i'm in love with a cap

i'm in love with a cap.
but she's all talk and no action.
and to be an adult about this: she started it. 😉
cuts me up.

Good choise she will have you in the mential hospital in no time.

Straight jacket and thorazine anyone?

sounds like kinky fun. my kinda woman too...

well, actually, i started the flirting.
but when she followed, she kept it up and pushed the "boundaries" a little.
and so, i acted on them. but she wouldn't step-up.

so i said "i am confused."
then she said "that's probably because of me."
and i said "i don't want anything to get in the way of our friendship."
then she said "same."

so our relationship is now set on friendship - which is good because we are good friends.
but i do care for her more than that...i think. i'm sure i do. (i need a little self-reassurance here.)

how would caps feel when they are told they are simply "friends"?
that is basically what i said to her in the conversation above.

in hindsight, my question is pretty stupid.
no one really likes being told by some one they have feelings for that they are simply "friends".

yes. it was kind-of an intentional let-down.
and yes. i needed some self-assurance about where it was going because "she's all talk and no action".
and no. i don't think it was an indiotic. we weren't "involved" with each other.

like i tried to suggest.
we were friends - flirty definitely. but friends also.
then she started to push the "flirtyness" boundary.
so i acted on it. but as per my very first post above: "she's all talk and no action."

i thought it was a pretty good "save" of our friendship.

but, also, as i suggested above.
i "think" i feel more for (or maybe it is i "want" more from) her than just friendship.
until both parties cross that line, all is confusing.

and i agree with spicegirl, losing friendships suck.
luckily, i've not lost that with her.

hey spiceonigiri! thanks for your comments.

just to be clear - it was i who acted on her signals (when she returned my flirting).
that's when she backed down from her "all talk".

i didn't expect her to "act" first. (i.e. grab or jump me - hahaha!)
everything's been quite proper: i've made sure that her part in this has been complimentary to her.

of course, my posts above have been summarised and the time period condensed.
but regardless of what has happened, we're still quite good together - when out with others (of course).
sure, there's been awkward moments from both her and i. but that's just normal.

i don't think my sign is important. but i'm libran.
and i have read the literature about librans and caps. 😉

(sorry for these posts.
but to be honest, i do need to release some of this.
thanks guys! especially thanks to spiceonigiri!)

i think she's gone!

no one likes getting put in a "friend-zone".
and even if that "friend-zone" is accepted, moving-on will eventually happen.

i put this situation on myself.
but that doesn't make it easier.
😢