New Year's, should be having fun

But instead I decided to leave early because all I could do was think about him.

I'm a virgo. My cancer ex who I would have died for only a few years ago recently started talking to me again after years of silence...I still love him, there's no question. But it was such an intense love that when things were bad, boy were they bad and our ending turned my world upside down.

He has been flirty/showing interest in me, and I am unsure of how to take it. When he cut ties with me he made me feel completely worthless, yet I hear from other sources that he hasn't even "been able to look at another girl" since me.

I don't know what to do.

I'm petrified.

I want to know his true feelings from him, but because I was the one reaching out my hand to him at our end and he turned it away I still feel that the ball is in his court. I don't think I have the courage to initiate such an intense topic with him. Now we dance around our feelings with every syllable that passes through our lips.

Any suggestions? Do you think he will open up to me at some point or should I just let it be?

Halp.