independent Aries girl - will I ever get married?

Hey,
Im 25 y o Aries girl. I am very independent, people like me but I am very undecided when it comes to relationships. I have a feeling of jealousy very often- I kind of 'friendzone' people : girls, boys, I am very kind, people like me but then I can make my own business, be very selfish, achive big things. My problem is that I have not been in a real relationship for years. Usually I meet boys on parties, at university- we hang out like friends, we sometimes sleep with each other BUT then I start not to care.
Before when I was younger I think usually until the age of 23 I cared a lot about others , opinions and so one. And for 2 years I started not to care, I do my thing AND i see people care a lot. Especially boys after 'intimate situations'. I kind of behave like men. And it makes me weird.
I mean on one hand I would like to be in a relationship but on the other I would need to sacrifice my world, some friends spend time together and maybe Im not ready? I know a lot of boys are interested in me but sometimes I think I scare them. Because I have a Saturn Moon conjunction which makes me very serious and selfish person. I can be focused on my thing very well.
Will i get married? will i decide it? will i ever meet someone that will accept me?

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It's all up to you. If you're sure that you're ready to be in a serious relationship, then you'll make it work. I would suggest working on yourself before you try to take on a relationship though. Also, it depends on how high your standards are when it comes to a spouse that will determine your luck in the dating world.

Also, I don't think you're ready. You're twenty five and you refer to males as boys. To me, that's a sign that you aren't ready.

i am afraid that somehow I just can not see anyone approaching me or i make some posture that can be very distant.i am afraid that somehow i can catch on too late and then regret.
i feel sorry for myself during that time. i felt like this maybe 2-3 times in my life. like im running through my life seeing people but cant make a deep relations with them. no idea why.
even with family- they have always told me i was a bit egoistic and selfish...
i just dont have the feeling of being involved into sth in 100% . I am perfecionist and i give a f***ck very often. but in the meantime i can do 100 things at once , see people, and i cant 'take a picture' of my life.
i dont know why i am going like this.
im 25 and i feel very immature. EVEN though i do a lot of stuff. and this stuff is very cool. people say i am a cool person. and boys say i have guts to do some thing. because when i create the idea of doing sth i can do it. i throw myself into deep end and people admire it. BUT in the meantime i think they are a bit afraid of me?especially boys.. I dont know how i can change it ...

there is a guy that i like and he likes me. but i am undecided, and he is undecided. we both work almost in the same field. he is a virgo i am aries. and heh i am kind of scared of him but idk if he is not scared of me either... we had intimate times before but noone of us wanted to talk about it and i get mixed signals and i also probably send mixed signals... so its so weird.

yo you'll never get married.

never ever? so maybe im worrying without purpose 😛

what about this virgo man?

I find a similar thing luv, my friends tell me I have an i'm better than everyone else body language, standoffish maybe. Really I think its all a defense mechanism, and the only women I can find that break my walls down are Libras haha. I'm learning to cool my temper and compromise and that seems to help a bit.

Just walk up to your Virgo man and kiss him, you never know unless you test the waters, caution to the wind, its in your nature you know 😉

hes going abroad for 1.5 months and idk if i just lost a chance or not. im kind of frustrated. but idk when he is going maybe in some weeks...
we usually meet up randomly at parties. i never asked him out. he never asked me out. i see he is interested in me. other way he wouldnt be following me at parties and so one. i dont know what i should do. because before we had very intimate situation ( 3 months ago) and after that me and him got cold. and i freaked out because i thought he used me . but i didnt do anything i just got a step back. and i kind of forgot about him. and now when i 'maybe dont care' he ,again, shows interest... its so weird.
like chasing a rabbit. really

before when i texted him about our situation he was kind of 'an a******ole' and i felt very bad. and now? he again approaches me and i dont know whats going on. my mind is full of weird things. i see he observes me and deeply in my mind i think hes shy and he is afraid of me ... 😐

i like him, i know its toxic. and our common friend asked me if there is some weird atmosphere between us. and i said: yes and she told me that both of US feel stupid and weird about what happened 3 months ago. and she was right. i feel weird because he didnt even wanna talk about it. and he pulled away- like scared of commitment. so i just ignored it. and i pulled away and now he again ( when sees me) approaches me and follows me...
SO WEIRD

Do you think you have no value as a person if you aren't married?