I am in the worst possible position...

I will post the synastry and composite charts after i explain. so, i've been in a relationship for almost 2 years. it's a good relationship. he isn't bad to me and i know he'd never hurt me or leave me. he loves me and i am his first gf and everything else. i am content with him because i dont have too much to worry about. before him was the guy i consider to be my first love because everything has always been extremely intense and i've never felt the way i did with him with anyone else. i dont even know how to describe it. when we were younger, we dated for almost a year but he had many issues of his own and he was of course immature back then. we were 16. he was not very good to me and he ended up breaking up with me. months had passed and we started talking again. only then, my parents wouldnt let me see or talk to him..so it basically ended because of my parents not letting us get another shot. four years have passed sense ive even spoken to him and about a month ago i messaged him on facebook saying hey i hope youre doing good. he ended up replying about a week ago and we have had very intense talks. to wrap it up, he told me hes never moved on but does not want any drama and has respect for my current boyfriend. i told my parents we talked and they immediately told me how they like him and even asked when im going to hang out with him. i'm a 20 year old college student living at home. over these 4 years, i have always thought of him and i guess i have not fully let go either. we told each other that whatever happens will happen, basically if its meant to be then it will be. it hurts me deeply because i don't know who i want to be with. it would kill me inside to hurt my boyfriend because i do care for him but something inside me is wanting to see how things would be with my ex..i don't feel the intense emotions i did with him with my current bf. i dont know if thats a good or bad thing. here's some charts for you guys..:

mine:

sag sun, also ruled by sag/sun (sag stellium 7th house)

leo moon

sag mercury

scorpio venus

virgo mars

gemini rising

aquarius mc

my boyfriend's:

scorpio sun

cancer moon

scorpio mercury

libra venus

virgo mars

aries ac

ex's:

cancer sun

sag moon

leo mercury

leo venus

libra mars

mine & my ex's composite chart:

Sun in 2° Libra

Moon in 17° Libra

Mercury in 20° Libra

Venus in 1° Libra

Mars in 0° Libra

Jupiter in 4° Aquarius

Saturn in 10° Aries

Uranus in 4° Aquarius

Neptune in 27° Capricorn

Pluto in 3° Sagittarius

North Node in 28° Virgo

Chiron in 26° Libra

Ascendant in 2° Leo

MC in 23° Aries

mine and my bf's composite chart:

Sun in 24° Scorpio

Moon in 9° Leo

Mercury in 2° Sagittarius

Venus in 22° Libra

Mars in 9° Virgo

Jupiter in 15° Capricorn

Saturn in 1° Aries

Uranus in 1° Aquarius

Neptune in 25° Capricorn

Pluto in 2° Sagittarius

North Node in 5° Libra

Chiron in 25° Libra

Ascendant in 11° Taurus

MC in 27° Capricorn