Iya
@Iya
11 Years
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Posted by Impulsv
Very nice to string u along. Disgusting always victims of fate. Never taking control of their own lives. Feel blessed to know this now and I wasting your time on some indecisive weak individual
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My Taurus- It's not like I didn't think about the future but I did and I also had to accept that there was no feeling of being together in marriage with you or ( my daughter )because it felt unsettled and there were moments where I thought I was wrong but instead of working to make it better I just drifted because I didn't have time to myself, there wasn't any intimacy between us, and being with you was a lot of stress - dealing with your negativity and your ex would also stress me out and then my lack of empathy towards your situation because all that I could think of doing for you n ( my daughter )in the end I don't give time to you and knowing that gets depressed! I did feel wrong doing what I did especially when you started doing things and taking care of you and ( my daughter )and I thought about how I was doing wrong to you and (my daughter)and wanted to stop but I didn't want anyone to get upset with me and plus I was getting sex along with it. But the guilt was getting to me more than my wants! And I wanted to end it with her seeing how you were making a change but the immoral self in me wanted to wait till after my bday so that I get one last chance of having sex with her. I didn't want you to find out because it wasn't something I was proud off.
I never did have sex with you and after not being intimate for 5 yrs I didn't have any sexual desires with you.
I started desiring you since day before yesterday and yes I wanted to have sex with you last night.
Another reason I'm hesitant in marrying u is because of what my family stands for and that they will not approve of my choices.
Yes I could have made the right choices of marrying you but I was afraid that others in my family wouldn't approve of it. But I did eventually do something that no one will ever approve of. In my fight or flight mode, most of the time it's flight for me.
My thoughts about my decisions are not clear that's why I don't really fight for it. And I would rather I go in blindly and accept my fate. Which is a sad way to live I know but I feel more comfortable in that than making an effort.
Me- So u are saying you are not marrying me because you have other choices for better or worse ?
My Taurus - I'm not marrying you because I'm not overwhelmed with that emotion that I need you all the time a