taurus girl ruined my relation

I am an Aries woman - 25 yo. I had a Taurus female friend. She introduced me to her friends about 2-3 years ago. About 2 years ago her Virgo friend was interested in me.

I felt she was jealous, she couldnt stand that her 'bes friend'- as she called him was interested in me.

She was possesive, jealous and was always curious about me and him. Became my best friend when I started seeing him ( even for a while). I think she used my being naive and 'normal' to make sure we wont be together.

Now its 1.5 year after. He does not wanna see me. She has other boyfriend. He tried to know me like 6 months ago but I saw him being only interested in partying not in talking with me or so. I couldnt stand his behaviour of not responding messages, treating me like only a homie.

Of course right now he is single, she has a boyfriend but i think if she didnt stick her nose in that relation I would totally played that game differently. I deleted her from facebook- she didnt know why. She is moving forward with her new circle of friends.

I stayed the same but expanded my social circle- still searching for new male friends and maybe new boyfriend BUT cant forget this Virgo guy- still have a crush on him- because it was unfinished, like someone interrupted us and I got scared and pulled back and he didnt know why.

Its very weird to have a 2nd, 3rd, 4th chance with Virgo- not only with Virgo- but generally with people.

I feel so bad because I was frozen and paranoyed for about 6-8 months. Because I couldnt stand and believe someone would behave very weirdly to me.

I feel a guilt. I dont have a 'potential' candidate who I have a crush on.

And she is still friends with him, holding his friendship behind like she would wait for him for the future and I still think of him ...

I cant move on, even If I want.

The worst thing is that he knows my voulnerability, he knows i am sensitive, a bit different than her. He knows I am maybe not so loud, I am not laid back. There were times we had arguments. Always says about her being the centre of attention and the most laid back girl.

He knows my weaknesses. I feel so bad. Even 2 months ago he was jealous of me hanging out with his male friends. Like I couldnt do it. I saw his face but he didnt say anything even when I asked him.

I asked him out he pulled back. But then its been 3 months after and he is still single.

He probably thinks im paranoied or impatient-how can i be patient if i see that she is the one pulling the strings in the company because she is so laid back and people know her...

Its been always like she is the number one and others are twos, threes in a company. She must have been the most popular, she must have been the best one even for the price of ruining my relation. Like she would hold his back or interrupt our conversations, Accidentally pushing him away from me. Talking to him while he started talking with me, taking his arm when he was approaching me and changing the distance like i would be the 2nd one in a company.

I felt so bad. I feel so bad because she won the battle-has a bf and still is friends with this Virgo.