CANCER MALES AND LOVE TRIANGLES- HELP

we have been bestfrineds throughout our adolescent years, and are now both in serious relationships. however, we have gotten curious, and gotten intimate on different occasions, which after each he would attack me and say creul things, and then i wouldnt hear fROm him, WEKKS, MONTHS, TO A YEAR. recently,One night he wnated to hang out with me, we went for a walk... and he told me he didnt wnat to fight with me no more, and that i can trust him, and that he promised me that form now on he is a chnaged man and wont ever get mad at me, for his guilt. he then went in to kiss me.
i began to cry and told him i could not do this.. i told him he shouldleave, but he said: i am not leaving, i dont wnat to go. luckily my phone rang and i had to leave anyway, so we both left. a couple days later we met up once again, but it was more sexual, he kept pressing something sexual. he said: we will never be normal again, becuase theres an attraction between us, that we havent fully experimented.
now the problem is..... its not in my nature to cheat.... if i do continue this, it is becuase i have always had strong feelings for him ,im curious to kno wut it be like to be with him... but im afraid that all he is curious about is sex.
i dont kno if i can trust this.. or where it is leading, will i get hurt, does he want the same as me?.... any ideas?

plz

i'm beginning to get the idea that you're more interested in hearing what you want to hear--that he really loves you and only you, and that you want to hear that what's going on is normal in a loving relationship, or at least a potentially loving relationship..

i'm sorry, but this really doesn't look like this is the case, and that's the reality of it. i think you should cut him off altogether and move on with your life. he doesn't seem to be trustworthy, and he obviously has serious issues if he's putting you down and saying cruel things to you. him simply saying that he's a changed man does not mean he IS a changed man--actions speak louder than words, right? i think your instincts are telling you that this isn't a trustworthy situation, and i think you should listen to your gut. i know it's difficult to let go of someone you care about, but really ask yourself: why do you think he's worthwhile?

good luck.

No use FiddleSticks...with thse women.

😢 im crazy about him, n i kno he knows it.... so y would he do this if he didnt feel the same...... i wanna block him out, n cut him out of my life, but even when he did the unspeakable, i still wanted him around me... i dont kno why, and thats what i wanna find out.
i want to kno what i am missing, to make him not wnat to be with me...
especially since the reason he started dated his current, was ebcuase she reminded him so much of me ( he told me)