to do some serious soul searching.
I only hope, years from now, you'll appreciate what I'm trying to tell you.
Take care.




Posted by Rockthenerds
Smoke some weed with him, fix him a sandwich and don't talk so much.


Posted by Nicrobliz
Reading your posts, and knowing your age, you're going to be one of those f***ed-up flakes that will piss a lot of decent men off because of your failure to come to terms with both yourself and your immature mistakes. And you also need a slap.
Sorry but someone's got to tell you the truth...


Posted by R1g0rM0rT1sPosted by Nicrobliz
Reading your posts, and knowing your age, you're going to be one of those f***ed-up flakes that will piss a lot of decent men off because of your failure to come to terms with both yourself and your immature mistakes. And you also need a slap.
Sorry but someone's got to tell you the truth...
eureka!! i wasn't alone in reaching that conclusion at least 🙂
i suspect hyperbole.click to expand



Posted by Crabmoon
Oh so just cause she had been through a lot it means that everybody should say Oh I'm so sorry you can recover you're strong blablabla...
Be realistic, people are just reacting to her actions...
Just check her other posts in this board, doesn't look like she's taking anything seriously here.
The fact that he was bad to you doesn't mean that you have to act like a cookmonster in the board and than expect people to be nice.
You just need to understand that you're not a kid anymore. Blame your attitude in your ex is not the right option, so is time to act like an adult don't you think?
I get very impressed in how some people just rely in their sun sign dark side to have excuses to their mistakes.
Just one thing if every time that you get frustrated with an ex you go open your legs to some guy you'll probably keep it open all the time.
Welcome to the real world. People are bad.
So you're saying how he hurt you and still having fantasies of how he treetrunked you? How can this be possible? So he was violent but it was good... So what's the point of all this crying thing?



Posted by ScorchedWater
*hugs scorchedearth really tight*
Posted by ScorchedWater
ScorchedEarth seems pretty rad so far.click to expand

Posted by enfant_terriblePosted by ScorchedWater
*hugs scorchedearth really tight*
Posted by ScorchedWater
ScorchedEarth seems pretty rad so far.
Lol why? Because she's telling you what you want to hear?
You're such a typical Scorpio, all your ego really needs is a bunch of YES-sayers.
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Posted by R1g0rM0rT1sPosted by Nicrobliz
Reading your posts, and knowing your age, you're going to be one of those f***ed-up flakes that will piss a lot of decent men off because of your failure to come to terms with both yourself and your immature mistakes. And you also need a slap.
Sorry but someone's got to tell you the truth...
eureka!! i wasn't alone in reaching that conclusion at least 🙂
i suspect hyperbole.click to expand

Posted by P-AngelPosted by R1g0rM0rT1sPosted by Nicrobliz
Reading your posts, and knowing your age, you're going to be one of those f***ed-up flakes that will piss a lot of decent men off because of your failure to come to terms with both yourself and your immature mistakes. And you also need a slap.
Sorry but someone's got to tell you the truth...
eureka!! i wasn't alone in reaching that conclusion at least 🙂
i suspect hyperbole.
** nods **click to expand

Posted by Rockthenerds
Does anyone fantasize about cartoons?? how the hell did that one guy...or was it one or like a committee or some shit...that just happen to be a graphic designer fuckin animator mastermind or some shit and pervy as all hell. Said hey pron guy I got a great Idea, then porn guy goes oh yea whats that....cartoon guy says let me put my shit all over your shit ftw..

Posted by RockthenerdsPosted by ScorchedWaterPosted by Rockthenerds
Does anyone fantasize about cartoons?? how the hell did that one guy...or was it one or like a committee or some shit...that just happen to be a graphic designer fuckin animator mastermind or some shit and pervy as all hell. Said hey pron guy I got a great Idea, then porn guy goes oh yea whats that....cartoon guy says let me put my shit all over your shit ftw..
Ash Ketchum was hot.
Actually I always thought brock was supposed to be "the hot guy" like ash was supposed to find a way to use his skills rather than his looks to be able to fuck misty, but wasnt misty always trying to fuck brock....and you know brock was supposed to be the hot guy cause he was always indifferent like he got hit on all the time so he's like fuck it you dont know if im gay or not, either way Im hot and I run this bitch even though it's not my show...click to expand

Posted by ScorchedWater
I'm defending myself and saying that I understand EVERY point that has been made because I can see every side of the argument. You're mad because some people don't agree with you. Dumb fuck.

Posted by enfant_terriblePosted by ScorchedWater
I'm defending myself and saying that I understand EVERY point that has been made because I can see every side of the argument. You're mad because some people don't agree with you. Dumb fuck.
Getting a rise out of a Scorp chick always seems to turn me on. Now sit on my face and rotate!! 🙂
Anyway you are right. She is right, folks. Some of you are very harsh. She's what, 18 years old and some of you are twice her age, spitting all over her and for what? Because - worst case scenario - she wants attention? Wow.... I wonder, if your attention-seeking teenage daughter came to you with this material, would you put her down too because hey, clearly she is just an abused attention ho? :-/
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So, basically, I'll explain this quickly.
I have sexual fantasies about my ex. I don't like it. He was controlling and pretty sadistic (would always swear at me and call me a c*nt, sl*t, wh*re because I took too long to answer his texts, he'd get angry over everything, we'd be on the phone and I'd be crying and he'd say he smiles hearing me cry, etc.). However, he took my virginity and he's the only guy who has given me climactic pleasure (orgasms haha). When he broke up with me, I went out and I had sex with another guy, who was selfish in bed. Then, I told my ex about it, and we started talking again (somewhat back together but no longer official), and I told him I would quit talking to the other guy who was selfish, but I decided to keep selfish guy on the back burner because of the great chemistry and I was just really vulnerable and I wasn't thinking clearly.
Anyway, long story short, I got fed up with ex and so I ended things with ex. Then, he somehow got a transcript of my text messages and forwarded the transcript to my sister, and he accused me of having sex with a Danish friend of mine who liked me (but I did not have sex with the Danish friend).
Anyway, ex and I no longer speak to each other. But... I fantasize about him sexually, and although I don't miss him, when I'm alone feeling bored I miss being cuddled and wonder how he's doing.
I feel so mad at myself for feeling this way.
Thoughts?