Blew it? Part 2

Anyway ... I'd flip out and tell him I couldn't do it anymore and he'd give me alllll these reasons why I should stay and tell me that our friendship should come first and we should never not be friends. He said the sweetest things that I could never imagine coming from a guy like him (quiet, reserved, kinda shy). And he never did anything to make me think he didn't care about me. He told me he had "a lot of love" for me, but it wasn't easy for him to say that he loved me and he didn't think he did. He told me he wanted to be with me and only me, felt like he was committed to me, had never "been with" one girl for this long of a time (about 7 months at that time), or even let a girl in his house to spend the night the way he did me. And I believe him. He seemed like such a genuine person. I even had a few of his family members tell me that they'd never seen him the way he was (the texting and spending so much time with me, apparently, he's never really been that close to a woman before).

In the beginning of July he started a new job. I had calmed down and hadn't said anything about the relationship thing for about 1 1/2 months and started just appreciating all the ways he showed me he cared for me. With the new job, came new hours and we didn't see each other as often. Then, on his weekends off (after I'd been there pretty much Sunday - Wednesday) he'd go out with friends and family. The first 2 weekends this happened, I picked arguments with him and he handled it in his low-key, laid back way and calm me down. Then I started realizing how selfish I was being. I apologized and told him I'd work on, it, which I did.

Things were going really well until the 2nd week of August on a Friday night. There was miscommunication between us and we ended up getting into a screaming match (which we'd NEVER done, but we had both been drinking). This led to a weekend of him avoiding me and ignoring my texts (which he's NEVER done). The following Tuesday, he called me on his break. We talked briefly and he said he wasn't mad at me but thought I was trying to push myself to be the center of his universe and didn't like that I got mad at him for spending time with his family. It hurt that'd he'd even think that about me. We talked about what happened the previous Friday and figured out where the miscommunication was. I asked him if he still wanted to be with me. He said he didn't know and he'd text me later.

Later that night, he texted me that he didn't want a relationship and I knew that. He liked things to be more casual and that lately it was getting to be more and more of what he didn't want. He said he was "so sorry" but he needed a break to ease his mind.