Mess

I am not sure how to approach this anymore, with each attempt being mistaken, misconstrued. How can I clarify without having lines of communication open, I welcome questions but I'm not asked any. If I am asked, I like to be thorough. Why ask if I cannot be thorough? If I talk out of the blue, it's not understandable and it's too long and tedious. As I watch the snow ball effect grow, I just feel helpless or furious but I don't just let go. Knowing well what it is but unable to point things out or to let things go and have it continue but I will not just abandon issues. I don't know.

Maybe it is, maybe it isn't but if it is, a compilation of a long unclarification isn't helping either.

I don't know if I'm really being long and tedious or if I am. Writing is good, however I get the feeling, that I've written too much and will not want this to be the means of communicating forever.