just to get this out of my head

I think this Aries guy I really liked is over me. He likes to go to LA to find work and be homeless for a while. the last time he left he really missed me..but this time I dont think he does. and you wanna know why I think this. Its because he left me on a good note.

Like im boring now because things between us were going so well...Stupid fucking Aries.. im a little pissed off

HAHAHA! my best friend is a guy. and I was complaining about this to him. He said that "guys are dumb, and Girls are crazy" and thats why there are so many problems.

aww..whats wrong with lady gaga? yeah she is a crazy person..but VERY entertaining..which is why she makes the big bucks. lol

orkdoop, your writing cracks me up. you write as if we were all in your living room talking...i could almost hear someone in the background go, "mmm hmmm" with a head snap. 🙂

sorry he's dumb. boys are stooopid. let's kick 'em in the shins.

xoj

you always were a fiesty one, amethyst. 🙂

Its not you its him. If he has mistakes in his non-love life that he has to take care of, he is gonna attempt to tackle them or find a quick fix so that he can get back to the love of his life.

Unless you can present him with a quick fix that will remedy his past money problems and go back to the passion between just you two, then you are on hold but not out of mind.

For what its worth it could be very much tearing him up inside he can't be with you and be successful with money at the same time.

In many cases like this for an Aries person, its not you at all its them.

I didnt talk to him for 2 days..and he freaked out from worrying...and then because of that he wanted to be with me. But we are still not official.
He told me he met some girl in LA and as soon as he was starting to have feelings for her he ended it because he said he didn't want to loose me. he believes he is messed up and needs therapy because he just doesn't know what to do about me and him..

SO!! things seem to be progressing...but thats what I been lead to believe all along anyway...so im still at square one really...

Glad you see him focusing on you 😄

I for sure knew he might be torn up to not be with you. I hope he finds his way through his rocky road and get it to a secure place so he can focus on you.

yeah for real. seems that Aries "focus" on lots of things at once. which in reality that's not focus..that's being all over the place all the time..lol its quite the opposite.

Well i stopped talking to him for 2 days, and he freaked out and thought I was dead. As you know.. And told me he thought he wanted to be with me but wasnt sure..

but then the other night he got really mad because I was hanging out with his friends..(who somehow kinda became my friends) and he got really upset about it..and stopped talking to me for a day...

THEN he said he couldnt stay mad and I would never deserve it, just yesterday....

and now Im just confused..I dont appreciate getting my heart pulled like that...so I told him in a email that if his feelings for me the night he said he wanted to be with me are different now..that I have to stop talking to him...because that just isnt fair...Right?? what do you guys think??

Sounds like this drama sucks for you. I say tell him we can't be arguing if we are to be anything, and say its best we move on. And if all this drama is not worth it, then make sure to stay apart, because he will chase you if he still thinks he has a chance with you and likes you.

I know he will chase me 😢 its happened before..I always let him get back to talking to me..then it gets all shit again. I wish i could stop it. I want the strength to stop...im so weak.. and sad..and truly pathetic this morning...Its shit because people come to me with there problems..and then they get my sympathy then are gone...

where is my sympathy? who wants to help stop me from killing myself?? (seriously just 2 nights ago I was there for my friend who was trying to die) This post might get deleted...iv been deleted before...

some would look at this thread and say how pathetic it is to talk about online with strangers...and that maybe if I really wanted to I should just do it...
all I want is the strength to stop hurting...

darling orkdoop.....i know you are in pain....and it seems like you are totally alone....but you know you are not....reach out to those who love you. i have a feeling they would be there for you in a heartbeat, if only you would tell them how badly you are hurting.

xoj

My parents? no, I wont talk to them...but i have good reason. My mom is from Thailand and her grasp of sympathy(in the American sense) and the English language is not very good, and shes got lupus and is very sick all the time.. And my dad would only get really pissed off, as he does about any emotional problem you come to him with. unless I catch him at the perfect moment where im supposed to somehow psychically know when hes in the mood to listen... he is truly a selfish Libra....(an yet has taken care of my mom for more than 20 years, so he IS a good guy, truly, no lie)

but yes, I have one very good Capricorn friend who hears it all..constantly. im kindly giving him a break from being my "therapist"....because yesterday he said "get off your sorry ass and feel the way you want to feel"..then he felt bad for saying it and asked if I was mad at him..im not mad...i understand.

thank you all for listening. Im not someone who is going to commit suicide..I was only illustrating how much sympathy I give, and receive so little in return. its a Virgo curse perhaps...

but, I take care of myself....its very nice to post here. thank you

i'm glad you have a cap friend....as one, i can say when we are committed to someone or something, there is no severing how loyal we can be. ...but yes...after listening to you and offering a shoulder, a sandwich and the shirt off our back, we will tell you to buck up...because that's what real friends do. take care, you. xoj