Capgirl15
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Strange & Painful Cap-Cap Story
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Don't cheat your husband anymore. The Cap is your past don't let him ruin your present. No matter what he says just let him go. He will never be a good news to you.
Posted by Capricorn91
Don't cheat your husband anymore. The Cap is your past don't let him ruin your present. No matter what he says just let him go. He will never be a good news to you.
Reading your story.. all I'm thinking is you're blessed you have such an understanding husband. He's good to keep and respect.
I really agree with you. I was naive, somehow I think that he is a bad person because he don't let me be happy just because he is not happy.
And here I believe that's his Mars in Scorpio, how can someone be so cruel with a person for which says that has feelings...?
And here I believe that's his Mars in Scorpio, how can someone be so cruel with a person for which says that has feelings...?
Thank you for this. I know he is simply a beautiful human being. But the Cap loves to manipulate me so that I cannot see it anymore.
He acts like I was hurting him and take his revenge on me.
He acts like I was hurting him and take his revenge on me.
@Neno2 - And why would you do such things to someone?
Posted by Capgirl15
Thank you for this. I know he is simply a beautiful human being. But the Cap loves to manipulate me so that I cannot see it anymore.
He acts like I was hurting him and take his revenge on me.
Manipulative people do that. We are blind to it until something shows it for us and their tactics become crystal clear. My Taurus ex bf was manipulative, I could only figure it out when I paid attention to what I truly deserve.
Posted by TxOgalPosted by Capgirl15
Thank you for this. I know he is simply a beautiful human being. But the Cap loves to manipulate me so that I cannot see it anymore.
He acts like I was hurting him and take his revenge on me.
Manipulative people do that. We are blind to it until something shows it for us and their tactics become crystal clear. My Taurus ex bf was manipulative, I could only figure it out when I paid attention to what I truly deserve.click to expand
Yeah, there are some special things between the same sign. The thing is that I have noticed that the more I tell him about myself and about my feelings, the more he uses them against me. It was not like this in the beginning, he has become so because I think he went through something terrible with that girl...
Posted by Capgirl15
We've met online, 14 years ago, I was 15, he was 21.
2005 - After a month of love&hate, all/nothing, laugh/cry and deep online communication he came to see me in my hometown (approx. 250 km distance)
- we stayed together 8-9 hours - he was very shy at the beginning - I was very jaunty - he was fascinated by me (he told me some years after) - in the last 4 hours of that meeting we kissed almost continuously, it was....at least wonderful. At the end he wanted to touch my boobs, I've let him.
Wow cringe.
Sorry you were sexually molested as a teenage child.
Posted by Neno2Posted by Capgirl15
@Neno2 - And why would you do such things to someone?
Tbh i dont like how caps act in love
In my case is the opposite
I had my problems with a cap girl
Even thou i have a cancer moon scorpio mars i am a scorpio sun,cap venus guy
I am very disappointed in that cap girlclick to expand
I see..I do like Scorpios, I find them intriguing. Which type of issues you had with that Cap girl? And how are acting in love? Maybe I can help you with an opinion.
Mines are: Sun Cap, Raising Cap, Venus Aquarius, Mars Saggittarius, Lilith & Pluto Scorpio.
Posted by LadyNeptunePosted by Capgirl15
We've met online, 14 years ago, I was 15, he was 21.
2005 - After a month of love&hate, all/nothing, laugh/cry and deep online communication he came to see me in my hometown (approx. 250 km distance)
- we stayed together 8-9 hours - he was very shy at the beginning - I was very jaunty - he was fascinated by me (he told me some years after) - in the last 4 hours of that meeting we kissed almost continuously, it was....at least wonderful. At the end he wanted to touch my boobs, I've let him.
Wow cringe.
Sorry you were sexually molested as a teenage child.
click to expand
I wasn't sexually molested, maybe psyhically manipulated 🙂
Posted by Neno2Posted by Capgirl15Posted by Neno2Posted by Capgirl15
@Neno2 - And why would you do such things to someone?
Tbh i dont like how caps act in love
In my case is the opposite
I had my problems with a cap girl
Even thou i have a cancer moon scorpio mars i am a scorpio sun,cap venus guy
I am very disappointed in that cap girl
I see..I do like Scorpios, I find them intriguing. Which type of issues you had with that Cap girl? And how are acting in love? Maybe I can help you with an opinion.
Mines are: Sun Cap, Raising Cap, Venus Aquarius, Mars Saggittarius, Lilith & Pluto Scorpio.
Its a long story😅for me shes the most beautiful girl i ever saw
U seem pretty chill,i wish i met a cap like you,maybe its her venus in cap thats so bad in a wayclick to expand
Haha, nice. I forgot about my Moon in Virgo.
That Cap Venus seems hard to be dominated 😉
He is like most men: he wants your sexual attention and I guess, now that you are married, also the win of having you cheat on his husband.
