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Morning Sun
(a nothingness I wrote this morning, and have no one to share with.)
In the morning I can feel my body aching, my young frame aging ever so gradually. I outstretch my arms and notice how my bones creak, touch my face and wonder how long it will take for my skin to fold and crumble.
The sun beckons me every morning, and softly creeps over me, leaving traces harmony and unmistakable, natural warmth. Feeling invited by the sun I step out side, not a thought in my head. Sleepy, dreary, and dusty.
Standing up on my tippy toes, I do a pretty, delicate twirl that no one can see- and will anyone ever understand it? The effortless things we do when no one is looking, when we are completely at ease and one with silence.
The sun kisses me once again, igniting my hair and turning it into a burning, golden spectacle as it falls in a veil over my eyes. Everything is spinning and glimmering around me, I'm whole, I fill up every empty space inside me. I remember passion, my body easily moves. My veins now look an enchanting translucent lavender- my blood smiles as it's lit by the nostalgic sunlight, it is a reminder of my consciousness and mortality.
This moment I feel beautiful, I at least seem beautiful. No one knows, but I keep myself locked in a garden- my thoughts are always yearning for the morning sunlight. When I feel as if I'm a little girl again, nothing weighs down or pulls me. At bliss, in spite of myself.
I digress, it's these moments so many of us when so many of us remember what it feels like to exist, we rush and hustle, all for nothing. We spend our time without thought of how it constantly fritters away. Always we are alive, breathing, and saying with conviction that we live for success. In the solitude of lonesome reality, we are isolated. We question ourselves eternally- never quite discerning whether each instance means anything at all, never knowing if we were really meant to do the things we were told to before we fade away, out of presence.
When I pass away, the sunlight will shine in the same spot where I once twirled, where I was once full of life and bliss. When I fade out of human memory, the Earth will still know the essence of my steps, and the sun will recall how it once graced a girl twirling there with it's warm rays, brimming with vivacity.