Mental Asylum of Utter Madness- 24/7 Stinger Home! (Page 57)

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Well hell, they allow my weird ass in here, so I don't feel like there are too many restrictions 😛

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Melly posts here all the time lol

It's basically just Melly, PR, Elly, and Elle. Sometimes me

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Ohhh all people I adore ?

Apparently I realllly wanted to say that lmao ?

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I was invited ⬆️

But wanted to ask the rest of y'all if it's okay if I come hang? I do have a stinger rising ?

Well hell, they allow my weird ass in here, so I don't feel like there are too many restrictions 😛

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Lol okie dokie

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I was invited ⬆️

But wanted to ask the rest of y'all if it's okay if I come hang? I do have a stinger rising ?

Melly posts here all the time lol

It's basically just Melly, PR, Elly, and Elle. Sometimes me

Midnight too!

Hare talks about food every now and then.

Exo and fox do cap moon driveby's on occasion.

Occasionally a Scorp Moon likes something. I think they lurk a lot.

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The odd time I am curious as to who lurks in here. My "like" notification is off, with everything else, so I never know.

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I am fighting back in a peaceful protest.

I am simply witholding my signature on everything.

....and it's end of month.(he is the CFO)

I can win in a pissing match too, fucker.

Lol. Professionally hogtie the Crab it is...

lol...I wasn't waiting for a reply.

I just turned my vengeful energy towards mafia and burned it off there (on company time....so killed that boomer bird with two stones)

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😄. I get distracted easily sometimes. I literally will hit "post message", wander off and I completely forget I asked a question or wrote a comment on a thread. Especially if I post while I'm at work.

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You're more than welcome.

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This forum has changed ?

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I was invited ⬆️

But wanted to ask the rest of y'all if it's okay if I come hang? I do have a stinger rising ?

Melly posts here all the time lol

It's basically just Melly, PR, Elly, and Elle. Sometimes me

Midnight too!

Hare talks about food every now and then.

Exo and fox do cap moon driveby's on occasion.

Occasionally a Scorp Moon likes something. I think they lurk a lot.

The odd time I am curious as to who lurks in here. My "like" notification is off, with everything else, so I never know.

Water placements are mad lurkers...They don't tend to be as comfortable vocalizing but they enjoy the emoting process.

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Don't I know it. When I first joined I lurked the hell out of a few boards (and the drama threads 😄). Especially if I was dating someone belonging to that sign. I found the way people interacted and discussed topics told me much more about placements than a generic astrology description could. I still lurk a bit, but so many threads are repeaters that I get a little bored/irritated reading them.

Am I over thinking if my good Friend (Scorpio) is suddenly very friendly to my Boyfriend (out of all the other boyfriends in the clique)

She talks to me about him all the time (what car is he driving, where he is, what is he doing at work... financial status, what he is like..how will he react in certain situations)

Most recently we had a triple date (me +bf, Friend B +B's bf and scorpgirl + her Brother ) to a night market. My Boyfriend couldn't join us earlier because he was at work. She kept asking me about it ( but not about the other girl's bf although he wasn't there tgt) and when he came, she was really talkative...

Her bro has this habit of instastory-Ing zoom in of unsuspecting faces. And he does it very often when we hang out. My bf saw it and thought it was funny and laughed. Scorpgirl,.. then followed suit and started taking unsuspecting faces of him too...

Am I over thinking or is she really focusing on him a bit too much?

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Note to Self: Tacos and champagne fix most bad moods.

replace tacos with chocolate and some tea.....then yes. Totally agree.

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Elly: Oh yeah hey. Here's some of my photography work if you're ever interested.

Sag Coworker: oh awesome! You shot these? *scrolls right twice then stops* Is it ok if I scroll?

Elly: ha. Yeah. Go ahead.

Sag: Wow! You did an amazing job! *scrolls faster and hits section of photos where I'm modeling.*. OH MY GOD ELLY. HOLY CRAP UNKNOWN SIGN NUMBER ONE AND UNKNOWN SIGN NUMBER TWO LOOK AT THESE!'

Elly: *flinches as unknown signs 1-5 crowd to look at my phone and remark* ha. Yeah. Cool. Kay. Uh. Huh. *grabs phone*

Sag Coworker: Oh my god. At least aries Coworker wasn't here. If he saw those he'd cum his pants.

Elly: *rolls over laughing on the inside* haha. Yeah. *walks away*

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It's weird how fiery this new job is so far. Most of the coworkers at my old job were earth or water. This place is noticeably more upbeat and less heavy, which is why I like it so much. And so far the signs and charts I've found out have been mostly fire suns or moons.

LOL @Sag. I love that they have little to no filters....then again neither do I depends on who I am talking to.

