At a lost....

Well, I am a Libra and this man is an Aquarius and he has been my best friend for over a decade and when I was 19 and he was 20 we made this pact that if neither one of us were married at 30 that we would marry each other. Our friendship is complicated to explain being that we have been intimate with each other before not for the last 6 years tho. One morning I text him "I just wanted to take the time to tell you that I miss you and think about you often, you are one of my best friends and I love you" He text me "Awwww.... I will always be your friend as you will mine... I love you too and time just goes by so fast it still seems like yesterday all the we have seen and done together just happened wish we could go back and cherish and value things more. We were young and wild.

I have been in love with him since the first time we kissed and he knows that I have feelings for him which he said that he knew that I had feelings but didn't know how deep, and that I should be able to tell him any and everything. I told him I do tell you everything except that I have loved you from day one. He said True you do... Just the biggest information ever you hold out. We have both dated other people in the last decade but after my ex and I broke up I was talking to my best friend and he brought up the pact. He has mentioned moving down here to where I am a few times, as we currently live in different states. He texts me every morning. The sexually chemistry is still there, I try to give him the freedom that he needs. He still hasn't said anything about his feelings for me and I don't want to push the issue but I feel like I am not getting younger, I don't want to be waiting on a man that will never be ready. I am a bad judge when it comes to men and if they really like me. At a lost with things

Posted by Metoo
Is it true love or infatuation?
I would be dating if I were you & look at him as a best friend, but unless he wants to step up you have nothing & all the wishing & being in love with him wont make it work.
Date others and stop holding onto the past. If an aqua has feelings for you especially after a decade of friendship & intimacy, you'll KNOW it. He would travel to get more of that time & intimacy.
also when he answered your text, he spoke of a closer bond as though it was another era in his life. He does care but is not planning a life with you. friends & leave it at that.

Not to get, but doesn't this sound a lot like that movie One Day, with Anne Hathaway and Jim Sturgess?

I find that watching movies, while obviously not good to define reality, can kinda purge my emotions a bit so I can approach my real-life problem with a different perspective and clarity of mind. This flick is about keeping things in perspective and not taking time for granted, and other rom-com staples, but it may help. I recommend it.

My 2??.

I don't think he's interested in acting upon that pact. I think he cares for you as a friend and that's how you should look at it. If he wants to come closer to you, he will. Perhaps yall can hang out one weekend, as friends, and see what happens when you meet in person, but don't let it confuse you if he doesn't step up for more.

You're only 28 and I don't see any reason for panic on not getting married by 30.