Secrets

These are poems I've written throughout the years.

I've always found it so easy to express myself through writing, rather than talking.

Emotions can explode onto your paper, just feel the raw passion and energy flow through you, and pour it out.

I Have a Secret

You've known me since forever

it was always obsession

after five and a half years

I have a confession.

Its not ever new to me

these overwhelming feelings

however I can't tell you

for Ive no clue if you are even capable of love

or affection.

With every single passing day

I yearn for your love more and more

please don't hesitate to say

you might feel the same way.

but when I think of rejection

It hurts so bad.

my heart is tearing in two

my head no longer has any say

Whenever you are near

my heart takes over

and you replace my blood

with pure ecstasy

and longing.

I swear its like an internal key,

sealing away my hate for you

with these feelings I dread

and I can't reason with it any more

in my locked up head.

Empty

I am

a dull empty vase
the black flowers have wilted away

But it's so hard
to let them go

I need a new
colorful bouquet
One in full bloom

Recall

Hands reach to the depths
of this temple

the Mother racing
a small tickle

long live
zombies on the screens
kisses in the middle
of the streets

your soul tastes
of
hard obsessive sweetness

Thank you very much, I appreciate the kind words.

Yes, I wrote all of these in high school. First one was freshman year when I admired someone from afar, for many years, but never had the courage to speak to them.

I will certainly bring more, I have plenty

Everything

You see you've been imprisoned
Inside my world
I see you every hour

When I am sleeping
You're walking through my dreams
While I'm eating
I want you here with me
When I'm dragging myself home
I wish you'd trail along
When I'm all alone
Your face is on every wall

When I'm talking to them
I'm missing you
When I see him
I think of you
While I'm counting the time
I'm longing for those eyes
When I'm tapping my feet
I'm wishing you wouldn't hide

While I'm doing my job
I feel empty inside

I can't focus on anything
Because you are my everything

And lying in bed
Is the best and worst
Because my thoughts run wild
But are just fantasies
It hurts

Your face burns my mind
With the early sun rise

This is not love
But beyond infatuation
My hopes collide

Colorless

When will I see the light
I can't even breathe

I'm feeling a negative influence
Grey is all I see

Hollow system
Divide it up
Find it's empty

Here

There you are
Glancing back again
I've been waiting so long
My heart has been cracked
And it's splintered
My arms reach out
Nothing takes hold
You're fading in the light
I'm trapped in the eery shadow
I can feel your dirty thoughts
Feed them to me
Sharp as I swallow
Smooth caramel hues
Stomping out the phrases
It's a deaf saying
So I consume all the pain
Perhaps a dead rose
Falls on my lips
Glancing at the thorns
Pierce through iris