This post reminds me of a time when a scrolling incident went wrong. I'm giggling as I type this. So there was a period of time when there were 5 Scorps in my department. We are all partnered off based on programs we oversee, I am the only one that works "alone"....I digress. So two of the Scorps, they work closely together in the same program. One recently got married, she married a transgender male, but I was the only one she disclosed this to. To everyone else, she introduced her partner as her husband. So she's sharing her wedding photos with her program partner and I, but he has the phone and doesn't ask permission if he can scroll through, he just keeps scrolling...

Me/Male Scorp:* looking at phone...picture of her getting ready....picture of the groom getting ready....picture of the cake....picture of flowers....picture of the various guest....picture of the bride and groom kissing....picture of the ceremony....picture of groom in bed naked stroking a strap-on*

Me and Male Scorp: *keep it moving like we didn't see a thing...*

Me: Beautiful!

Male Scorp: Yeah. Nice 😄.

Married Scorp: Thank you!...*leaves the room after some time*

Male Scorp: *side eye*

Me:*shakes head* Hmph hmmm....

Male Scorp: *tilts head* What. The. F*ck...?! Why would you leave a picture like that on your phone and let people look through it? 😆

Me: *close eyes shakes head* Hmph hmmm....

Male Scorp: You knew!

Me: *nods* Um hum....

^^^Just to clarify, I didn't know about the picture on the phone. Just that her partner was transgender.

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LMAO.

/dead

Seriously though, a Scorp man putting his discomfort on married Scorp for learning too much. 😆

Ask before you scroll people. It's the responsible thing to do.

*like*

Yup. I have all of my saucy pics under passcode protection...to protect the "innocent".

Posted by VivaciousScorpio
Fox

Where she at doe? 😢

Posted by -elle-
I went to the viewing for work taur's son on Friday.

My weekend has been painted by this because I just keep playing it over in my mind.

Work taur....he was just polarized. He kept repeating "thank you for coming. I appreciate it. I still have to get his car."

It was so sad. I hugged him like six times, I didn't know what else to do.

Seeing such a young person laying in that casket was surreal.

Sag with an Aries moon. I can just imagine his last moments. Fighting. Completely oblivious to the end. Which is calming in itself but sad at the same time.

Senseless. He had just got off work and was going from his car to the house and then was shot. It was all over a woman.

Taur is still transitioning living with his new wife, so he wasn't home. He kept saying..."I could have saved him. He laid there for almost an hour before anyone arrived. I was only 20 minutes away."

The hurt in his eyes and the grief on his face just made me want to grab him up and run away from it all.

Finally, he said he needed to check on his leo (his other son). I hugged him one more time and left....and then reached out to my own sons.

Oh elle's bells.. I'm so sorry. 😢

Sending hugs to you and yours.

Posted by Ellygant
The last 36 hours have been intense. Even for me. I smell a shell period coming up here soon.

What does that mean exactly?

The amount of dopey people posting Scorpio questions is depressing beyond suicide. People just squander what they have out of whatever insanity they can pull out of a hat. I'm pretty comfortable with wanting to cut my wrists every time I do dishes and somehow they take me beyond that. It's a good thing I don't play piano or wash windows commercially.

The fantasy, the wonder, the connection... They're the freak show and I'm wondering why it passes for normal. I don't understand and I don't think I'm supposed to.

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The last 36 hours have been intense. Even for me. I smell a shell period coming up here soon.

What does that mean exactly?

A lot of very dramatic and traumatic incidences with multiple friends in a short time. Fried my circuits.

Makes me thankful for where I'm at in life, especially compared to where I was.

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I meant the "shell" period. Do you get all emo?

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The last 36 hours have been intense. Even for me. I smell a shell period coming up here soon.

What does that mean exactly?

A lot of very dramatic and traumatic incidences with multiple friends in a short time. Fried my circuits.

Makes me thankful for where I'm at in life, especially compared to where I was.

I meant the "shell" period. Do you get all emo?

Not exactly. It's more like, after super emotionally charged experiences I'm sort of in overload to the point I shut down. It's like my emotional energy is suddenly depleted and I have none to spare. I'm more prickly, less patient, don't have much tolerance to want to help others with their feelings like I normally do. I am actually more cold and mean than emo.

I shell up by taking a few days to not hang out or catch up with anyone. That normally balances me out to my warm loving gooey self again.

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Ah, so me at any given hour of the day

Posted by ScorpioStarGazer
Talking to a Scorpio and a Gemini man. My head is spinning. Not sure why I continue to keep my profile up on the dating site. Feels like I'm just leading men on when I know I'll probably never agree to meet up with them in person. I'm 34 and I suck at dating. Both of these men are extremely handsome, well established in their careers and life, great personality etc. I guess I'm afraid of them finding out my deepest darkest secrets and running for the hills or finding out that I'm just plain Jane normal...nothing spectacular to separate me from all the rest of the girls. But also I've just gotten comfortable at being alone and doing my own thing. Afraid to shake things up and try something new. On the other hand I get lonely sometimes and think it would be nice to meet someone new to hang out with. But I freeze up every damn time. I'm just not good at being a social butterfly. I'm also afraid of getting close to people again. Nothing lasts forever. Sigh...I'm a hopeless case.

