
justlikeheaven
@justlikeheaven
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Posted by justlikeheaven
Loool 😂 what about my huge ego, what about my anxiety, my fear of rejection? I will be crushed if he'll reject me. He did it once, face to face, told me he just didn't see it working. I was devastated. This was when I got back first. The dynamic between us did changed from that time.
I do feel guilty and so helpless.
Time is not my friend here, I have this strange feeling that the more time passes the harder it gets to get close to him.


Posted by Caplove
So, you were angry about your political differences (the argument) and then ended it by telling him you were spending time w/ an ex lover, right? Are you certain you want to get back together? Were you certain you wanted to break up or did you just want to rile him up a bit?
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Don't hate me for my looong post, please 😊.
I'm not good at keeping a story short, but I will try.
So, we met at the end of june 2018, neither him or I had interest in each other. We worked together from july till the beginning of September, he was my boss, which seems unethical, but it wasn't, we kept a professional attitude throughout work hours.
Anyway, he was the one who fell in love first, I didn't liked him at all, he used to get on my nerves on a daily basis, with jokes and teasing and an arrogant attitude, damn, but in the same time he was a gentleman and made cute guestures, trying to help me and encourage me at work. I fell too, I couldn't accept that to myself, I was unsure because he was too sure of his feelings(I can't explain really).
Our "thing" (relationship) started on 20 August and it lasted only one month and 1 week , but it felt like one year.
He was so sure, so implicated, so determined to make things work, made a lot of compromises, but even though I liked the attention I wasn't sure about it, everything moved so fast, changing my whole rutine, I felt we were to different and I tried to end it a few times but he somehow made me change my mind everytime, until one day; we argued a bit in those last days about our political views and he made me very angry and I decided to end it in a brutal way. It was set to spent the weekend at his house, but I wrote to him (few hours before our date) and told him I want to meet an old friend (ex lover, pisces guy was jealous of him) and so, I don't want to spent the weekend with him... He was somehow speechless, we talked about our weekend together the whole week and I simply cut him off like that..and for whom.. for this man I used to love. He called me and with a sad and timid voice said "I think is better to stop seeing each other" and I was like "ok, I think is for the best"..and he was surprised with my answer asking me " you are sure?" , I was sure at that very moment, I was so angry.
He asked me a few minutes later on whatsapp "what do you think went wrong on this relationship?" , I responded "nothing worked, we are way to different and you must be blind to not see this" and he said "I might be blind" ..
That's all.
Even from that first night without him I felt something was wrong inside of me, some days had passed and I was 100% sure I made a big mistake and that I do love him and he inspired me to become a better person and that's something that no other man achieved.
I tried to get back with no succes, I did had some tantrums because of my frustration and that made him even more distant. He did wanted to talk from time to time and to..make love from time to time.
When I first got back I saw he's disappointed with me, then I saw he doesn't trust me.
He's still single, still the same (boring) life, still the same good man..but with his guards up.
I stopped talking with him for a month or so, and I reached out 10 days ago because I had to talk with him about a subject only he can understand, he said "it's funny 'cause one hour ago I was thinking on you and wondering what you're doing" .
We talked on the phone, we met a few times and everything was ok, he made me feel so much better about my problem, we talked about our lives, everything was nice between us, like two old friends.
But one afternoon we met and he kissed me (using a little force) and I gave in, he awakened all those buried feelings.On that afternoon I saw a bit of the "old him".
Last weekend I went at his place and we made love and everything was so romantic and natural, but that was all, he's spending the holiday with his family and we didn't talked from sunday afternoon (beside "Merry Christmas").
Seems like a long post but I didn't capture all those small but important details, also I'm not sure of my choice of words, but the main question is; Is there a possibility for a pisces guy to come back?
How can I show him that my feelings are true?
How can I make him trust me again?
Am I losing my time ?