...ONCE UPON A TIME THERES A VIRG AND A SAGG

just a little background info.. im posing the question if maybe im just impatient and insecure about his feelings for me or is he running game... im in between answer choices, views are greatly appreciated. this isnt the first post ive ireallie want him but NOT if he doesnt want me n he seems so busie sumtimes i start to feel like im living some kind of Lifetime moment.. please help..


THE LOW DOWN:
ME: Outgoing Sillie Funloving Vibrant Young Couchpotato-Hater
HIM: WORKaholic PLANaholic PREACHaholic that LIVES seems like eternally under the Subtlety Code or sumthin...
A LITTLE HISTORY:ive known him for a few years as ive said before. we met at school and he told me id be his girlfriend if i wasnt a freshman,( i thought: TOTAL BULLtish )so from then on an unofficial relationship ensued. by unofficial i mean, we talked, chilled, kicked it and such but NEVR EVR were we sexual. not even so much as a kiss up until like last year. its ironic cause it wasnt even like there was ne pressure to do so. of course we had the occasional sextopic conversations but PURELY occasional.
I can remember years ago id ask him like about us and such and once he told me y we werent moving forward reallie was cause i wasnt ready for him and he knew that so he just had me in his company until i was or wen he thought i wood be.
It started as just like this little schoolboy crush i had for him or sumthin and reallie i kinda figured he was like mr playa playa so i never honestly took him serously. so years of on and off and on and off and on and off again and on again socializing mostly starting after he graduated. that was wen we like separated from each others company on a regular basis for the first time.
ROUGHLY: after the first year of us being together lots, up until last year, twas on and off again as i said usuallie cause id say sumthin to piss him off or vice versa so then wed take like little leaves from each other or sumthin, months pass i get a call or a visit or vice versa and then were ON again. Cause im not reallie the run after you type and neither is he. i never wanted himt o feel like i was trying to smother him so i kep tmy distance. funnie how wen i told him how i felt about his he started laughing tellin me i was crazie if i thought i was smotherin him and id never have to stalk him neway .so at nerate fast forward about 2 years up to last year. it seems these Little feelings i had for him mutated into me not being able to Not think about him so i started calling myself gonna tell him that. but i was reallie chilidish in my attempts to do so. reallie i was scared cause i didnt think hed feel the same way and i didnt wanna make an @ $ $ out of myself, etc so every time id try to come out with sumthin hed be like "Stop beatin around the bush just say it" "All this playin i dont have time for" i swear if i had a bill for every time i heard these words from him id be on the run. Soo.... i suddenly get the words " I love u" from him n i just hate him for it cause i figure hes just trying to like mac me or sumthin and then he gets royally heated wen i dont believe him. i said he never gave me a reason to and He says i never gave him a reason to take me seroiusly. he says: I dont know nething but wat u say. Im no mind reader. u cant expect me to read your mind. I say: is he serious?? no he cant be. its this game tish again. hes tryin to run game on me. so let all my homies tell it:twas over years ago and no looking back but i never reallie Felt like it was so i couldnt just let it go.. i dunno why but sumthin wouldnt let me. so some months back i start in on the WHERE ARE WE conversation and hes like "we shouldve been talked about this." "u nevr wanted to talk about this before." "see how u talking to me? ive ben tryin to talk to u like this and it just goes in one ear and out the window." "Im like, i cant believe u feel llike that, idont feel like that at all." for some reason hed be thinking im just tryi

?I can remember years ago id ask him like about us and such and once he told me y we werent moving forward reallie was cause i wasnt ready for him and he knew that so he just had me in his company until i was or wen he thought i wood be.


It started as just like this little schoolboy crush i had for him or sumthin and reallie i kinda figured he was like mr playa playa so i never honestly took him serously.

ROUGHLY: after the first year of us being together lots, up until last year, twas on and off again as i said usuallie cause id say sumthin to piss him off or vice versa so then wed take like little leaves from each other or sumthin, months pass i get a call or a visit or vice versa and then were ON again.

Cause im not reallie the run after you type and neither is he. i never wanted himt o feel like i was trying to smother him so i kep tmy distance.

i suddenly get the words " I love u" from him n i just hate him for it cause i figure hes just trying to like mac me or sumthin and then he gets royally heated wen i dont believe him.?


Mdotshady

I am not familiar with this kind of writing style s? but if I understand your post correctly you don?t have Virgo problem!

But you must know.. you have a Trust issue lady?!

I would like to suggest that you learn ?how to trust? first, then ?how to love?.. then ?how to forgive? and ?how to forget?.

One other thing to share with you or anyone else in the similar situation!

You love or you don?t?.!

Please don?t defame your love by clamouring about this in public. Keep in mind that love is to be felt, realised, cherished, respected and not to publicised verbally..!

Imho.......

Q Bone

u no out of every piece of feedback ive dug for wat uve brought before my eyes has ran about the deepest i must say. i never once questioned my issues with trust and such but coming from another perspective im left with no other choice. im all too grateful for this n this well fortunately be my last post. aahh the lessons of life and love so bittersweet and so cherishable all at the same time.
i bid adieu to u sir and all who have plugged n2 to my saga....

Sorry to see you go.. but...I wish you good luck in your life, love, passion and future plans lady...!

You take care?..!

I?ll be around if you ever need me..!