I think the hardest part is getting the practice, the rhythm down of being social. It's constantly changing and our moods reflect that too. Sometimes it's just easier to blend in and be invisible. I find being able to practice or being forced to be social helps me a lot. I always start the conversation with a big hello and an introduction. Partly because I can have an awesome phenomenal off the charts conversation with someone but never get their name, number, whatnot. It's not even because I'm a great person but I find ways to engage and bring something of myself out in what I'm conversing about that seems to draw them in.

I feel the same about myself as you do, but we don't have to be special for ourselves. I can't wrap my brain around making myself believe I'm special, I'm always amazed at how people react to me, how genuine they are when they say I'm special and the shock in their eyes when I tell them I'm a nobody. It's like it insults their core. We all value things differently, your special is the hardest special to come by, because out of all your dreams and ideals you know a pound of feathers weighs the same as a pound of gold. You'll never be special enough for you to notice, you need to weed through the people blowing smoke up your ass and find what's true and genuine, so they can cherish you and make you wonder what the hell they see in you until you can accept that somewhere, somehow you're more than you thought you were.

Posted by Ellygant
I'm sitting chatting with a coworker (Super cool Taurus chick), drinking after work. learning about her kids and some of her history. And someone she had worked with for the last year is shocked at some of the stories she's telling me, even though I've only been there a bit over a month. A few other employees come up and hug me and chat.

Smart brunette Hostess: Omg Elly you look so cute!

Elly: Thanks! You're so sweet!

Hostess: So it looks like blonde Virgo was just up here.

Elly: Yeah.

Hostess: and the Aries.

Elly: uh. Yeah.

Hostess: And the other Virgo.

Elly: uhhhh.

Hostess: is there anyone that doesn't have a crush on you here?

Elly: They don't know how crazy I am yet. Haha.

Super Cool Taurus Chick: I think that's why they like you.

Elly: *😅 😄* heh. *thinks to self*I thought I was tempering it so well

Taurus: I mean you pour salad dressing seductively. Who else does that...? 😛 But that's why we should hang out! I wanna drink with you.

Elly: ?

Sometimes I wish I didn't have a Scorpio stellium. 😐

Stay Gold, Pony Girl. I wouldn't change ya for the world. ?

Posted by Ellygant
"For Scorpio, letting go of the insatiable need to control the emotional responses of others is a “golden key” if they wish to rise to the level of the phoenix.

Successful navigation of these steps is a lifetime task. We may crash and burn several times, undergoing various metaphorical deaths and rebirths. Ultimately, whatever we’ve decided to do, the third and highest level of progression of Scorpio is always waiting on us.

Agree or disagree Scorpies? Or think the whole levels analogy of Scorpio is just plain silly? 😛

Link to original material.

https://sagmind.wordpress.com/2016/10/22/the-scorpio-archetype-the-multidimensional-path-to-transformation/

I disagree, the only emotional response I can reliably evoke from someone is anger. So controlling the spectrum is beyond me. It's more about resolving what keeps me from being the better version of myself.

I tend to stay away from these topics given my username lol. Usually because its easier to just stay away from them then offer a disclaimer: It is purely coincidental that I was born under the sign of Scorp. The birth of my username truly was not based in anything astrological. At least not to my knowledge. Anyway...

Posted by Ellygant
"For Scorpio, letting go of the insatiable need to control the emotional responses of others is a “golden key” if they wish to rise to the level of the phoenix.

1) If it's true (I question if the phoenix is a level/stage vs managing all three simultaneously) I would think having an air moons (and possibly fire) makes the first statement easier. I am reading this two ways though, so bear with me.

On one hand, I've never cared to control the emotional responses of others in terms of how they choose to respond to grief, anger, frustration, hurt etc. Having an air moon, I truly just don't give a f*ck what you want to do. I simply prefer you take any overly emotional display *over there* because it's challenging to my senses. Save the drama. Save the histrionic. This comes off as ridiculous to me. With that, I will and have commented on what I am seeing, if--and only if you ask my thoughts on the matter or you "invite me" to comment, where imo is a free for all. Otherwise, I'm just sipping tea observing.

The second way I am reading this is trying to control someone's emotional response in term of how they respond to me. I have struggled with this. Still do at times. This has been more challenging the closer the relationship. As I have dealt with my insecurities, the less it has become an issue for me. I have never been brought to a place where I felt I had to tell, instruct to demand a particular response from someone, even in my most immature state, but I will react, usually passively or I will emotionally detach/disengage. I have to remind myself, once I get out of my feels that the other person has the right to respond in any way that does not look like "Phoenix's way" (pun not intended 😛).

