I think he loved me but ..

I think he loved me but have I blew it. I met a wonderful guy who helped me through a really bad time (separating from my husband). I had made this decision before I met this person (my husband was quite abusive) and infact it was because I seemed so unhappy that we talked - he tried to cheer me up. Weeks went by and we seemed to spend every availble moment together. He was always there waiting for me, seeing how I was, cheering me up when I was down. One very bad day I started to cry and this guy practically cried with me he held me then and we just stood there not wanting to let go. We got on brillantly for the next few weeks until my ex found out - he accused us of having an affair when I was married etc (things got really heavy). He started to hound this guy every minute of the day but he never let me down still he was alway there trying to cheer me up. I was torn apart I finished with him thinking my ex would leave him be but he didnt. Two days later we were back together I just couldnt do without him. One night I told him I loved him on the phone he said he would talk to me personnally the next day. The next day he brought the subject up but I bottled out and said I didnt mean it (I wish I had let him speak). He would continually come up and hug me and kiss my head and just hold me he said things like your the girl of my dreams and I will wait for you if you need space for a few week (due to the pressure put on us from my ex) but he never said he loved me (I was really confused). His job ran out and he has returned home. He asked me to promise that I would meet him but I said I couldnt because my ex was causing me so much hassle with the kids etc. We kept in touch at first but my ex was still phoning him and saying god only knows what. He asked if I would met him again but I said that I wished I'd never met him instead (what I meant was it was drivign me mad not being able to be with him - I think he thought the other way) between what I said and my ex hounding him he left a message saying he didnt want to be in the middle any more and I havent heard from him since but now months later I realise that I want him. I dont care what my ex does (he is still hounding me) I just want my scorpion back - I have finally grown up I realise material things dont matter - whats important is how you feel - I have so much as in a good family, home, kids, car etc but I'm not happy not deep down - I would gladly give up my home, car etc and live in a tent with him. I wish I met him now that I am more aware of the things that really are important!

call him or if you don't want to call- write him a letter telling him what you just told all of us....

I don't know about living in a tent. How would your children feel about living in a tent with him or anyone else. I agree. Tell him how you feel, but you should be able to have financial security, as well as love, especially when you have children. Take your time and all will work out. You might need a breather, coming from an abusive relationship. Although it was difficult for me, I stayed by myself for 1-1/2 year before allowing another man in my heart. That way, if something goes wrong, you're strong enough to handle it. But when we rush things, because of the feelings of euphoria which everybody gets when starting a new relationship, we aren't as able to bounce back the next time something goes wrong. Pray over it. If you don't love your husband or want to be with him, anymore. Be an example to your children and divorce him, before moving on with another man. That way, you are modeling appropriate behavior for them. They know no more than what we teach them. God luck in your endeavors.

I know living in a tent would be extreme - what I mean is I would give everything up just to be with him (not kids or family but material things). I have been away from my ex now for 8 months and wish I had done it years ago. It is only now (after months of depression) that I realise how much I miss scorpio (before that I was too down to really care) but now I feel alive again. My only fear of contacting this guy is that after all he went through (with my ex hounding him etc) is that he'll say I'm not worth the hassle for deep down I know my ex (at least for a while) will hound him again thinking that if he went away once he will again. Also I am not sure this guy really loved me or did he feel sorry for me at times when I look back I can remember when he stared me straight in the eyes (and deep down I felt he was saying I love you) but when I ask what is it he would just shake his head and say nothing. I know this guy was married and deeply hurt once aswell and I feel that my behaviour may have hurt him all over again! Sorry to be a moan but I have no-one else to turn to for advice.

it's ok to turn for advice hear, i do all the time. these are good people. it's sounds like you've found someone very special. i too am in love with a scopio male, and he's the best guy i have ever met. i don't know what i would do if i couldn't be with him, it would hurt so bad. you really need to talk to your boo. because chances are he feels the same way you do. it all sounded pretty intense, and if he cared enough about you then to go through all the bull with your ex, than he has to still care about you now, he has too!!!
i think you should just go for it and tell him how you feel, what have you got to loose? good luck girl!!!

from a friendly gemini in love with scorpio =)