seeing RED

Of all the traits of a Taurus I hate the most I think my temper is the worst. I'm usually calm.....really calm, I've found the ability to control my emotions MOST times when I need to but some things can set me off & cause me to snap. I call it seeing red because that's exactly what I see. I get tunnel vision & the only thing I can see is the object that caused the rage. It's scary to be out of control like that.

Last night I was at a friends & her husband came home drunk. They began physically fighting in the house while the rest of us were outside. My daughter & friends son (both 4 yrs old) were laying in bed watching a movie & both had fallen asleep. The two fighting adults eventually made their way outside when my friend announced that her husband had pulled my sleeping 4 yr old daughter out of the bed & threw her on the couch.

Biggest mistake of that fuckers life! I immediately flew at him pushing & pushing until he fell down, I was screaming the whole while any & every obscenity known to man. I went to get my purse while another friend went & got my daughter, He (the drunken husband) followed me, I'm sure embarrassed because I just layed into him & continued to talk shit, thus causing me to turn around & go at him again.

Now, it's not that I'm proud of my reaction but the reaction I had I could not control. not even if I wanted to. No one seems to understand this......especially my Scorp B/F who was there & witnessed this. To him, he's made it seem as if I committed murder, I've heard about it all day, he says he can't believe that kind of rage is in me & he seems to be contemplating if he wants to continue with me.

How can I explain something that's unexplainable? How can I justify my behaviour when my behaviour is not something I'm proud of myself? I'm tired of feeling the shame & regret of my rage & I'm just thankful that it only rears it's ugly little head on the rarest of occasions!

Just venting.......Thanks for reading 😢

You have absolutely no reason to feel ashamed... we all deal with our anger in different ways. I am very much like this myself. I can't see, hear, nor feel when I am upset. I go off! But the good thing about us is that it takes alot to get us there.

I don't have a child but I believe that it is the right of any parent to protect their child, however they feel fit. If it had been my child that he threw on the couch? the first hit that I planted on him would have made him fall flat down on the floor and he would not have been able to get up again after that to talk any butter.

He was wrong... your child had nothing to do with his argument. And with him being drunk he could have had bad judgement while he threw her and causing her to hit the floor instead of the couch. Your child could have hurt an arm or her neck with his recklessness.

HA! Like I said he is lucky... you are protecting YOUR child... you didn't get involved in the argument... he involved you when he retaliated on your child who had nothing to do with it.

Don't feel ashamed... you had every right to have been upset and you need to explain that to your friend. You did not act out of term; you acted in defence to your helpless child and which mother would not have done the same.

Eh, dunno what to say about your Scorp B/F. You reacting that way because your daughter's safety was in jeopardy is completely understandable.

I have a friend that goes to the club every weekend and starts fights, smashes beer bottles, etc among many other things we've all witnessed over the years as friends and that's considered normal.

I'm usually quiet and controlled and doing my own thing, and finally something really gets to me because it strikes home and I get mad and punch a table at the club and all of a sudden my friends think I'm like some rage-a-holic waiting to go on a killing spree. Makes a whole lot of sense huh? Haha. Think that's the one time in my whole life since moving here 10-12 years ago where anyone has seen me show that kind of anger.

Thanks everyone, I know I shouldn't be so hard on myself, especially given the circumstances but it's scary to go from seriously controlled to seriously out of control like that & having the Mr I'm in control of everything Scorp B/F beating me up over how I reacted certainly doesn't make me feel better. The anger is a huge adrenaline rush but the crash with guilt that I have afterwards is horrible.

Ditto to all other posters. You felt your child was threatened. End of story!
It takes a lot for me to get mad too; however, it's not pretty when I get there, and that relationship is over, because that person is "Deadtome" after it's over.
I oftentimes feel people take advantage of Taureans (usually) calm nature. I always let people know "do NOT mistake my kindness for weakness, cause when you do, it's all over."

Trust! This is very true! People take our calm nature for weakness... but when we blow they get the biggest surprise. When I was younger people used to take me for granted alot... because I love my friends so much I respect them and care for them in the best way that I can. But for some reason they thought I was "soft", however, soon enough they would learn about my temper due to their betrayal. I got in some fights with girls because of this. After they saw my wrath, they got the point and never messed with me agian.

Moon is right... it is more of a maternal thing and I think that any woman regarless of sign, would have reacted this way.