I've been such a dick

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Posted by TaurusGirlRas
Wow!!! 33 great number to turn things around. Let me be the first to say the rage of aries is what taught me what love is and the magnitude it could become undone. Aries love reminds me of the Big Bang!!! So freaking beautiful!! Anyway...start meditation it'll work wonders also look into your north node sign in your natal chart to find how to align that fiery passion to fuel purpose and life rather than destruction n learn to keep around those who understand you n know to forgive
Thank you. My north node is Aqua! Hoping that sign will give me the strength and wisdom I need
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My temper and selfish ways gets the best of me. I'm 33yrs old and it only seems to get worst. I get more annoyed by people and I'll admit, treated those who didn't deserve it like shit. I'm ready to grow up and change my way of thinking. Before I destroy my own life in the process.
Yeah you're prolly not going to do that . Exhibit a ...you are a man. Exhibit B ...you are 33 Exhibit c ..you are a dick...

But good luck! :-)
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Wait, wait. The OP is a dude?

Well that'd explain a lot...
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Posted by starwars
I don't think its your sun, I think its your moon. Cancer moons are really sensitive and defensive take everything personally.

I don't believe that anyone can change the way they feel at certian moments nor is it right to hate on yourself and bring yourself down because of the way you feel, but you can always change the way you react. just don't suppress them, try to get them out in more profitable-positive way other than being snappy. like go for a run, draw....etc!
I'm a Cancer moon, 32, and it takes a LOT to offend me. Sensitive sometimes, sure. but I got that shit under control ages ago.

The OP sounds like they're a little late to the "time to evolve" party.
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My temper and selfish ways gets the best of me. I'm 33yrs old and it only seems to get worst. I get more annoyed by people and I'll admit, treated those who didn't deserve it like shit. I'm ready to grow up and change my way of thinking. Before I destroy my own life in the process.
Yeah you're prolly not going to do that . Exhibit a ...you are a man. Exhibit B ...you are 33 Exhibit c ..you are a dick...

But good luck! :-)
Wait, wait. The OP is a dude?

Well that'd explain a lot...
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I'm a female! And I was raised by men. My mother was in prison most of my life. My father raised me and I have 6 brothers. Yep, the only girl!
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yeah it's good that u're honest with it

i'm kind of on the opposite end of the stick - i'm learning to be more mean because ppl have treated me like butter when i didn't deserve it.

i generally think people will revert to their ways and can't change, but i wish you the best of luck.
I get my anger from feeling neglected and used. However, I'm learning to forgive. I believe people can change. My ma was also a jerk when I was younger. Bad temper, alcoholism. Today.... She's the sweetest person in the world. It shocks me everyday to see how big her heart and spirit has gotten.
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Don't get me wrong, I have a big heart. It's when my temper come into play... My response is hateful. Destructive. I become so defensive, I could care less of hurting you...mentally, emotionally or physically. Very immature. At my age, I'm surprised I havent ended up dead or in prison. Time for a change. I want to love more and harder.
I've recently decided to let someone with a cancer moon go... It's kinda like you guys are cancerous at times... Learn to express your emotions... It's like you guys have so much hidden... Geesh.. I feel like to this day I still never knew .. It's like she'll go into these moods and I wouldn't know what to do... All I asked for was her to open up.. It was almost three years.. Lol. Must be hard for you guys..
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Posted by ariesheart
My temper and selfish ways gets the best of me. I'm 33yrs old and it only seems to get worst. I get more annoyed by people and I'll admit, treated those who didn't deserve it like shit. I'm ready to grow up and change my way of thinking. Before I destroy my own life in the process.
Yeah you're prolly not going to do that . Exhibit a ...you are a man. Exhibit B ...you are 33 Exhibit c ..you are a dick...

But good luck! :-)
Wait, wait. The OP is a dude?

Well that'd explain a lot...
I'm a female! And I was raised by men. My mother was in prison most of my life. My father raised me and I have 6 brothers. Yep, the only girl!
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I thought so. Someone's all calling you a guy in this thread. Fucking a, people.

