the eagle has landed where the scorpion rules.

have you scorps ever felt like you're losing control over yourself? like you somehow work yourself up into this weird frenzy of selfishness, lies, anger, guilt and pain, and you can see yourself spiraling and you can't do anything about it? or, let me rephrase that: you COULD do something about it, but you want to see what happens when rock bottom hits and it's this weird, sadistic curiosity that's making you do nothing about bettering your current place?

lately i've been neglecting my studies, partying way too much, lots of casual sex/drugs and i'm looking in on myself thinking "wtf mate" but some gut instinct keeps me going. what do you guys think?

I know that feeling

I feel lost

Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah

😢

I have been there and went on a 6 month sabatical, came back and have been going strong ever since.

Its shit and enjoyable at the same time...I hate it I hate it...

SW - you took the thoughts right out of my head. Today is my birthday so I am self analyzing myself today. I feel the wierd frenzy of selfishness, lies, anger, guilt and pain you mentioned. Can't seem to stop myself though. I know I will pull out of this funk, I just gotta make up my mind to do it.

SENSUALSCORPION

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

Enjoy you day go be around the people that love you and have some fun.

oh wreck... you have admitted that what your doing isn't bothering you (even though your subconcious is telling you otherwise).,... and there is nothing wrong with it, because you know deep down inside that you love yourself, and guilt has no room in your life anymore..however.. eventually your life is gonna give you some decision to make (though curcumstances beyond your control) ..but becfore these things start happening, just take as many pictures as you can to remember all the moments with lovers/friends/parties.. because this is prime time.. (before the real life hits you). Your gonna find the love of your life one day..but before that happends your gonna learn a few lessons first.. just try to enjoy all the good juicy stuff right now before it's to late.

I had a guy bud who was talking like that about 2 years ago. A year ago I learned that he became a gay. So...

haffo, i find your spot-on perception so sexy. wanna come back to my place and watch a movie?

leoscorp, thanks for the advice - i'll def. take it to heart.

scorpio_wreck.... i guess you're just living up to your name, LOL...

don't be so hard on yourself, it's an experimental phase in your life. you'll eventually rise above it and be stronger for it.

but please please just try to be safe. 🙂



"you want to see what happens when rock bottom hits and it's this weird, sadistic curiosity that's making you do nothing about bettering your current place?"

i can relate to this part of what you said... but in my case it's about emotional or relationship stuff (vs. partying or goofing off at work)

so kinda like masochism? mmhmm, i see, i see.


i know this has been said about eh..a bajillion or so times, give or take...but scorpio is about rebirth, ya know? i don't find it odd that you have a tendency toward self-destruction. i'm not encouraging you to ruin your life or anything - oh heavens no. but if you, ya know, do...what really matters is how you come out of it.

that which does not kill me makes me stronger and yada yada

wheel, i've always been a firm believer in - that which does not kill me kills me slower. 🙂

sweet unexpectedness, it's pessimism on the Scorpio board!



well i believe that sometimes subconscious motivations are for our own benefit.

then again, that also depends in great part on our outlook. those who are inclined to believe that self-destruction can only lead to..well, destruction, will probably find that to be exactly the truth. 😉

hi umm we both have aquarius moons. just noticed it and felt the need to say something.

pushit, freshman/soph highschool years i was regularly slamming h and tweak; junior year i did coke and senior year i went thru NA =)

now i only smoke weed - i'm actually pretty stoned right now 🙂

and i know about destruction/drugs. i have had both family and friends die to ODing and i myself have almost died numerous times. i'm clean now except for cigs/weed. no alcohol, no hard drugs - sober for about 7 half months, now.

Whats are aquarius moon peeps like?

whyever do you inquire?

Thanks EG

"indicates doubtful nature, laziness, self indulgence, one can be led astray easily. Unfavourable for marriage. Eyesight may suffer."

hahah..thats so true

pah. i am so not beautiful or tall. missmorals, do you have moon in aquarius?