I am single and met a married man. This married man visited my state in order to search for a home and relocate. when he visited he stayed at his cousins home who happens to be a very good friend to me. I knew his plans to relocate and bring his wife here so they could work on their relationship. Once he came to my state, she informed him she was pregnant. I was fully aware of these details. He invited me out on several occasions and also asked that I show him around the casino in our area. I agreed. We ended up staying 2 nights there in a hotel, sharing a bed but nothing happened. We held interlocked hands walking though the casino and even when we slept. We cuddled throughout the night. I felt deeply connected to him. We visited many restaurants during our stay and shared a lot of personal things of ourselves. As time passed, we saw each other again and would spend night together, eventually we had sex one night after drinking. When I was on top of him, he announced he's legally married several times, but we continued. I teared up and he wiped my tears and stopped intercourse. I thought he was interested in me but then he then began acting distant and I was barely hearing from him. I was the one reaching out first. When I did he would barely make conversation. He ended up discussing the sex and apparently blamed each other. He saying I knew he was married and me saying but you did it. Two weeks pass, we end up seeing each other and I spent the night and we had sex again. He said he didn't want to regret it like the last time. He also asked me to consider being a friend with benefits and I said no, you know how I feel about you. That night, I overheard someone say to him, will you come back in Feb. This sort of confused me and I forgot to ask him but then asked him the following day after we had sex. He said he was leaving because his wife and kids need him. I asked him to stay and questioned why he failed to tell me before the sex the previous night. I told him I cared for and even loved him and thought it was mutual. he said he only saw me as a friend and I knew he was married. They are working things out and she is pregnant. I continued asking him question through text and he stopped responding. Following day, he texts me asks how I am doing and if I have any deals on a plane ticket. I did not respond. I responded days later and found out he had left the day before. I said you didn't say goodbye. H e said it was because I was on "some other **** when he last spoke." He also left his car and said he would be back for it. I asked him many questions why would he do this. I said I had sex with you 4 days before I felt that I should be respected enough to tell me he was leaving. He said he does respect me. I continued with the questions and he stopped responded. My last text to him was, it doesn't matter at this point because we will not see each other again. He stopped responding. i know I am completely wrong and feel awful about this. This all h
