Well, I was doing really good but I broke last night. I had been in absolutely no contact with my young cancer for four days and out of the blue he sent me a text about coming over and I gave in.(He has my emergency number as well) I was like putty in his hands :/ . Anyway, right before he texted me I was thinking about him. I guess old habits die hard. I really wasn't expecting him to contact me given our last encounter. I'm still shocked that he did. Well, we did our usual hanging out and watched "face-off" but we didn't have sex at all, we just talked for the rest of the night about miscellaneous stuff like thanksgiving and silly stuff. Both of us wanted to have sex (him more than me) but I really wasn't trying to go there with him. He was different last night he wasn't mean or anything he was actually touchy feely. I also told him not to forget his movie and he said it was mines and that he gave it to me because he wanted me to have it. It was weird like the roles were reversed last night I was being the rude one and he wasn't. He kept finding little ways to touch me and it scared me. I was nervous and I felt like I was in high school again. I think I'm in love with this little boy (smh) but it's always been him even before we became FWB. Anyway when was time for him to leave we had the most sensual hug.I was hesitant to hug him but I gave in anyway and when I pulled away and he grabbed my fingers. I told him to stop and he said I was funny because usually when we hug at the end of the night He's the one that usually says stop because I would get touch feely. I think he missed me. Can anyone interepret this crap??
