Killing Cancer's Hope

This topic was created in the Cancer forum by taurus575 on Wednesday, December 7, 2016 and has 3 replies.

It was irresistible attraction and happiness which made me walk along the path of love for him but he saw me as his dear friend only. After 8 months of living apart so that I could "move on" from him, he asked me yesterday if I have moved on so that we could meet over the weekend and be good friends again.

I think he did not know that love is a fire which cannot make you go back to the phase of just friends again. After struggling 24x7 to take a decision between what to follow - love or friendship, I chose love yesterday.

I felt I killed his hope to be friends again. He asked me to not think about love and be his close friend again but seems like I had already made my mind to always see him as a lover, not just a friend. While a conversation with him yesterday, I realized since 7 months he was waiting for me to be over from romantic feelings so that he could be my friend again but he lost his hope last night too just the way I did.

I said Goodbye to him and his dying hope said back, "Goodbye for now" as if his hope still wants to wait for me to be back as a friend someday. Neither power of love nor power of friendship could survive between us and a relation permanently died. He left without saying anything when I said, "No, Goodbye permanently" but it was hurting me more than ever.

I think I did right.

Yours,

Taurus