By these statements where would that place me on the phoenix scale? I have no idea.

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Successful navigation of these steps is a lifetime task. We may crash and burn several times, undergoing various metaphorical deaths and rebirths. Ultimately, whatever we’ve decided to do, the third and highest level of progression of Scorpio is always waiting on us.

Agree or disagree Scorpies? Or think the whole levels analogy of Scorpio is just plain silly? 😛

Silly? *shurg* I don't know. Everyone needs goals I guess lol. Will I ever get to a level where I am so zen, so above it all? I don't know. It's not a goal for me. There are times when I am an assh*le, I'm not longer a destructive assh*le, but I can still be an assh*le. I like being an assh*le in certain aspects of my life (aka scorpio) and I like being respectful, kind and empathetic in others (phoenix). When it comes to battling my insecurities (scorpio), there are times when I have a handle on them (hawk) and there are insecurities that are a thing of my past (phoenix). Depends on the day, situation and frankly if I've eaten too many carbs. My point is, it's constantly shifting. Always a new "negative" trait to master. I shine in some ways, suck in others. As I improve there will be new ways to suck lol ----haha *naughty thought*.

I'll have to come back and read the responses later.



*wandering mind...*

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"For Scorpio, letting go of the insatiable need to control the emotional responses of others is a “golden key” if they wish to rise to the level of the phoenix.

Successful navigation of these steps is a lifetime task. We may crash and burn several times, undergoing various metaphorical deaths and rebirths. Ultimately, whatever we’ve decided to do, the third and highest level of progression of Scorpio is always waiting on us.

Agree or disagree Scorpies? Or think the whole levels analogy of Scorpio is just plain silly? 😛

Link to original material.

https://sagmind.wordpress.com/2016/10/22/the-scorpio-archetype-the-multidimensional-path-to-transformation/

I think letting go of the need to control our own emotional responses is key.

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Or at least that's the fear according to one thread.

Posted by Ellygant
Taurus: I mean you pour salad dressing seductively. Who else does that...?

😆 Gifs! Gifs!

Posted by Ellygant
I've done with my job what I do with relationships. 😐

I was overly enthusiastic at the start being really involved and interested in everyone. But now they're getting more comfortable around me than I want which makes me want to drop a lot of distance.

The Aries is going around telling people he's in love with me and trusts me more than anyone else. I made a joke about him eating terribly two weeks ago and he's been eating nothing but healthy stuff at work now.

A Scorpio keeps trying text me outside of work and invites me over a lot. Asks to go out all the time. Hovers behind me at work so quietly that I turn around and he was only like four inches away from me.

Scorp Moon Virgo sun is crafty tho, gives me a lot space then swoops in and drops a bunch of sweet or semi romantic comments. He seems a bit gossipy though, so I feel there's more than just crush motives.

They all are starting to do favors for me that I notice they don't do for other employees as well. And that's really what pisses me off. Last thing I want is to give space for gossip to grow or anyone to have any reason to say I don't do my fair share.

And when I ran into TDC at the bar one night after work, I left work friends to go hang with him and all of them were salty as shit about it. The Virgo tried to hide my car keys and made a derogatory remark about TDC when I went to leave. Till I told him that he was acting childish and that insulting TDC was only a poor reflection on his character.

I have to cool this shit down though. Fucking dudes who you can't be friendly and chill with cause they make it weird. Commencing social ban at work in 3-2-1...

This reminds me of the Jeff Dunham/Ackmed joke. You're the penny.

Achmed the Dead Terrorist: I'm kidding. I would not kill the Jews. No. I would toss a penny between them and watch them fight to the death!

Achmed the Dead Terrorist: I did the same thing with 2 Catholic priests, but I tossed in a small boy! Yes! Yes! And the winner had to fight Michael Jackson!

Jeff Dunham: You can't tell jokes like that!

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Posted by ScorpioStarGazer
Sometimes I have these flashes from childhood. I'm just not sure if they are true memories or what I've made up in my mind. I mean at what age can our memory truly go back to? Is it the same for everyone? Can your memory go back farther if something traumatic happened to you early in life?

Found this online, but not sure how accurate it is or if I agree.

What age can you remember your earliest memory?

Few adults can remember anything that happened to them before the age of 3. Now, a new study has documented that it's about age 7 when our earliest memories begin to fade, a phenomenon known as “childhood amnesia.”Jan 26, 2014

I just find all this very fascinating.

I remember lots, most of it either flashes or short clips of time. I remember being old enough to learn to tie my shoes and my dad just fail at teaching me. That's like year 3-5 I would think. I remember being scared of my Winnie the Pooh wallpaper near that same range. Chances are it's not something you made up, but something repressed or closed away.

