Falling for a Cap friend

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TaurusMarine
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I've already written about my colleague who is friends with me and casually told he loved me. Then I told I appreciate him as a friend( BTW very loyal, caring and devoted) and we had a break as I quit the job temporarily.
I was back to the office to sign some papers and met him. We talked, went for drinks and I at the end of the day I initiated the kiss.
However, we didn't kiss as he didnt let me to, reminding me my words about friends forever.
I'm confused. I used to date a cancer asshole before and always told my cap about our relationship and now he's being could or whatever. I dk Egypt I initiated the kiss, but I felt it very natural. I won't ask If there's still a chance with my cap friend as I feel there's. What I ask is advice.... he's such a beatiful person and friend. I'm afraid of losing this friendship!!! I have always lost friends because of romance. But I also feel something for him. To be or not to Be?