Still working at it

So, I've just read myself; I fear subjectivity; well I don't fear it, It makes me uncomfortable, the idea of being personable with someone, and just well realting to them. Yet nothing is making me happier; what I mean to say is, when I talk from my heart, everything seems so much better, brighter, like, religion, and people generally being good, and kind, isn't such a ludicrous idea to entertain....I'm feeling freer, and I'm being sociable with people, and well, they actually are more fun to be around. I'm coming to realize (personally, not intellectually) the whole world isn't going to accept my ideas, views, but I can still get to know people without taking this personally. Leaving behind that cool shell is really making me start to look out even farther....what the hell is happening to me?!?!?! Somebody slip me a 'rouphie' and grab all the mood stablizers you can!!! I'm loosing it, I'm loosing it!!!! Dammitt!!! Oh, well, it's cool up here on cloud 9, y'all feeling fine? I wish an adult we're here to work this out with me....Dy, where the hell are ya man, I need your prognosis!! this WASN'T IN THE CRASH COURSE!!!! Sentimentality, and Optimism, belief that things will actually be alright?! lol

I suppose I'm feeling that for the first time, it's alright to 'mingle' with the people, come down to earth and see things like other do. perhaps I'm overdoing this, but I just had to put this out there....I'm acutally jovial, and optimistic, and well, everything will be fine, If I just keep a smile on my face. I won't deny anything though. I'm just kickin' back and letting it all out...it's cool, I've always been a looser type on here, but this is just crazy!. I'm hoppin' dxp'll forgive me as I seem to have misplaced my logic/reason somewhere else currently......Anyone who locates it return it to VE's mailbox....I can't promise a solild reward, but how about the eternal grattitude/smile of a child? lol

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