ignored him, ignored me back.

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one of my bosses is a young virgo man who seems always inspiring to me. When I see him, I was automatically smiling openly although this is not very compatible with my reserved Cappy character. He must have noticed that. It is weird that we never talk with each other but when he answers to my formal/business emails, he keeps the answers very long and talks about other things (holiday, projects, etc) that keep him busy. But when I run into him in the work he completely ignores me. That day I was leaving work a bit earlier, I was walking by myself and wearing a really nice dress (I do not wear it usually). Someone behind me said 'hey'. I did not look back as I thought someone else might have been addressed. Yet, he was insistent. So, I turned back and saw him (Virguy). I smiled and said 'hi, how r u'. He seemed a bit playful but while talking he quickly got into his office. I was no more able to see him but was hearing him saying 'not baaad.' (still in a funny tone). Still without moving (not seeing his face!) I said 'Byee then'. I heard 'bye'. I thus went away. Yet, when I saw him again I completely avoided looking at him. I felt so nervous. After that he saw me ignoring him, he started ignoring me in a very obvious way and did not step back. I felt very bad because ignoring him was a self defense from my part. I and him have both partners and I was shaken even by a small 'hey' of him LOL. Then, I went off. I did not see him for 5 months. On my return I decided to cool things off. So, I tried not to be nervous with him. When passing by his office with a friend, I told him 'hi' and he seemed friendly and was interested in knowing when exactly I had returned from holiday. I said 5 days but I was almost trembling of emotion. He said ok and then, I left. Later on when I saw him in a conference he showed my cup of coffee and asked me in a very formal way where he could get one. I said outside. He went outside. I thought following him would be a good idea to show him I do not ignore him. Without getting too close, I went by his side and told him if he needs anything else. He seemed pleased, said no and told me to go inside (not to miss the conference). After that when I see him I do not feel that he is aggresively ignoring me. Yet we do not talk with each other either. I dunno why his behavior matters to me but I am curious if he likes me or not?...
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I did not know. I visited your other thread about your doctor/therapist where you admitted yourself that you were attracted to people of authority. I wanted to see if astrology had anything to say.


Venus in the Tenth House.

...You are likely, however, to be attracted to authority, for example, the police, judges, politicians and others in a position of authority.

http://www.trans4mind.com/personal_development/astrology/LearningAstrology/housesVenus.htm>Venus in the Houses
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gs from what you said stand to me because they don't make sense, and if something doesn't make sense, I tend to believe the person is being deceptive .. usually to themselves, since most of the time, they believe what they are writing.

Posted by borderlinecapri

.... when I saw him again I completely avoided looking at him. I felt so nervous. After that he saw me ignoring him, he started ignoring me in a very obvious way and did not step back.





Question: If you were completely avoiding looking at him, then how did you know that he was ignoring you in a very obvious way?

If someone won't step back .. then how is the ignoring you?



Posted by borderlinecapri

I and him have both partners ...





This doesn't seem to be a real concern here, and only mentioned as it's relative to you being defensive of how you feel .... whereas the fact that you have a partner should be the biggest factor of all.


Posted by borderlinecapri

... and I was shaken even by a small 'hey' of him LOL





This is the second half of the quote above, where you admit that you aren't even available to have feelings for another on this level ... and it's interesting to see where/how it is relevant that 1. you are partnered with 2. a "hey" from him shakes you. Is this a backwards way of making the justification that you are shaken by him, but, not your partner?

And second ..... a small 'hey' shakes you? That doesnt' seem a little over the top to you?



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I did not see him for 5 months. On my return I decided to cool things off.

I said 5 days but I was almost trembling of emotion.

click to expand





1. It was never heated to even cool things off.

2. After 5 months of absence from a guy who was never into you, for you to speak to him reduces you to an almost trembling of emotions?




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P-Angel, from your critical/analytical approach I almost believed that you were a Virgo yourself LOL. Yes u r right, it doesnt make sense. But does life make sense all the time to you? Unfortunately here life is everything but sensible for me. As a cappy who does not know how to live in its proper sense I am just curious about things that do not make sense. Why do I feel an attraction to him and why don't I even think of a relationship with him but why am I still curious how he's perceived my awkward attitudes. Does he sense/feel that my intention is not bad? that I acted weird bcs felt attracted toward him? that I tried to cool my mood off and now trying to be just friendly to him so that he does not ignore me like that? did he understand all of these? was he ignoring me because he hates me or was he ignoring me bcs he thought I was mean by ignoring him. Sorry abt the poor English. Second language issues..
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Posted by borderlinecapri

Why do I feel an attraction to him and why don't I even think of a relationship with him but why am I still curious how he's perceived my awkward attitudes. Does he sense/feel that my intention is not bad? that I acted weird bcs felt attracted toward him? that I tried to cool my mood off and now trying to be just friendly to him so that he does not ignore me like that? did he understand all of these? was he ignoring me because he hates me or was he ignoring me bcs he thought I was mean by ignoring him.






He's probably just trying to avoid you at this point ... mainly because you don't appear to be aware of your emotional neediness, and since he's a Virgo, I'm sure he is quite aware of your emotional baggage.


because dude ..... your descriptions of your emotions when around him border psychotic.

trembling
shaking
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Yepp psycho, no? thanks P-Angel. But I don't think he noticed I was shaking or trembling 🙂 I am sooo good at hiding such emotions that a guy I deeply love might think I am not interested in him at all.

Virguy must have just noticed that I was a bit nervous/excited as my eyes become shiny and there was this positive sexual energy which invaded his office when I got in LOL He seemed pleased but that was for a very short moment. I did not understand why he asked me when I had arrived exactly. After my answer, he said nothing and I went away. Then when I saw him he did not avoid me. ('avoiding me' means here when he sees me he does not look at the opposite direction and pretends not seeing me). We do not talk at all but I do not feel that he is avoiding me any more. That's a positive thing 🙂
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Yes P-Angel. I told him many times. He is a Leo. and the thing is that we do not really have sex although we are in a LTR. The major reason is my dysfunctionality. The complementary reason is him, as he said that we did not really need sex to be happy??!? I tell him how I feel guilty for feeling such things and he does not really care about them. I guess he would care about some action 😛
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Posted by ellessque
you are a cap. he is a virgo.

romance in the workplace is a big no no for both of you.

you may be enticed right now, but I guarantee if he were to make a move on you, you would retract faster than a cancer. 😛



Hey now! 😉 Some of us cancers march right in and grab ahold when challenged.

One thing to remember is that love & attraction are not zero sum games. Humans are made to have all kinds of feelings for all kinds of people. It's the way we are. The relatively recent cultural expectation for one person to be the ONE is more about religion and property rights than biology.

It's fun to flirt & joke etc with people. What's key though is to acknowledge yourself without being dishonest or knowingly hurting anyone.
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Posted by ellessque
I know. I was just trying to make a point and cancer was the first that came to mind as running away, because that's what crabs do. It wouldn't have been so "cute' if I were to have used....a leo (lion)...aries (ram)...capricorn (goat...LOL)...kwim?



I know...just teasing 😉

I was with/married to a scorp from age 17 to 32. Heaven & hell. Would have been more heaven without his drinking problem.

Crabs more like 'sidle' away than run. If we run, then the person of interest might not catch up.