I'm debating if I should plant a few fruits and vegetables this spring in my non existent garden. We seem to have a bunny problem and I don't know how to make rabbit stew. So, if I have no plans to feed these fluff balls in an effort to fatten them up, I don't want to share my garden.

I heard hot peppers keep those little assh*les out....

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I'm debating if I should plant a few fruits and vegetables this spring in my non existent garden. We seem to have a bunny problem and I don't know how to make rabbit stew. So, if I have no plans to feed these fluff balls in an effort to fatten them up, I don't want to share my garden.

I heard hot peppers keep those little assh*les out....

Hot peppers help. Or if there's a more trafficked area you can plant nearby.

Used to have a rabbit problem with mine, but a few stray cats moved into the area so no more lol.

I've found planting my herbs with fruits and veggies helpful in keeping smaller vermin out too. I line beds with potted herb plants

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Thanks.

I was also thinking I could just do a container fruits/vegetables garden instead of a bed and have them higher up. I will still plant peppers though. I love to use scotch bonnet (also known as habaneros in North America) in a lot of my dishes.

Why I hate my Scorpio placements.. You can never forgive your mother.

Posted by Ellygant
They all are starting to do favors for me that I notice they don't do for other employees as well. And that's really what pisses me off. Last thing I want is to give space for gossip to grow or anyone to have any reason to say I don't do my fair share.

🙂 This made me smile and partly giggle because the concern a lot of other signs would have is the worry that others would think they're sleeping with these guys.

#WhyILoveScorps

Posted by ScorpioStarGazer
Sometimes I have these flashes from childhood. I'm just not sure if they are true memories or what I've made up in my mind. I mean at what age can our memory truly go back to? Is it the same for everyone? Can your memory go back farther if something traumatic happened to you early in life?

Found this online, but not sure how accurate it is or if I agree.

What age can you remember your earliest memory?

Few adults can remember anything that happened to them before the age of 3. Now, a new study has documented that it's about age 7 when our earliest memories begin to fade, a phenomenon known as “childhood amnesia.”Jan 26, 2014

I just find all this very fascinating.

Well memory is divided and (studied) into different categories. What you're trying to recall would fall under long term memory. Usually triggered by emotions. How far one's memories go, varies and may not be 100% accurate (not the same as a false memory) because we tend to add meaning, which shapes the event somewhat. Especially, if you are trying to give the event meaning.

All events, if taking it in, are recorded in our "memory". If pushed hard enough and under the right circumstance it can be retrieved unless you've experienced brain damage.

The brain is truly a fascinating organ.

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I'm debating if I should plant a few fruits and vegetables this spring in my non existent garden. We seem to have a bunny problem and I don't know how to make rabbit stew. So, if I have no plans to feed these fluff balls in an effort to fatten them up, I don't want to share my garden.

I heard hot peppers keep those little assh*les out....

Hot peppers help. Or if there's a more trafficked area you can plant nearby.

Used to have a rabbit problem with mine, but a few stray cats moved into the area so no more lol.

I've found planting my herbs with fruits and veggies helpful in keeping smaller vermin out too. I line beds with potted herb plants

Thanks.

I was also thinking I could just do a container fruits/vegetables garden instead of a bed and have them higher up. I will still plant peppers though. I love to use scotch bonnet (also known as habaneros in North America) in a lot of my dishes.

Yeah since I started gardening with my dad after moving in wth him we do almost all potted plants now. He did most of the heavy lifting planting and i water, maintain and pick.

Though this year he hasn't been feeling it as much so I did a bunch of pots and hanging baskets, which do really well for tomatos. Nothing like some fresh garden tomatos in your salad. 😄

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Yeah, I'm looking forwards to planting various herbs, spearmint, peppermint, chamomile (for tea 😄), lavender, tomatoes, garlic, onions, peppers (hot and mild) and possibly strawberries.

I was working on developing an outdoor compost system yesterday and need to buy some worms some time this week....

I swear if someone told me a few months ago I would be spending my money on some dirt and some worms over a pair of new heels, I'd tell them they were crazy. I don't know, my need to create or use my hands has developed into an interesting desire to grow something all of a sudden and it's something new I'd like to try. I may suck at it, or get bored (I'm betting on the latter 😄), but we'll see.

On a side note, I accidently ran over a bunny this morning. I feel sick inside. I know I joke about killing them, but I really don't want to harm the little f*ckers.

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They all are starting to do favors for me that I notice they don't do for other employees as well. And that's really what pisses me off. Last thing I want is to give space for gossip to grow or anyone to have any reason to say I don't do my fair share.

🙂 This made me smile and partly giggle because the concern a lot of other signs would have is the worry that others would think they're sleeping with these guys.

