VenusAquarius

Big K.R.I.T. - I Got This Here

Young Jeezy - Still On It

Roy Woods - "Monday to Monday"

Govana "Likkle Bit a Money"

Stylistics - Hurry Up This Way Again

Jocelyn Brown - Somebody Else's Guy

As I live, fidelity has become less of a virtue. Lack of fidelity is a symptom.

I've posted it many times: "The Eternal Triangle" by Loz Greene http://www.skyscript.co.uk/lgreene.html

Fidelity to me is simply a matter of health and safety - no more, no less. I can't have my health or safety secretly at risk in this way.

Judging a man or woman by what they do with their sexual organs has always been beneath me. And basic general complaints about the act itself makes me think the "victim" is really basic. Listening or reading such is just entertainment.

Today, I could give a rat's ass. Got more things I'm interested in than dick travel stories.

Posted by borednbeautiful

Posted by VenusAquarius
I'm 48 years and 17 days old and my desires and needs have changed at least three times.

I manifested my husband and we were divorced for a time. He's mutable and tries to keep up with my desires and needs. He's trying to be a caring nurturer that i need as I age. If he can't... Lords knows...

I could have manifested someone each time my desires and needs changed. I know it. But, I feel guilty being a heartbreaking man-eater. I was my unadultered self whenever single.

At this age, if single, I know they'd try to play me. And because I don't give a fuck to my core.... I would be more seductively, and perhaps righteously, brutal.

I have contemplated nunery. To be completely real... the only perfect man is Jesus.

I am contemplating nunery too. Or living in a Buddhist monastery. It can be Orthodox too.

Btw, how did you manifest your husband? Did you regret it?

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Through reading books and falling in love with particular male characters... I would close the book momentarily to swoon and dream for a while...and pray. I would do this from 5th grade on... I was encouraged to do it as a young woman in church. I am an artist and was a "gifted" child because of it. Among many things drawn as a child, I drew various versions of the family I wanted from 3rd grade on. I drew my last drawing of a husband in college.

No, I do not regert. It was that young woman's, that I was, desire. And, he tries to adapt and change like a drawing. As with drawing, when it's not turning out like you want, you wanna throw it away and start over.
I think alot about what I was thinking when I was 20. Was shorti-sighted in some areas. But, there's no way to plan that far. And desires are more intense when young; it's biological. My core values are met in this relationship.

You'd think at #3 you'd be numb by now.

My Capricorn dad had a Leo wife similar. I went to war with her. It almost got violent. But, I'm a Gemini dominant Aries so, I always wind up with excellent strategy. I won the petty battles she started. She actually became of her own games. That year I had to battle two Leo women. The other was a Scorpio male friend's ex-girlfriend. At one time, I was in court with my dad and Scorpio on the same day at the same time about these women.

At the end of the day, I knew possession is 9/10ths of the law and told everyone that she would not tell us when he dies. So, I said my peace, goodbyes in my mind... year by year, moments at a time well before he died.

So, when the day cane and he died, she called three weeks later.explaining to a cousin her grievances and why she did not tell his family....the whole fam knew I was right. I'm sure my dad knew she would do this.

Life is painful. Zoom out. Realize what you hsve power, control over, and let go.

I could say so much more about my analysis of my dad and the Scorpio's parts of this. But, it too much, too deep. Let's just say the knew exactly who they were with and why. It was a window to their character in ways that I really didn't want to know. At some point, I confronted them with my analysis. The Scorpio's was the darkest.

I'm 48 years and 17 days old and my desires and needs have changed at least three times.

I manifested my husband and we were divorced for a time. He's mutable and tries to keep up with my desires and needs. He's trying to be a caring nurturer that i need as I age. If he can't... Lords knows...

I could have manifested someone each time my desires and needs changed. I know it. But, I feel guilty being a heartbreaking man-eater. I was my unadultered self whenever single.

At this age, if single, I know they'd try to play me. And because I don't give a fuck to my core.... I would be more seductively, and perhaps righteously, brutal.

I have contemplated nunery. To be completely real... the only perfect man is Jesus.

They always look funky and jokey to me. I always eyerolled them.

1st Anger

And, if it's really bad

2nd Disassociative which is a glamorous place to be cause I'm extremely extraverted.

Lilith Aqua 1st House
Did not have to tap. I lived it.

It may be cause yours is in the 4th house. Strange place for Lilith to be in.

Posted by Gobbie

Posted by VenusAquarius
It's been a while since mine visited me.

Here's my topic on it:
https://www.dxpnet.com/opinion/miscellaneous/am-i-visited-by-an-incubus-5176622/

No, love, that was me.

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You's a hob goblin though... Where's that sexy avatar?