Seems long but its so worthit to read please help tho

So im a pisces me and my Virgo first love have been on and off maybe twice for 3sand half years. Long lasting with plenty trust issues he definitely has some insecurities well we all do. But finally I move away about 20 minutes from him because of living situations and he understood and dealt with it for awhile now.. Hes been by my side put up with my shit for awhile now but recently about 4 months ago we had sex for the first time again after sexual contact after 9 months. We had a great time and afterwards we were back on great track again he was ready to be settled with me again after 2 years and he just wanted us to be in peace.. Before we even had our sexual intercourse about a month before it he told me he loved me again but this time it just seemed to be soo much more real because we've grown up to realise what we really mean to each other.. Well just 3 weeks ago we were arguing for about a week straight through the phone reminder me and him barely see eachother once a month because of poor decisions I've made and put myself in my living condition my personality is very strong im a pisces so sometimes my emotions get ahold of me I've been going through alto including family and mental issues I've tried to put them aside but I end up taking it out on him almost everytime but I didn't realise that until he left me 3 weeks ago. This is the thing 2l3 weeks ago as we were arguing he would slowly stop texting me as much not answering my calls using the excuse he was asleep everytime hes very honest he will tell me if hes cheating or fuckin wit another female but his main priority is loyalty hes always been about loyalty so I believed him but something inside me always made me accuse him idk why but now im realising it after he left me 3 weeks ago like I said before well he ignored me for about a day no text back no call nothing and he finally texts me this"saniah I love you and i didny want to hurt youso im leaving this in the past your strong you will be cool its gonna be alright again please don't stress this or cry anymore I love you beautiful we will talk again until then don't call me and I won't text you" so then I was confused days after I would keep texting trying to get him back(wrong decision) he started to say I do love you saniah which is why we gotta break up then he said he coupdnt handle me he said "I love you and I want to be with you I wanna work it but I cant" I continuously ask why cant you and he will never tell me so after awhile I gave up after bout a week n a half and I text him the wrong message saying after your done being a kid dealing with your insecurities then come holla at me and he said don't hit me up at all don't even respond I was so hurt I didn't even read the rest of the message I just deleted it and ever since we left off on bad terms I just don't understand why hes giving up so easily ik he loves me but its pike hes making himself jot love me anymore hes forcing himself to leave me be I think I gave to much negativity for him to deal with but I can change it but thats if hell ever give the chance he even said saniah nobody has ever treated me like u did and im very thankful for it hes never soo sentimental about breaking up like hes broke up with me before so idk what to think im trying to give him space bc he always backs out and lashes away bc of fear of love ik it I gave him all I had broke my back for him im just lost

You've answered your own question, you're too baggage-y for him. It's exhausting. Yeah he might love you, but you're tiresome to him. It's not healthy for him, so he did the right thing for himself.

I've got several Virgo friends, and I have a lot of baggage. But do you know why they come to me to unwind and let off steam? Because I don't unload my baggage onto them. Sure we talk about each other's problems but we don't turn those problems INTO problems for us.

Of course they like to be there for those they care about, but they got limits like everyone else. I know how to toe the line. You don't.