Long DIstance Relationship with a Scorpio

I met a scorpio man through online dating. After a month he wanted to have a relationship with me even though I admitted I'm still married but separated and has 1 kid. Despite of the complications of my life he still wants me to be his girlfriend. He was so persistent, and because of his consistency also I said yes on being his girl. He is in BDSM life style for years but he said he no longer practice it for 10 years because of his previous relationship. During our conversation I feel he doesn't me to be his girlfriend only but also his submissive. Since I am not aware of that kind of life style I was hesitant but I'm willing to try because I want him to feel that I love him and I don't want him to doubt about my feelings. As time goes by after our 2nd month he became distant and beginning to avoid video calls and even voice calls. He broke up with me and after how many days he started winning me back. We got back together but it was not as same as before. He became busy with his foot treatment since he was on leave from work for months now. I wanted a video call i feel the only way i can get a video call from him is that when i get sexual and I dont feel good is thats the only reason I can get what I want. He tells me he loves me but I don't feel it anymore. He broke up again with me a day before new year's eve. I got so depressed and started to withdraw. I was ignoring his messages. I just left a message to make sure the presents i shipped to him was received. He started winning me back after he known I started drinking again because of our break up. When we got back together after the 3rd time, it was pure text messages. I dont feel he is doing much effort to do everything to make the relationship work so this time i broke up with him. I still do love him so much but im beginning to hurt myself. He told me he avoids video call because hes hurting to see me knowing we are not together and i find it very absurd. Now he wants me to give him some time and he is sorry. He wants us to have a future but dont want us to a couple. I am really having a hard time moving on since I am note sure of what he s feeling. Is he just playing with me or maybe he has someone else . 😭