lostatsea
@lostatsea
12 Years
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Posted by lostatsea
Which I find weird, since I'm still the same guy, and I'm not the one getting annoyed, or getting mad. I've actually never treated her unkindly at this time, even after she treated me like crap.
I think you're right about too big a heart though. All those times she got so sad and emailed me, I was there to comfort her. The one time I emailed her after she moved on she said I was dramatic for being sad. I know Scorpios are contradictory but does that also mean hypocritical and cold hearted. We weren't good for each other.
But even after all that, I still can't get her out of my head. It's ridiculous.


Posted by lostatsea
Elles - No my venus is in capricorn. I don't really know about astrology signs. I actually never believed them until spending so much time with her. She believed she was a textbook scorpio and uses the scorpio descriptions like a guide to life. But here's my chart.
Sun Sagittarius
Moon Aquarius
Mercury Capricorn
Venus Capricorn
Mars Aquarius
Jupiter Scorpio
Saturn Scorpio
Uranus Sagittarius
Neptune Sagittarius
Pluto Libra
Lilith Capricorn
Asc nodeCancer

Posted by RabbitPosted by lostatsea
Elles - No my venus is in capricorn. I don't really know about astrology signs. I actually never believed them until spending so much time with her. She believed she was a textbook scorpio and uses the scorpio descriptions like a guide to life. But here's my chart.
Sun Sagittarius
Moon Aquarius
Mercury Capricorn
Venus Capricorn
Mars Aquarius
Jupiter Scorpio
Saturn Scorpio
Uranus Sagittarius
Neptune Sagittarius
Pluto Libra
Lilith Capricorn
Asc nodeCancer
How can you be 23 and have a Libra Pluto?
You've done something wrong or you are bring disingenuous with us...click to expand

Posted by RabbitPosted by PhoenixRisingPosted by RabbitPosted by lostatsea
Elles - No my venus is in capricorn. I don't really know about astrology signs. I actually never believed them until spending so much time with her. She believed she was a textbook scorpio and uses the scorpio descriptions like a guide to life. But here's my chart.
Sun Sagittarius
Moon Aquarius
Mercury Capricorn
Venus Capricorn
Mars Aquarius
Jupiter Scorpio
Saturn Scorpio
Uranus Sagittarius
Neptune Sagittarius
Pluto Libra
Lilith Capricorn
Asc nodeCancer
How can you be 23 and have a Libra Pluto?
You've done something wrong or you are bring disingenuous with us...
^^^Haha, never mind. Carry on *sip tea*
I wanted to post the gif of that attractive curly haired girl giving the side eye you often post...but couldn't find it 😢click to expand



Posted by lostatsea
No thx. I don't enjoy the drama, and I'm not looking to actually go back. Just having trouble moving forward is the thing. Lost in my head is all.
Okay you got me, I shaved off a few years. That is the right chart. I just know how it would come off and didn't want people to get the obvious negative stigma. The girl was well aware of my age but didn't care. She just likes older guys. She's completely into music and 80s bands, and has a huge crush on James Hetfield/Lars Ulrich who are 50/51 now.




Posted by ellessque
how old are you?
If you say 30+, I swear I will bitch slap you through this monitor.
Posted by FUM
Did you guys just scare away losts—


Posted by FUM
lostatsea,
I feel you were attracted to her virgin status. We still have that... the virgin in our hearts, never goes away.

Posted by shellshockerPosted by FUM
lostatsea,
I feel you were attracted to her virgin status. We still have that... the virgin in our hearts, never goes away.
click to expand

Posted by lostatseaPosted by FUM
Did you guys just scare away losts—
No not scared away. I've actually taken a step back and really thought about the more constructive criticism. I really have been looking completely through my side without really realizing, that ultimately I'm the far older one and in some ways I do have my head up my ass. Just by her age I shouldn't surprised that she would change. But I guess I was surprised by how much, and how quick she did it.
Posted by lostatsea
I've been reading more and more into Astrology because like I said, I never used to believe it. But it can be mind boggling accurate.
The last time we talked, she said I kept trying to "analyze" everything she said and did. In looking in my chart and reading about myself. Moon in Aquarius: "They love to study human nature and analyze why everyone around them acts the way they do." My jaw dropped when I read that.
Posted by lostatseaThe funny thing is I really am acting the same as I always do. The difference is I'm guessing that she used to trust me. She herself said it takes someone special on the molecular level to actually trust them. I lost that by constantly leaving, and I can only imagine what it would mean for a Scorpio to finally trust someone and then have them toss it away. I feel bad about it.
Posted by lostatsea
Now with that trust gone, she feels like she has to monitor everything she says.
Posted by lostatsea
.. but that chase is amazing.click to expand


Two questions -
1) She sounds like one of those live cam girls and this was her life style . Is that how you met?
2) By any chance, are you married?
Posted by RabbitPosted by lostatsea
Elles - No my venus is in capricorn. I don't really know about astrology signs. I actually never believed them until spending so much time with her. She believed she was a textbook scorpio and uses the scorpio descriptions like a guide to life. But here's my chart.
Sun Sagittarius
Moon Aquarius
Mercury Capricorn
Venus Capricorn
Mars Aquarius
Jupiter Scorpio
Saturn Scorpio
Uranus Sagittarius
Neptune Sagittarius
Pluto Libra
Lilith Capricorn
Asc nodeCancer
How can you be 23 and have a Libra Pluto?
You've done something wrong or you are bring disingenuous with us...click to expand
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But I couldn't keep it up. She lived on the west coast. I live on the east coast. She would want to stay up till 5:30 am everyday. For along time I did too, taking on a very weird sleeping schedule. But I love spending time with her. I knew everything about her, and even though we never met, I fell in love with her.
Which is also where the friction happened. She would constantly say things that would make me feel terrible. We're not real friends, you can't be friends with someone you've never met in real life. We're just two people who talk. I was there for some huge moments in her life, like her birthday, Christmas, New Years, multiple sad moments. She would message me to come talk to her if I wasn't online. At the same time she would say we aren't even friends. Or you're not allowed to use my name.
We stopped talking a bunch of times. I'm the honest Sag, and I told her I liked her too much, she doesn't feel the same, so I needed to stop talking to her. Each time we stopped it was longer than the last. A week, 2 weeks, etc. But every time we stopped she would eventually email me again usually sad. I couldn't stay away.
I watched an innocent naive girl turn into a super sexual scorpio. She had almost no experience with guys. She got into cybersexing. Met a guy, gave her first bj. Was devastated when he flew back to Canada after two guys. The longest break we had was 6 weeks. She gave up her virginity to a guy who reminded her of Eddie Vedder. But discovered the next morning she hated him. She felt so horrible. She emailed me after 6 weeks of talking saying she needed to talk or she might do something stupid.
I was always there to comfort her. But it killed me seeing her with all these guys. I wanted to be the guy. But our relationship was never sexual. She is a super flirty typical scorpio but she said the energy wasn't right.