A bit of drama with Cancer this week...

Moon eyes, as you know, I went through the same this week with Cancer (your post about anger, being mad, etc) Constantly said I was mad at him for this, when I was actually being sacrcastic or overly tired...and we all did drink a lot.

The first incident he said I "spooked him" the next day. I did not remember being mad, obviously was not a big deal to me. I apologized if he felt that way.

Now it seems he has backed away from his constant TM's and "needing to see me" (since XMAS night) when he first got here. The first night was awesome and sent TM's nonstop about how fab it was, cant stop thinking about it, and came by the next night (XMAS) b4 heading out w/ friends. This is the night I said something that spooked him. Maybe it's just me...was NOT a big deal. He said I got mad at him for not doing "something"...was not true. Been a long XMAS day and exhausted.

He did call Friday (saw him out for an hour, he was with friends. Was going to meet later, never called) and then he called Saturday.

Sister wanted me to come to see her dad about my rug b4 he left back to NY that day. I ran over, bb cap and jeans on, met his mom and dad, ufff. while poor Cancer was on his laptop. Awkward but fine. Parents were so sweet.

Sat. night, cancer, his sister and her friend all partied (he was holding my hand, being attentive but not overly), they all slept over my house and sister fought w/ her husband, so there was drama. She was upset, he was upset, we had to hide her phone. She was so drunk she was spewing " I want you to be my sis-in law-, I love you, my parents love you..." I was like Oh God...that's how bad it was.

That night we were intimate, the next morning, Sunday AM he said "You were mad at me for snoring last night! Well I was drunk"...um...well..ya! it was 4am and a freight train and could not move him/wake him up, nothing...so I had to yell his name! I Was not mad, trying to get your attention I said. ME Mad? Again? I had to attack him with no finish, he was a bit grouchy and not snuggling. When they all left AM Sunday, there was a hig and a kiss from him and that was it. He jumped out of bed "God, I Have to get sis home, there's gunna be WW2"

Today is Monday, he leaves tomorrow back to the West Coast. Have not heard a word. Perhaps needed a day away from me or there was major drama when sis got home. Hmmm...assuming I will see him one last time but don't know what to think...was it me?

I can understand that LK...but I am hoping it does not affect him not contacting me b4 he leaves. I feel like I did, said something wrong...as he did back away from me a bit, and now he is leaving.

True, but it's nice to have a bit of romance/passion with someone....regardless of the situation. It does not come easy for me opening up to someone intimatly, was 2 years prior to this (due to me being sick most of that time).

He does come here often so I would like to leave it open-ended...I have a good time with him, I don't find that often with men. Reality: it is what it is, but enjoy it while it's here.

Hey Moon eyes!

Well him and his sis came by yesterday to drop off the new carpet...funny, he walked into my house like he owned the place. Oddly, he was analyzing my house (looking at my photos in each room, opening closet doors, etc) unlike he did before. Very strange.

He was huggy and kissing , but still his sis was there. The three of us hung out for a bit. As they were about to leave he hugs/kisses me, told him to have a good trip back, then he told me he decided to stay an extra day, taking his mom to dinner (last night) and would see me b4 he left.

Let's see what happens.

Hope your cancer has been on the up and up...

Well here ya go....it's 4pm ..he finally TM's me:

Cancer texts me:
"how is the rug workin? What are your plans for New Years?"

ME: "Love it, thanks. was 2 have ppl over but becoming a pain, what about you? You still in MA??

Cancer:
"Leaving for Vegas 2morrow AM, love to see you before I go but gutta see my little cousins tonight...talking to one about college..she may come to LA!"

ME:
"Have fun and Happy New Year!"

....weakest excuse I have heard yet..give me a break...

M_E~ Do we really "need" anyone in our lives?
How did the happiness go out the window? What happened?