leo guy broke up with a cancer woman

Aite so I never loved anyone deeper than this Cancerian girl. She also used to say that I was her best so far.We were together for 8 months but we really had a strong bond minus the constant arguments and fights. She was really sensitive and would get hurt very easily and I hurt her many times that includes breaking up with her. And as a leo guy I was very frustrated with her not showing me attention or admiration.
Anyways, we went no contact for 3 months and then I apologized to her sincerely and she sent me this:
You were a good boyfriend and stuff and my mom liked you and everything, but if you do something like that Once, how do I know you won't do it again. I'm always gonna be black, that's not changing so.. but Until you fix your attitude, we won't work.

So what does this mean? Does she still want me? should I just change my insensitive attitude and try to get back in the future? Or do I just move on? Please help. Sorry about the long post.

The question is do you really want her?

Yes I really do but I am afraid she has already retreated back to her shell. She cut me off completely as well. She does reply very fast but she never initiates any contact.

^black. Yeah I do wanna move on but I keep getting mixed signals from her and that is confusing. Sometimes she posts on instagram, " I have no sympathy for you coz I only hate you.." and othe day after she wrote, " I know I love u now.." I never had hard time moving on. It literally takes me 2-3 weeks after cold turkey but I had fell too deep for this crab girl and I cant seem to get out.

I was going to tell you how much of an ass you are - even call you a donkey's butt, but I think you are more naive than stupid, so I'll hold off on the name calling.

Get your act together. If you want the woman to stay, get off your high horse and grow a pair of balls like a man. So she's not worshipping at your feet, what next? Should she suckle you at her breast?

And if her being black is a description of her race, then you really are an asshole.

Donkey butt.

How about stop being such a dick.

^ well I have tried so hard to do the right thing. I sent a letter telling her that I am truly sorry for what I have done. I started training at the gym and started meditation 3 months ago to change my mind and body. And I feel very good about the lifestyle change and I always have happy mood now. I also joined college and I am starting this fall. I want to do this for her and for myself and I want to surprise her after a year or so but I dont think she will be waiting for me. when I tell her I am changing she doesnt believe me anymore and she is acting very cold and distant. So yeah I dont know what else is there for me to do except wait for her. Right now she is just being unreachable and ignoring me.

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^ well I have tried so hard to do the right thing. I sent a letter telling her that I am truly sorry for what I have done. I started training at the gym and started meditation 3 months ago to change my mind and body. And I feel very good about the lifestyle change and I always have happy mood now. I also joined college and I am starting this fall. I want to do this for her and for myself and I want to surprise her after a year or so but I dont think she will be waiting for me. when I tell her I am changing she doesnt believe me anymore and she is acting very cold and distant. So yeah I dont know what else is there for me to do except wait for her. Right now she is just being unreachable and ignoring me.

She may or may not take you back - given your treatment of her. No wonder she doesn't trust you. Ask yourself how would you feel and what would you do if somebody kept dumping you over and over and over again. You told her how you felt and all the changes you made to be a better man. These are changes you needed to make anyway to be any good to any relationship, but more importantly for yourself.

I hope you see that the changes you've made are only the beginning of changes that need to be made. Whether you get her back or not, let this be a learning lesson for you in how NOT to treat someone you claim to love.