For VirgoSquared

Just wanted to say a quick hi, hope all is well at your end.... how is your new job coming along. Sad to hear about your virgo friend... Virgo's too have dilema's 🙂

Keep in touch,

take care
Reka

Hi Reka.

Still around, at least checking the boards ever so often. I need to get a few things stable in real life first, so . . .you know, the Virgoan tendency of not being able to do more than one thing at a time . . .thing. Damn I wish I could've used another word there lol.

Any way, I still check in. Once work and school settle, I'll spend more time.

Hope everything has been all right.

Take care,

VirgoSquared

Hi Reka,

I'm not sure if you're still around, but I'm going to do my damndest to balance work and school . . .yeah baby, multitasking; and hang around here.

So, let me know how things are going.

Stay sweet,

VirgoSquared

Bah.. I am an "multi function VIRGO".. lol
Upgrade your software VS?
🙂

Hey VS,

How are you doing, Im pretty busy with work, You didnt tell me whts happening with your new job. Are you enjoying it?

How are things on personal front, its been long that we have talked so dont know where to pull strings from.

Take care

Reka

Hi Reka.

Everything is coming along. It's becoming apparent that school is going to get a bit intense as work balances out. It's the balancing of time that's going to be a beast.

Personal front. . .that's tricky lol. I don't even know how to answer that. I still have close friends. . .I guess I consider them more than friends actually. But as for meeting that "more than, more than friend." With me it boils down to this. Stability first. School and work are stability. Work, especially. Not having balanced out, "more than, more than friend" is a "no no."

It gets weird Man lol. You get in this obscure emotional/intellectual conflict where, your head says, "I want this person as a friend." Another part of you says, "Whatever Man! You want more than that." So there becomes a kind of "pull and nothing" behavior that doesn't fully make sense to the outside observer. Do something that implies interest, and follow it up with nothing. Action becomes a ghost town; whistling wind through saloon doors and an unflinching sun accentuating dry sand.

There's a flip side to that though. For me. . .sometimes how I relate to people implies interest when only friendship is wanted. I rein that in though, mainly (Trust, I recognize how crazy this is) from being embarrassed that the other person thinks I'm interested in them when they're not interested in me. One of those vulnerability things, I don't know. I'm an odd ball lmao.

Any way Reka, that's me. I've shared 🙂 It's only fair you update me on what's been going on with you?

You have a sweet day,

VirgoSquared

And don't just saying work! LOL

:-P

Commentary my dear is a good thing, it spurs conversation. Even if it's just rambling.

😉

Say work that is lol.

"Don't just say work" was the intended sentence."

:p

Quite frankly it has to be said, Virgo is without a doubt the best sign to be!

Peace, love and Unity x

Hi Virgosqaured,

Sorry was busy offlate could not respond back to you. My life is moving on with no great shakes... Work is priority as of now, also trying to make few new friends. I dont have friends and family here so it gets pretty boring. Have started making few friends, but as i told you it takes me a lot of time to like someone and to consider him/her a friend. So the screening becomes difficult. May be i am a weirdo.

How about you? are you happy with your new job?, what are you studying ? If these are not probing questions, I would love to have an answer.

And yes the million dollar question, How is your almond eye doing 🙂

Take care

Reka

Hi Reka 🙂

No my dear, you're not a weirdo lol. I'm the odd ball remember, I can spot another odd ball a mile a way. I don't think you're one. Screening is a good thing. I mean, a friend is . . .I guess there are degrees, but a friend implies a kind of connection. A kind of exposing of yourself to allow that other to share some part of you. It makes good sense to know who you're sharing yourself with. I'm the same so, I get it.

Class has started, I'll finish this at home.

Okay, the continuation.

This is all I was saying. It's the people you care about most that can hurt you. After all, they actually know you to a certain extent. You care about them, hence care about their opinions of you. It's a good thing to be careful with who you allow to wield that blade.

"How about you? are you happy with your new job?, what are you studying ?"
Reka's Answers

I'm good
Kind of, not enough hours, going to be changed in a week
Major is Computer Programming and Software Applications


Short and sweet answers lol. Providing Hell doesn't clear his throat and regard me again, I have enough credits where I should be done within a year.

Reka, you said no family and friends where you are. You moved recently or have you lived away from family for awhile? How long have you been by yourself?

All right, let me go away. A 24 hour diner awaits.
Insomniac remember?

You, be sweet.

VirgoSquared

Okay Reka, last question. If I didn't answer, I'm sure you were going to ask so . . .how's almond eyes doing?

🙂

Reka . . .didn't know how to answer this one. Still don't, so I'll just ramble.

I believe those almond eyes have taken fire on me for some reason lol. I don't know. Speculation as to why is somewhat pointless, it's yielding only potential "issues." And truth be told, at this point, I'm not overly concerned about what they are. If they're not important enough to raise, they're not important enough to entertain.

