to begin with I am a gemini sun with a cancer moon. I think my cancer moon is a damn curse. I have been a typical gemini for some people but when I catch feelings I am needy, insecure, jealous....annoying. Anyhow, I was with my scorpio for over a year. The first 8 months were a bit tumultuous because I wanted a commitment and she did not want to commit to me. So I decided to leave it alone and just finally go with the flow and so we did that. She finally asked me to be her girlfriend and so there we were. I still had a lot of jealousy and insecurity issues even after she gave me the title of "girlfriend" we argued a lot, I brought up her exes a lot...it wasn't great but it wasn't just me. she did things that she thought were okay and when I would bring them up she would turn everything around on me as if everything I ever said or thought or felt was insane or not actually an issue. I think she genuinely felt like she was better than me, but its due to me allowing the behavior if I am being honest. it wasn't all bad, we enjoy one another. I don't think she or I have been more comfortable around another person as we were around one another, and we did do nice things for each other..she was there for me through a lot and vice versa. now she the scorpio can never admit to being wrong has rarely apologized...even now, and we aren't together. we broke up due to me getting upset over something. its been a few months since the breakup...she has to give me rides to work every day because we work together...but in diff departments diff floors, we don't see one another at work unless we make the choice to. Anyhow, ive gotten to my gemini side where I am kindve just fed up like I want to detach myself from the whole thing because I am exhausted...the last thing that occurred is that I extended a friendly hand, we hung out went to dinner etc...I told her I just wanted to take it day by day I didn't want to pressue anything and she found things to nit pick at about me during 2 of those days, like dumb things that she turned into arguments. I ignored her, she called me and texted me asking to talk when we did she tried to turn everything on me and I told her she was being ridiculous...etc etc idk...theres so much more to it but I wont go into it unless someones asks me to, I guess my question is...or whatever the case may be is, idk if its salvageable but I know shes an unevolved scorpio and as for myself I am also trying to grow as a person, but if I just fall back will she ever realize anything ? should I just leave it alone ?? am I being dumb ? ive been cold lately and distant and detached and I'm sure she can tell...but do I just need to completely allow myself to let go ?? help.
