Doll

I'm afraid to ever be able to trust again
All i ask for is one thing,to understand.
I was lied straight in the eyes for so much time
I was blind and now i'm scared that i opened my eyes.

Alike a demon cut me in half and got inside me
Putting fear and paranoia to be all of my belief.
So i bet you only want the same damn thing
To use me and leave me with your sins.

Hey,i'm not saying that i'm a hundred precent right
But my intuition's just kicking always into my mind.
Or is it de ja vu?Maybe,but for now it's over
I would refuse even if you wouldn't catch me sober.

So my story here it is,i gave care that wasn't returned
I gave all my trust but all i recieved was just hurt.
So i can just stare into this open space of my heart
So i can sink into myself,into my thoughts.

So i tied a rose to my limbs,and it hurts so
But not as much as the truth i didn't want to know.
I'm staying away cause now i can only love myself
Cause another person would only make me need again help.

Inject poison into my head,see my corpse body
See the real me,so broken and dark,ain't it lovely?
I'm just a doll in the store,broken and out of joy,
Put in the bargain bin, I'm the useless toy.

My face was painted with this smile they put on
But the colors are washing away ,and the smile is gone.
My mascara and eyeliner,made this long line
Down my face, but I just can't deny.

I've got no soul,I ain't treated human like
I'm just a puppet with broken strings attached so high
No one wants a broken doll,no one wants to pick me up
But it's all right cause I wouldn't trust my owner,or love.

My arms are tied back and my legs are paralyzed
My eyes turned to the back of my head,so now I analyze
What's so wrong and how I got here?It's so lonely here
I get scared of my own shadow , it feels so weird.

So unwanted yet so missed,where is my place?
I don't belong yet I wanna fit in,so do you see my face?
What's the expression?What do I want?
I feel like a broken doll that's messed up..