Here's the thing, Reka. Regardless of how fancy the suit "Explanation" is wearing, if he's ignored, he might as well be naked. Word's might is only realized when the other has ears. Absent that . . .this reminds me of the conversation you and I had at the "beach house" (last year reference) about maintaining connections. You thought I let them go too soon. My thing was, there comes a point where regardless of how much you want to stay attached to someone. If you're not wanted, there's no reason to linger.

My worth to a person who is supposed to be a friend is a HUGE pet peeve of mine. At least how I perceive my worth to them. It's not what's said, it's what's done. So, the things they do and say; the time a "friend" can share thrown at me like spare change . . .I'll never be a burden on another. I'll never cling to someone that doesn't want to be bothered with me. Not a Cancerian male 😉 In fact, even an appearance of that hits the detachment switch.

I astoundingly care for her and I definitely miss her, but I'm getting apathetic so. . .we end up at the same place the back and forth stopped at the beach house. Rupturing ties versus doing whatever to keep them. Well, the "S" is on the chest, so guess which choice wins? 😉 Oh well. It's moot.

To answer your question. Beautiful, eyes in flames or brown lol stays lovely regardless. She's better off, so, everything's gold.

All right Reka.

Stay Sunshine,

Jamarl

Hi Virgosquared I am new to da board room. Like yar style n pix. Saw this post n found you are ther for new begininks😉

Sorry far whaah happened. Best af luk for next gal😉

Hey VS,

How are you, Hope all is well at your end. With me life is just moving on... would sound cliche but really very busy.

Today was my birthday so had a small party at office. Missing family though, and also wishes from you 🙂.

So send me a wish soon🙂

Take Care,
Reka

Hi Reka.

Happy Birthday by the way 🙂

Things at my end . . .well, keeping things short since you're busy 😉 I'll just say I'm going to be out of comission for while. Laughing chance and cold familarity.

Anyway. As always, wishing you the best.

Jamarl

Hi Reka.

Sorry about that. I should've been irrelevnt there. All that needed to be said was "Happy Birthday."

Let's try it again.

From me to you, wishing you the warmest of Belated Birthdays.

Hope all your wishes come true.

VirgoSquared

Hi There,

Snob, the wish also came with a attitude. 🙂 Thank you, a wish from a special virtual friend makes me feel good. You dont have to be sorry, I enjoy the arrogance.

I dont see you on the message board offlate. Has the curiosity of a Virgo died.

Hey just a update my virgo friend called me to wish me on my b'day, but again he left a VM. knowing very well at that time i would not be at home. To top it he also sent me a mail saying Sorry was busy and so could not get in touch. This pissed me i didnt call him back, but did send a thankyou note 🙂. Doesn't this sound childish.

But my side of story, he was a friend he could have made an effort to reach me. He tried to hurt me even on my b'day. He does that normally, calls me at a time when he is sure i would not be at home, but why do that on a special day. Anyway each to his own. May be Virgo's enjoy it.🙂 Kidding i dont think its right to genralise.

I wrote this to actually make the post long and start our good old conversations.

Do write back. lets warm up the cold familarity 🙂

Take care
Reka

Hi Reka 🙂

No attitude meant, I guess I was unclear. "Laughing chance and cold familarity." Well, I had to have an unexpected surgery last week. The long hospital stay just has a cold familarity about it. It doesn't matter, I should be out in another week or so.

So, Virgo has made an appearance. Well Reka, first thing that's apparent is you still care for him. Which is fine actually. I only say that to say things he may do could appear larger than what they actually are. I don't think he's trying to hurt you. I do think he is trying to maintain some weird quasi contact.

For example, "I really should wish her a happy birthday, but I'm not comfortable talking to her. Eureka!!! Voice mail. Hey Reka, sorry I missed you. I just wanted to wish you a happy birthday." See, the aim isn't hurt, though you may receive it that way.
It's funny. I would take offense at an entirely differently reason. The hint he believes he's doing you a favor by being your friend. After all, if the "talk" is so uncomfortable why call? And a phone tag relationship surely will have no kids. There's no future in it at all.

Personally I think you did right by not calling. Hell, left to me, in that situation I'd never call him. If he can't talk to you now, obviously he never cared. Not to mention the unfairness and desperation tinged with being the "forever chaser." If he cares, let him show it. If not; well Sweetheart you're a year older.

You know what happens to toys. 😉


To diverge. You're right, you know. I miss the board conversation.

Well, as far as I know. This Castle isn't going anywhere.

I'd make an attempt to stop by now and then if you do 😉

Anyway Reka.

Be sweet and take care of yourself,


VirgoSquared