...nope, still don't get it. Behaving like a 20 year old when you're in your 30s is really strange, sorry. It's good you want to do something about it, I'm just surprised it's so delayed. Women especially start maturing out quite a bit by their 30s.

What are your other placements?
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I don't think its your sun, I think its your moon. Cancer moons are really sensitive and defensive take everything personally.

I don't believe that anyone can change the way they feel at certian moments nor is it right to hate on yourself and bring yourself down because of the way you feel, but you can always change the way you react. just don't suppress them, try to get them out in more profitable-positive way other than being snappy. like go for a run, draw....etc!
I'm a Cancer moon, 32, and it takes a LOT to offend me. Sensitive sometimes, sure. but I got that butter under control ages ago.
Lol, sometimes? You're so neurotic on these boards you remind me of Eric Harris (also an Aries/Cancer) before he shot up Columbine with that other kid. Sun square moon is a real cookiemonster, eh? No wonder I get P-angel vibes from you. Unlike P though, you actually fight back when called out, even if you know you're wrong. Funny butter.
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I'm sorry, but WHO are you and why should I care what you have to say?

Yeah, bye Felicia.
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Posted by ShadowAbsorber
yeah it's good that u're honest with it

i'm kind of on the opposite end of the stick - i'm learning to be more mean because ppl have treated me like butter when i didn't deserve it.

i generally think people will revert to their ways and can't change, but i wish you the best of luck.
I get my anger from feeling neglected and used. However, I'm learning to forgive. I believe people can change. My ma was also a jerk when I was younger. Bad temper, alcoholism. Today.... She's the sweetest person in the world. It shocks me everyday to see how big her heart and spirit has gotten.
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This is beyond astrology, dear. Knowing you grew up with those surroundings and have those issues, you should probably seek counseling. All your reactions and temper are likely rooted in all those issues you grew up with and have yet to resolve. Work through those and you'll see the rest start to diminish.

From an astrological standpoint, I've noticed that shitty situations bring out the worst traits with Aries (but would with anyone, tbh). Remove them from those shitty situations and those bad traits stop being a problem.
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Posted by ariesheart
My temper and selfish ways gets the best of me. I'm 33yrs old and it only seems to get worst. I get more annoyed by people and I'll admit, treated those who didn't deserve it like shit. I'm ready to grow up and change my way of thinking. Before I destroy my own life in the process.
Yeah you're prolly not going to do that . Exhibit a ...you are a man. Exhibit B ...you are 33 Exhibit c ..you are a dick...

But good luck! :-)
Wait, wait. The OP is a dude?

Well that'd explain a lot...
I'm a female! And I was raised by men. My mother was in prison most of my life. My father raised me and I have 6 brothers. Yep, the only girl!
I thought so. Someone's all calling you a guy in this thread. Fucking a, people.

...nope, still don't get it. Behaving like a 20 year old when you're in your 30s is really strange, sorry. It's good you want to do something about it, I'm just surprised it's so delayed. Women especially start maturing out quite a bit by their 30s.

What are your other placements?
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I didn't say I walk around throwing tantrums. I'm a introvert so I dont involve myself with a lot of people anyways. I was pointing out that when people upset me, I do react harshly and I can be selfish when it comes to opening up to people or forgiving. People love me. If you met me, I come off goofy, educated, spontaneous, loving...i help anyone who's in need. Im well loved at work (and Im the boss), neighbors cooks and buy me gifts every holiday.... Just don't get on my bad side. That's the part that scares me and need fixing. I can become overly emotional and exaggerated in my reaction. I hurt people more than they may have deserved.
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Posted by rockyroadicecream
Posted by Aggrippina66789
Posted by ariesheart
My temper and selfish ways gets the best of me. I'm 33yrs old and it only seems to get worst. I get more annoyed by people and I'll admit, treated those who didn't deserve it like shit. I'm ready to grow up and change my way of thinking. Before I destroy my own life in the process.
Yeah you're prolly not going to do that . Exhibit a ...you are a man. Exhibit B ...you are 33 Exhibit c ..you are a dick...