#WhyILoveScorps

Lol! That concern honestly never crossed my mind. 😆

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That's why it made me smile. I don't think it would cross most Scorp's minds.

Talk sh*t about a Scorp's sexual history/escapades: Meh *eye roll*...

Question a Scorp's work ethic: Mothaf*cker you're trying to tarnish my good name!

Posted by Ellygant
Awwww. 🤗 I know how you feel. You don't really want them dead, just exiled.

My dad has become so soft and sweet in his old age. He noticed I started drinking a lot of tea this past winter and bought tea to plant this year. It's too warm now to plant most though. I was touched by the thought though. You'll have to plant some and let me know how it goes!

I gardened a lot with my dad growing up. I have a lot of really fantastic memories. There's something so awe striking to me about watching little buds or seeds become something you sustain your body with later, that you nurtured with your own hands.

But the teenager and young adult years saw me wanting to spend my time on more exciting purchases and experiences lol. I tried to pick it back up the last year Scorp and I were together but it fell by the wayside in trying to mend the relationship, like most things in my life at that time. So when I moved in with dad it was actually very therapeutic for me.

My favourite plant is probably the rosemary bush. It's grown huge on its own and when I sit on the porch to watch rainstorms, when water hits it the whole plant becomes super fragrant and the whole porch smells like rosemary. ?

That sounds really nice. Yeah, I am excited to see them grow. I started the chamomile from seeds, so I'll see what happens with that. The spearmint and peppermint are seedlings because I couldn't find seeds anywhere, so for the most part they should be okay unless I forget to water them. My chives are already germinating and I just planted them last Monday!

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Ugh I feel so bad about the way things went Friday night with the Scorp. It was so awkward and it didn't have to be. I made it awkward with my stupid social anxiety. I literally just freeze up and it's hard for me to communicate and open up. He asked me so many questions about my music, movie tastes etc. Asked me about what I was looking for in a relationship. My answers were so damn generic and short. Mostly just yes or no answers and I was unable to go into detail. He on the other hand was just talking away without issue. We actually went out for ice cream and I was so nervous I could not even order any. Despite him asking repeatedly if I was sure I didn't want any? Wtf...that's like going on a dinner date and not ordering dinner. How awkward is that?

Sigh...there wasn't even a hug goodbye. I'm sure he was thinking what a freak! And I hope to never hear from her again. I haven't heard from him since the date, but of course I don't expect to after that fiasco. I've attempted to text him several times today to apologize for my nerves, but could not bring myself to out of humiliation. He was so cute and nice and sweet too. ?

Why do you think texting him would be humiliating?

Everyone, or at least every Scorp lol, I think gets nervous with answering questions. On the outside on dates I've seemed totally confident and chatty but if they ask a question that feels more than superficial my brain goes 'ABORT ABORT ABORT AVOID THE QUESTION AT ALL COSTS.' But on the outside I'd skirt the question gracefully (most of the time lol, there have been a few exceptions) and turn it back to asking the other person about themselves.

Emotional intimacy is scary. Lol. Point is you're not alone in feeling that way. Don't let it get you down to the point you feel defeated by yourself. 🤗

It's not so much that I'm humiliated by texting him. I'm humiliated by the way I acted. Not sure if it's too late to save face. I think if I don't hear from him by tomorrow I will text him to tell him I'm sorry. I may not get another date, but at least I can provide him with an explanation for why I acted the way I did.

Have you thought about an explanation without an I'm sorry?

I suppose I just don't see you having done anything to warrant an apology. You don't have to save face, just find a way to explain yourself in the most you like fashion! That's for the best anyways, because if he responds positively then he's responding to the more genuine you. And if he doesn't then it probably wouldn't have been a good match anyways.

A lot of times what feels awkward to us can look different to others. My ex Scorp was so nervous and socially awkward he took two Xanax before our first date and meeting my first friends lol. I just thought he was quiet, mysterious and might not have liked me at the time though haha.

How exactly would you word an explanation without an apology? I'm horrible at trying to say what I want to say. Lol

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Forget all of your insecurities about yourself, you're still in the game. He's probably thinking he struck out more than you shut down, so use that to tailor yourself a better experience. Get him to slow down a bit, smell him, find reasons to touch him, even if you have to ask. Make a habit to create your own rhythm, tap your fingers, hum a song, just do something to keep yourself in tune and he'll start to mirror you. He wants to mirror you, give him the opportunity.

Text him back and just be sincere. Tell him you don't hate ice cream. Use an ice breaker, use your past like a tool or a bible. We inherit more than just genes and our looks from our parents, we get their humor, their social tools, their phrases and stories. Embrace yourself.

