help me out here!

K so I'm gonna spill my guts and I want to know if this explains aquarius/ if you can relate. K so I feel really awkward in emotional situations and when someone breaks down and cries to me I don't know what to say or do I can only give them advice by analyzing their situation. I keep everything to myself too. Like if something really bad happens in my life I don't wanna talk to anyone about it I just wanna be alone. And when I'm dealing with bad situations and am alone I never ever cry I just put some tunes on that relate. I've had the same group of friends for like 7 yrs and even though I have plenty of aquaintances because I like to party I've grown up and realized that those people are the only ones I care to rely on. I don't care about anyones opinion that I don't respect and even if I do respect them I use their opinion as criticism because I know what's best for myself. I'm extremely insensitive and independent. Even my grandma tells me I'm very independent minded. And I absolutely can't stand it when people try and show me how to do things or help me perform a task. Id rather do it alone. I understand the difference in alone and lonely. Like alone can be beautiful and it represents freedom and individualism but lonely is just another dampering whiny emotion. I like to get to know people through conversation because it shows if their on my level of intelligence and I hate small talk. And I never let anybody know how I feel, and I don't understand how people say that some bottle up their emotions until they explode because I don't explode. Eventually it just goes away because I know how to let it go when its over. I'm not very sentimental because revisiting my past is a waste of my time and when someone tries to get me to revisit the past it brings no feelings just repitition. I feel that crying is a weakness because what most people cry about is so petty and unimportant. I hate self pitty. I hate when people victimize themselves. And I would never compromise my freedom for anything like a relationship... oh yeah and p.d.a. makes me feel awkward even when other people do it. Thanks for the help

You need more warm water. It will help to calm your nerves a bit.