Capricorns with Spirituality

I have been searching high and low for some information on this topic; how do us Capricorns experience and express spirituality?

Asking because I've always been okay with being a Capricorn but lately haaaate being one bc for the past 4-5 years, I've been trying to connect with higher beings, ancestors, willing things into existence, meditation etc. and all that happens is I KEEP GETTING FRUSTRATED.
My frustration has calmed down lately as I simply try to embrace every moment; good or bad.
And just have been consistent with meditation (yoga has helped big time).
And while meditation has gotten a little better for me over the years, I still struggle with really getting out of my head/thoughts.
It's becoming harder to connect with my heart and I just don't know why.

I've never had an interest in the material world aside from nature (which is why I hate that "materialistic" stereotype)
so I feel I've always struggled being in this world.
But I just realized I struggle being amidst the spirit realm too because
my whole entire Capricorn nature is EARTHLY. Material.
This why I'm starting to hate talking to Water Sun signs (who I keep attracting over and over again) about this problem because in my experience it's always NATURAL to them.
They just don't get how hard it is for us to get in touch with our other senses.

Now I've been successful with mantras.
Been able to be calm and not depressed in the morning.
Diet is also helping.

But my goal currently is to connect with the spirit world,
in particular my female ancestors and my guardian angel
and I've never been able to get into trance
still don't see auras
not been receptive to energywork
very very very very few visualizations work for me

So my question is how do structured signs like Capricorns (and maybe Virgos too) "tap in"?
For those of you all who are able to, ***how did you get over the earthy-tangible-3D-world nature and ascend spiritually***?


Really looking forward to what folks have to say.


***DISCLAIMER***: I already know that the things mentioned aren't what you should obsessively look for in meditation or any spiritual ritual;
I'm just giving examples of how I don't connect with spirituality.

It is very frustrating. I dont have the answers, unfortunately.

I know people always say "pray, ask GOD and he'll show you" but I don't always feel connected. I feel like a very spiritual person, but like you I dont feel connected to the spiritual world, if that makes any sense. Almost like I have the ability but not the way.

I never really tried meditation, although I always read its good for Caps. Ive done a bit of yoga, but more recently I did a pose that was suppose to release emotion, but instead it seemed to open up my sacral chakra, which put me in a very weird position for about a week. Its like all of my desires, on a more sexual level, surfaced and it was a very uncomfortable, almost trance like state I was in, so I said never again with yoga.

Im very very very sensitive so I try to be cautious of what Im doing/practicing maybe out of fear of loosing myself. I was interested in auras at one time, but my mother's friend told me to be careful with that, which scared me away.

So I dont know. Maybe I fear the spiritual world in a sense. I do know, last year, the night my uncle passed I felt his presence. Before knowing he was no longer with us, I was nearly sleep and felt a presence so strong I prayed to GOD that it was a good spirit with me. I found out maybe an hour later he passed. More recently Ive been having visions, or lucid dreams, of spirits entering my body. Its happened twice. I guess this is a bit of the spiritual world. I just want to know with certainty that GOD is with me at all times. I guess that's my only concern.

Spirituality is personal and different for every person. I tend to internalize it and don't talk about it very much.
Perhaps, you're thinking too much and trying too hard? Just relax and have faith. Once you relax about it, you'll probably have more success.

These comments were exactly what I was wanting to explore. @caprigoral you're experience was really interesting. I was gonna ask if your hesitance to "go there" is fear of lack of control once you're there? I.e a lot of us Capricorns have a hard time letting loose in a lot of circumstances, let alone in an ethereal realm. Letting loose there is the one thing I'm down to do (I also have a watery Venus that also trines my Pluto), I just am trying to sway away the thoughts that all my rituals I'm doing are meaningless, let alone separating myself from doubt-filled and fear-based family members.

@ inana I'm glad that you were able to feel your uncle'snpresence

(That got cut off^^) I'm glad you were able to feel your uncle's presence....reading things like these gives me some hope. Getting very very very very very very VERY tired of the demonization us Capricorns get (cold...heartless...Saturn = satan...no feeling....I simply refuse to accept that life. Creating my own life infused with connecting with the ethereal realm, bump this Cap stigma.