Posted by ScorpioStarGazer
Thank you. You give some really great advice! My insecurities always seem to get in the way. The more I think about this, the more my mind starts to wonder and more negative thoughts start to creep in. Now I'm starting to think that maybe I haven't heard from him because he didn't like the way I looked, my personality wasn't his cup of tea, or I just wasn't his type. So many many possibilities here. Oh how I wish I was more of a social butterfly like my mother. I have such a hard time expressing myself and opening up to people. I truly envy those who can approach anyone and carry on a conversation like they were old friends. I can't do that. I've always lived in my head...listening, observing, gathering information. Fearful of revealing information about myself. I feel that people I meet never truly know the real me and instead make assumptions on what little information I give off. That makes me sad. ?

The wonderful part about all that is that you can be as social as you want to be. It's just the initial fear and anxiety that shuts us down. It's all really rote, you don't even have to think about your fears or anxiety if you learn just to go through the motions. Smile big, say hello, just shotgun it. Then if you get bored of hello, work in other silly things like a little fast wave and a big hello. Work up to direct eye contact and blast them with a slightly drawn out "hi". Laugh at yourself but cover your mouth so it's cute and distracting rather than focusing on whatever it is you messed up.

Learn the motions, load it up and let the world have it. Practice on everyone you can, you have the advantage of being expected to be social, so people will want to interact with you.

Leo Moon vs Gem Moon

Scorp: *Driving into work. On speaker phone* So what do you want to do for your birthday?

Gem:.....You ask me that every year. You know it's not a big deal for me. I'll probably forget the day when it comes.

Scorp: Sorry your phone cut out.

Gem: It's not a big deal. I'm not fussy.

Scorp: Sorry your phone cut out.

Gem. I. don't. want. to. do. anything.

Scorp: Sorry, your phone cut out.

Gem: 😆...okay dinner....and....

Scorp: And?

Gem: I want you to walk in front of me and drop rose petals at my feet as I walk.

Scorp: 😆 nerd.

Gem: No I'm serious.

Scorp: How about I hire some women to do it, while they sing your praises for everyone to hear.

Gem: That will work. But I really need you to do it for my birthday to feel magical.

Scorp: I should get all dressed up and yell out praises as I scatter the petals just to embarrass you.

Gem: Will I feel embarrassed, or deeply loved and cherished?

Scorp: 😆 F*ck off! I'm not doing it.

Gem: But you asked me what I want. My birthday won't be complete with out the rose petals. Naw buddy, now you got me all hyped up. This is what I want. I'm gonna ask for it every year until I get it.

Scorp: 😆 Stop f*cking around

Gem: Like you were f*cking with me....

Scorp: 🙂 *eye roll* Where do you want to go out for dinner?....

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Leo Moon vs Gem Moon

Scorp: *Driving into work. On speaker phone* So what do you want to do for your birthday?

Gem:.....You ask me that every year. You know it's not a big deal for me. I'll probably forget the day when it comes.

Scorp: Sorry your phone cut out.

Gem: It's not a big deal. I'm not fussy.

Scorp: Sorry your phone cut out.

Gem. I. don't. want. to. do. anything.

Scorp: Sorry, your phone cut out.

Gem: 😆...okay dinner....and....

Scorp: And?

Gem: I want you to walk in front of me and drop rose petals at my feet as I walk.

Scorp: 😆 nerd.

Gem: No I'm serious.

Scorp: How about I hire some women to do it, while they sing your praises for everyone to hear.

Gem: That will work. But I really need you to do it for my birthday to feel magical.

Scorp: I should get all dressed up and yell out praises as I scatter the petals just to embarrass you.

Gem: Will I feel embarrassed, or deeply loved and cherished?

Scorp: 😆 F*ck off! I'm not doing it.

Gem: But you asked me what I want. My birthday won't be complete with out the rose petals. Naw buddy, now you got me all hyped up. This is what I want. I'm gonna ask for it every year until I get it.

Scorp: 😆 Stop f*cking around

Gem: Like you were f*cking with me....

Scorp: 🙂 *eye roll* Where do you want to go out for dinner?....

Funny.. I feel the same about my birthday

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Why?

I can't tell if the Crab is being sulky and pissed at me or if I'm over analyzing. Either way, he wont respond to work related questions or issues and it's making my day more stressful.

I wish I could just work from home so he was never able to develop a crush on me in the first place.

Posted by Ellygant
Spent the entire day and evening yesterday with Pisces bff and her family. I practically grew up with her kids though the oldest is 10 years younger than me so it's nice to be around family. Sitting in the car yesterday while she ran errands with her youngest, a cancer girl who is 5.

Cancer: Ellpy, are you coming to my graduation?

Elly:*had just been talking about oldest daughters high school graduation so I assume it's that* Why sure!

Pisces: *dips head in while pumping gas* No she meant her kindergarten graduation.

Elly: Oh, when is it?

Pisces: This Thursday morning.