But good luck! :-)
Wait, wait. The OP is a dude?

Well that'd explain a lot...
I'm a female! And I was raised by men. My mother was in prison most of my life. My father raised me and I have 6 brothers. Yep, the only girl!
I thought so. Someone's all calling you a guy in this thread. Fucking a, people.

...nope, still don't get it. Behaving like a 20 year old when you're in your 30s is really strange, sorry. It's good you want to do something about it, I'm just surprised it's so delayed. Women especially start maturing out quite a bit by their 30s.

What are your other placements?
I didn't say I walk around throwing tantrums. I'm a introvert so I dont involve myself with a lot of people anyways. I was pointing out that when people upset me, I do react harshly and I can be selfish when it comes to opening up to people or forgiving. People love me. If you met me, I come off goofy, educated, spontaneous, loving...i help anyone who's in need. Im well loved at work (and Im the boss), neighbors cooks and buy me gifts every holiday.... Just don't get on my bad side. That's the part that scares me and need fixing. I can become overly emotional and exaggerated in my reaction. I hurt people more than they may have deserved.
What makes it hard for you to forgive?
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I think its behind being disappointed so many times that I built up a wall. It's almost like ill hurt you before you can hurt me. Or also, you wanna disrespect me, let me show you what I'm cap able of. Those type of wrong thinking. I haven't always been this way. My heart has broken so many times by family, friends lovers. And now I've hardened. But it became extreme to where ill hu
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...to where ill hurt you to the extreme. Even if you do deserve it, I'll over exaggerate my reaction
That is hard work aries and takes a lot of negative energy


Try and be more gentle, first with you and then it will happen with others


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"negative energy"!!! Bam, you hit it on the nail! I can't live like that. Not only am I hurting others, but such negativity has caused my health to decline. It's not worth it.
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Posted by ariesheart
My temper and selfish ways gets the best of me. I'm 33yrs old and it only seems to get worst. I get more annoyed by people and I'll admit, treated those who didn't deserve it like shit. I'm ready to grow up and change my way of thinking. Before I destroy my own life in the process.
Yeah you're prolly not going to do that . Exhibit a ...you are a man. Exhibit B ...you are 33 Exhibit c ..you are a dick...

But good luck! :-)
Wait, wait. The OP is a dude?

Well that'd explain a lot...
I'm a female! And I was raised by men. My mother was in prison most of my life. My father raised me and I have 6 brothers. Yep, the only girl!
I thought so. Someone's all calling you a guy in this thread. Fucking a, people.

...nope, still don't get it. Behaving like a 20 year old when you're in your 30s is really strange, sorry. It's good you want to do something about it, I'm just surprised it's so delayed. Women especially start maturing out quite a bit by their 30s.

What are your other placements?
I didn't say I walk around throwing tantrums.
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Neither did I.

You also fail at answering questions.... :/
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I think its behind being disappointed so many times that I built up a wall. It's almost like ill hurt you before you can hurt me. Or also, you wanna disrespect me, let me show you what I'm cap able of. Those type of wrong thinking. I haven't always been this way. My heart has broken so many times by family, friends lovers. And now I've hardened. But it became extreme to where ill hu
Could it be that your thoughts of them were higher than they had deserved? Would less expectations help?

Also, do you find your strong temper/reaction to be draining of your own energy? Do you think you would be happier in some cases if you had let go?
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It is draining my energy. But here's an example... I trusted my ex-husband to keep our don for a summer. We had been doing that for the first 3yrs of our son's life. The summer he decided he didn't want a divorce, he kidnapped my son for 2yrs. That was his way of saying I want my family back. Here's another.... My cousin got evicted from her home and I told her to come stay with me. During that time I was looking for a part time job, so I decided to get a job with her because she didn't have a car. Her boyfriend broke up with her one day, so on the ride to work, she decides she didn't want to go in. I said ok, ill take you back home, let me drop off something that our supervisor needed and ill take u home. She goes off on me because I wouldn't take her home first. First, our job is an hour away, and we were 10min away, second, I didn't have to take her all the way home, could have let someone from work or another family member pick her up.

