closure

so i've been having dreams about my ex wanting to talk to me and i woke up in cold sweat. i saw him at school today (he works at school) and we talked for a little while. He said he tried but couldn't forget about me and he said that he sometimes kept thinking about me and was depressed for months after our breakup. I felt similarly. He said why i didn't just say sorry and i told him just didn't want to make things worse , if he wants to even see me and it would be better if i just left.

he tried to hold my hand, it was weird when i said that were both dating other people so to stop. he went on saying how im like his sister..but he just was holding my hands as he was saying it. he got really close at one point and tried to kiss me too, i pushed him away and unfortunately cried. he gave me his shirt to wipe my tears. he apologized for all the things even though i wanted to apologize for lot of things that i did wrong too. he said i was the best girl a guy would hope for etc

in the end, we decided to stay as acquaintances and say hi whenever we see each other in the halls. i think we both needed some closure, but i still feel like it was a mistake meeting with him. it was a like a trip down the memory lane and alot of misunderstandings were clarified. i have tried very hard to move on but i told know if i have completely