Elly: ah. Darn. I'm working a double. *to cancer* Sorry babe I won't make it. *hears it's really quiet as Pisces darts outside to pump gas*

Cancer:*body scrunched up in backseat, eyes suddenly red, glassy and looking away outside the window, hair flopped in face on verge of total five year old meltdown*

Elly: *oh shit* Hey babe. Darlin. What are you doing?

Cancer: *stony silence and sideways glare thrown at me*

Elly: So how are you going to celebrate your graduation?

Cancer: *head rotates slightly and eyes soften*

Elly: Are you going to eat anything special? If you could have any dinner to celebrate what would you eat?

Cancer: *turns head in my direction, eyes no longer red but still a little glassy* (mutters) shrmp... scmps...

Elly: What was that love?

Cancer: Shrimp scampies.

Elly: sounds tasty. Is that your favorite food?

Cancer: *body facing me again and starts chattering about food*

Elly: so do you like garlic? Want garlic bread?

Cancer: Ew. Garlic.

Elly: *decides to not tell her main ingredient behind shrimp in scampi is garlic* oh ok. Well what about dessert?

Cancer: Cake!

Elly: What kind of cake?

Cancer: Chocolate!

Elly: with chocolate frosting? Chocolate on c hocolate on chocolate?!

Cancer: *giggles* Yes!!!

Pisces: *sticks head in and laughs* you know, I'm going to freak out over you and your babies when you get to that stage of life.

Elly: That cools, just don't do it when I'm freaking out cause someone will need to calm me down at some point I'm sure.

Pisces: You're crazy.

Elly: I know that's why I need y'all around. 😄

*like*

🙂 Smooth Cancer Moon. Smooth....

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I can't tell if the Crab is being sulky and pissed at me or if I'm over analyzing. Either way, he wont respond to work related questions or issues and it's making my day more stressful.

I wish I could just work from home so he was never able to develop a crush on me in the first place.

He's being pissy. It's their thing. He has no right to be though, cause girlfriend.

Don't give in. Walk into that bish ready to bawse.

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I thought it was unrelated to me but then he said something yesterday that made me think it was related to me..

I emailed him a question about one of his files.

He responds towards the end of the day with the answer.

I say "okay thanks! Have a good rest of the day."

To which he says "why, are you leaving me again?"

Confused, i say "did I 'leave' you before..?"

And he says "Skype". Because I deleted him off my work Skype after he admitted to having a both a girlfriend *and* a huge crush on me, and I told him I no longer felt comfortable communicating about non-work related issues.



fucking weirdo.

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I can't tell if the Crab is being sulky and pissed at me or if I'm over analyzing. Either way, he wont respond to work related questions or issues and it's making my day more stressful.

I wish I could just work from home so he was never able to develop a crush on me in the first place.

He's being pissy. It's their thing. He has no right to be though, cause girlfriend.

Don't give in. Walk into that bish ready to bawse.

I thought it was unrelated to me but then he said something yesterday that made me think it was related to me..

I emailed him a question about one of his files.

He responds towards the end of the day with the answer.

I say "okay thanks! Have a good rest of the day."

To which he says "why, are you leaving me again?"

Confused, i say "did I 'leave' you before..?"

And he says "Skype". Because I deleted him off my work Skype after he admitted to having a both a girlfriend *and* a huge crush on me, and I told him I no longer felt comfortable communicating about non-work related issues.



fucking weirdo.

Crafty.

They can feign innocence or being coy. But they're still a water sign. Just as emotionally aware and keen as scorps.

He was totally trying to bait you into conversation to build sympathy. Lol.

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Lol wtf. I am so undeserving of my Cancer moon. I asked if he was upset yesterday after the above convo and he just said "Hahaha no, I'm not." So I said okay and left it at that.

Posted by ScorpioStarGazer
Omg when you have been single for so long, this dating thing is hard work. Making sure your hair and makeup is just right, keeping your legs regularly shaved, them wanting to see you everyday, talking till the wee hours of the morning. I'm exhausted!! And I've only just started. ?

Sounds like you're doing better, yay effort.

Posted by ScorpioStarGazer
What age can you remember your earliest memory?

8-9 months. I know it isn't fake because I described it to my parents and they remember it too.

But I didn't have it and then started mentally indexing my life from that point on. From that memory til 3 years of age...I have..7 or 8 fully formed memories. The rest may very well be fake or dreams. From 3 onward is when memories started piling consistently.

Was reading this topic and your post jumped out at me cuz I was thinking about this lately. I wanted to go retrospectively and change/block/reinvent some but I don't think I can.

Anddddd what is this about some Scorpio? 😛 Good for you for getting back into dating. *cheers in the corner*. I was wondering whether we lost you to some monastery 😛

Posted by ScorpioStarGazer
... I'm exhausted!! And I've only just started. ?

Good stuff.