These are stuff that drives me to the way I am
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...to where ill hurt you to the extreme. Even if you do deserve it, I'll over exaggerate my reaction
...again, seek counseling. This isn't an astrological thing.
I am
Aries, if you can go to a psychotherapist it may help...they go deeper into why we behave the way we do. Counselling is good but not as deep
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I am. This is the beginning stage of me wanting to change.
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I don't think its your sun, I think its your moon. Cancer moons are really sensitive and defensive take everything personally.

I don't believe that anyone can change the way they feel at certian moments nor is it right to hate on yourself and bring yourself down because of the way you feel, but you can always change the way you react. just don't suppress them, try to get them out in more profitable-positive way other than being snappy. like go for a run, draw....etc!
I'm a Cancer moon, 32, and it takes a LOT to offend me. Sensitive sometimes, sure. but I got that butter under control ages ago.
Lol, sometimes? You're so neurotic on these boards you remind me of Eric Harris (also an Aries/Cancer) before he shot up Columbine with that other kid. Sun square moon is a real cookiemonster, eh? No wonder I get P-angel vibes from you. Unlike P though, you actually fight back when called out, even if you know you're wrong. Funny butter.
I'm sorry, but WHO are you and why should I care what you have to say?

Yeah, bye Felicia.
Because you've got your own growing up to do and have no place to be spewing the "hur dur you're too old for this shit" line at the OP.
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...to where ill hurt you to the extreme. Even if you do deserve it, I'll over exaggerate my reaction
...again, seek counseling. This isn't an astrological thing.
I am
Aries, if you can go to a psychotherapist it may help...they go deeper into why we behave the way we do. Counselling is good but not as deep
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Are you REALLY going to nitpick this too?

Here in the US, it's called counselling, regardless of who you're getting it from. We also refer to them as psychologists, not psychotherapists.

Either way, when it comes to counselling/seeing a therapist/whatever, people either have at least a masters in psych and have to have a PhD to be a psychologist. Both are adequate in seeking any sort of help with these types of issues.

You really do seem to forget you live in a country where things are a tad different.
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I think its behind being disappointed so many times that I built up a wall. It's almost like ill hurt you before you can hurt me. Or also, you wanna disrespect me, let me show you what I'm cap able of. Those type of wrong thinking. I haven't always been this way. My heart has broken so many times by family, friends lovers. And now I've hardened. But it became extreme to where ill hu
Could it be that your thoughts of them were higher than they had deserved? Would less expectations help?

Also, do you find your strong temper/reaction to be draining of your own energy? Do you think you would be happier in some cases if you had let go?
+1

Wisdom


🙂
It is draining my energy. But here's an example... I trusted my ex-husband to keep our don for a summer. We had been doing that for the first 3yrs of our son's life. The summer he decided he didn't want a divorce, he kidnapped my son for 2yrs. That was his way of saying I want my family back. Here's another.... My cousin got evicted from her home and I told her to come stay with me. During that time I was looking for a part time job, so I decided to get a job with her because she didn't have a car. Her boyfriend broke up with her one day, so on the ride to work, she decides she didn't want to go in. I said ok, ill take you back home, let me drop off something that our supervisor needed and ill take u home. She goes off on me because I wouldn't take her home first. First, our job is an hour away, and we were 10min away, second, I didn't have to take her all the way home, could have let someone from work or another family member pick her up.

These are stuff that drives me to the way I am
I'm sorry you had to go through these kind of things. 😢
Me too. I cannot think of anything worse than having your child taken away. How old is your child now Aries....is he with you, hope things have sorted themselves out


No need to blush Champ....😄


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He's been back with me since they found him. He's about to be 10 and doing well. Straight A student, plays basketball and soccer.