Wow ok know idea where who or what the f your wanting asking or hopeing for. By your own admission your emotions and behavior was all over the place. Most males not just aquas would run for the hills. Figure out your current before adding extra guys into your life.
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Wait all you want, play it out how you like. In the end it is you who's hurting yourself.