Pisces girl needs help with Aqua boy

Its a long hot and cold story from day one and now its been 3 months, but the front of it now is I couldnt take his behaviour anymore, he wanted to call off being intimate because he said it was getting too close but continued wanting to be friends and hanging out directly after.

I tried, but it didnt go well and last time we met I thought he had been with another women and was trying to show me as he had glitter all over him. May not have been true but I suddenly felt he was manipulating me by trying to keep me around and loving him ... as he also kept teasing me but pulling awy... and giving nothing back but randomly telling me that he loved me here and there.

I tried to call it off completely but he tried to convince we that we should meet in a few weeks even though i told him it was just too hard for me to keep seeing him as a friend.

I blew up on him big style which i have never done before, I have always been patient and kind, everything came out... i said he was manipulative and fake, emotionally immature and told him shouldnt have to put on an act to get people to like him, which is what i felt he was doing as he is constantly charming then cold, I cant tell what is real and what isnt.

I then felt terrible the next day and wrote him to apologise and said I was in a bad place after breaking up, asked if we could sort this out... nothing..he gave me the silent treatment for a week before I begged him to say SOMETHING, because it was killing me ...perhaps he wasnt manipulating me I just could never tell what was going on because of how he was.

He finally wrote back -- I really didnt want to write back to you but you are right, ignoring someone is also silly. theres nothing I can really say at this moment in time, lets just both cool of, take a deep breath and relax.

That was it? Nothing else. I have no idea if he will ever contact me again....

I am completely in love with him and I would like to save the friendship at least. I wrote him back saying i understand and should talk to me when hes ready we both need to cool down. I then sent another message today saying can we meet to apologise because Im wondering if he thinks I should be trying harder. He didnt reply Then I wrote with a picture of us just saying, ---- I wont push you in to anything but I cant let this get me down anymore, if you want to talk again then get in touch I think I have apologised enough. I care about you and I hope to have you in my life again as a friend.

What can I do. The silence is killing me.... how can I fix this. I wish I never blew up but i just couldnt keep it inside any longer. I dont want to lose him

i'm afraid you can't do anything but wait.