In everything you write here not a single thing makes it seem like he has any sort of real care but for himself. He is apologizibg to you to have sex with you.
If he wanted to be with you, he would certainly not go about it this way, his only focus is on sex. And he would not have not tried to date you in all these years.
You guys have a crazy sexual connection, and you are in live with him, but he is not in love with you.
Hope it works out and your husband doesn’t get fucked over more ny this. I guess it's a situation you have to go though to learn.
Can't believe this cap guy is 35. He seems to be 22.
In everything you write here not a single thing makes it seem like he has any sort of real care but for himself. He is apologizibg to you to have sex with you.
If he wanted to be with you, he would certainly not go about it this way, his only focus is on sex. And he would not have not tried to date you in all these years.
You guys have a crazy sexual connection, and you are in live with him, but he is not in love with you.
Hope it works out and your husband doesn’t get fucked over more ny this. I guess it's a situation you have to go though to learn.
Can't believe this cap guy is 35. He seems to be 22.
I can relate to the fact that you're holding on to something that you've experienced at a very young age. It seems Caps hang on to their past beyond it's usefullness. I was in love with someone at the age of 14 and it took me 8 years to get over him... which was rediculous given the depth of the relationship. I think we are just super vulnerable and open at that stage in our lives and after that become more and more reserved. So we feel that it is that person on our past who holds the key for our vulnerability but in reality it is only our current reservations that hold us back from finding that similar free-ing feeling.
You want mature advice? This Cap guy wasstringing you alng the whole time. If he had feelings for you even half of what you had for him he would've NEVER let you go and ON TOP OF THAT dare to ask you advice about another woman he was pursuing. He came in and out of your life for sexual purposes only. He doe not care about you as a HUMAN with feelings. He just wanted sex and after realizing you're being physically loyal to your husband his patience wore out.
You need to realize there IS someone in your corner who actually cares about you and that is your husband. So you need to give him the love, and respect he deserve by NOT entertaining useless relationships. Now if you don't have desirable sexual relationships with your husband you can see a marriage counselor or sex-therapist because for women A LOT of our sexually is tied to our emotions/mentality and that can easily be fixed with therapy. Finding someone who supports you and loves you for who you are (Rather than your body or sexuality) is one in a million.
When those feelings come back just remember you're not tied to him, you are tied to your past and those first-time feelings of being the 14 year old you.
I hope you find your truth!!
You want mature advice? This Cap guy wasstringing you alng the whole time. If he had feelings for you even half of what you had for him he would've NEVER let you go and ON TOP OF THAT dare to ask you advice about another woman he was pursuing. He came in and out of your life for sexual purposes only. He doe not care about you as a HUMAN with feelings. He just wanted sex and after realizing you're being physically loyal to your husband his patience wore out.
You need to realize there IS someone in your corner who actually cares about you and that is your husband. So you need to give him the love, and respect he deserve by NOT entertaining useless relationships. Now if you don't have desirable sexual relationships with your husband you can see a marriage counselor or sex-therapist because for women A LOT of our sexually is tied to our emotions/mentality and that can easily be fixed with therapy. Finding someone who supports you and loves you for who you are (Rather than your body or sexuality) is one in a million.
When those feelings come back just remember you're not tied to him, you are tied to your past and those first-time feelings of being the 14 year old you.
I hope you find your truth!!
Posted by Capgirl15Posted by LadyNeptunePosted by Capgirl15
We've met online, 14 years ago, I was 15, he was 21.
2005 - After a month of love&hate, all/nothing, laugh/cry and deep online communication he came to see me in my hometown (approx. 250 km distance)
- we stayed together 8-9 hours - he was very shy at the beginning - I was very jaunty - he was fascinated by me (he told me some years after) - in the last 4 hours of that meeting we kissed almost continuously, it was....at least wonderful. At the end he wanted to touch my boobs, I've let him.
Wow cringe.
Sorry you were sexually molested as a teenage child.
I wasn't sexually molested, maybe psyhically manipulated 🙂click to expand
Children can’t ‘chose’ to have sex with adults.
You were groomed online and molested.
Posted by Capgirl15Posted by LadyNeptunePosted by Capgirl15
We've met online, 14 years ago, I was 15, he was 21.
2005 - After a month of love&hate, all/nothing, laugh/cry and deep online communication he came to see me in my hometown (approx. 250 km distance)
- we stayed together 8-9 hours - he was very shy at the beginning - I was very jaunty - he was fascinated by me (he told me some years after) - in the last 4 hours of that meeting we kissed almost continuously, it was....at least wonderful. At the end he wanted to touch my boobs, I've let him.
Wow cringe.
Sorry you were sexually molested as a teenage child.
I wasn't sexually molested, maybe psyhically manipulated 🙂click to expand
I know it's hard to understand but you were...sexually molested. Sexually molested does not mean that you didn't enjoy it. I'm sure you did... but the fact that you were underage and he was an adult is what make it sexual molestation.
He can say it was his first time but who knows the truth... regardless he should've been conscious of your tender age.
Should you ever have a daughter you may understand why it was sexual molestation.
Posted by starlord
He is like most men: he wants your sexual attention and I guess, now that you are married, also the win of having you cheat on his husband.
In everything you write here not a single thing makes it seem like he has any sort of real care but for himself. He is apologizibg to you to have sex with you.
If he wanted to be with you, he would certainly not go about it this way, his only focus is on sex. And he would not have not tried to date you in all these years.
You guys have a crazy sexual connection, and you are in live with him, but he is not in love with you.
Hope it works out and your husband doesn’t get fucked over more ny this. I guess it's a situation you have to go though to learn.
Can't believe this cap guy is 35. He seems to be 22.
That was a very useful and cold shower!
I don't think that he even wants sex from me. It was about to happen once and he decided to stop. What I think is that he is super disappointed about his life and I'm probably the only one that gives him attention. That gives him confidence on himself and the certainty that he had been meant something to someone. Most likely he suffers from inferiority complexes and he started to enjoy being alone, women being just a way of having fun from time to time. It's easier to come back to someone from your past (especially when you know that it's happy) than to get out of your comfort zone and find someone new.
Posted by Capgirl15Posted by starlord
He is like most men: he wants your sexual attention and I guess, now that you are married, also the win of having you cheat on his husband.
In everything you write here not a single thing makes it seem like he has any sort of real care but for himself. He is apologizibg to you to have sex with you.
If he wanted to be with you, he would certainly not go about it this way, his only focus is on sex. And he would not have not tried to date you in all these years.
You guys have a crazy sexual connection, and you are in live with him, but he is not in love with you.
Hope it works out and your husband doesn’t get fucked over more ny this. I guess it's a situation you have to go though to learn.
Can't believe this cap guy is 35. He seems to be 22.
That was a very useful and cold shower!
I don't think that he even wants sex from me. It was about to happen once and he decided to stop. What I think is that he is super disappointed about his life and I'm probably the only one that gives him attention. That gives him confidence on himself and the certainty that he had been meant something to someone. Most likely he suffers from inferiority complexes and he started to enjoy being alone, women being just a way of having fun from time to time. It's easier to come back to someone from your past (especially when you know that it's happy) than to get out of your comfort zone and find someone new.click to expand
Well look at this!!! So insightful yourself 😊
Only reason I can say this, is because I can relate and I know that feeling of wanting to keep some guys on a piedestal.
That's how I know there is a lot more work on yourself and your life that needs to happen. Love yourself, love other people, but don't let that love turn into all of this confusion and frustration and cheating. That is not love. That is something else, but that's what we often get confused. Which is why it needs to be looked into by you 😊
Posted by stillstillwater
I can relate to the fact that you're holding on to something that you've experienced at a very young age. It seems Caps hang on to their past beyond it's usefullness. I was in love with someone at the age of 14 and it took me 8 years to get over him... which was rediculous given the depth of the relationship. I think we are just super vulnerable and open at that stage in our lives and after that become more and more reserved. So we feel that it is that person on our past who holds the key for our vulnerability but in reality it is only our current reservations that hold us back from finding that similar free-ing feeling.
You want mature advice? This Cap guy wasstringing you alng the whole time. If he had feelings for you even half of what you had for him he would've NEVER let you go and ON TOP OF THAT dare to ask you advice about another woman he was pursuing. He came in and out of your life for sexual purposes only. He doe not care about you as a HUMAN with feelings. He just wanted sex and after realizing you're being physically loyal to your husband his patience wore out.
You need to realize there IS someone in your corner who actually cares about you and that is your husband. So you need to give him the love, and respect he deserve by NOT entertaining useless relationships. Now if you don't have desirable sexual relationships with your husband you can see a marriage counselor or sex-therapist because for women A LOT of our sexually is tied to our emotions/mentality and that can easily be fixed with therapy. Finding someone who supports you and loves you for who you are (Rather than your body or sexuality) is one in a million.
When those feelings come back just remember you're not tied to him, you are tied to your past and those first-time feelings of being the 14 year old you.
I hope you find your truth!!
you nailed it.. with the past connections so true!!!!
Posted by RevengePosted by starlord
He is like most men: he wants your sexual attention and I guess, now that you are married, also the win of having you cheat on his husband.
In everything you write here not a single thing makes it seem like he has any sort of real care but for himself. He is apologizibg to you to have sex with you.
If he wanted to be with you, he would certainly not go about it this way, his only focus is on sex. And he would not have not tried to date you in all these years.
You guys have a crazy sexual connection, and you are in live with him, but he is not in love with you.
Hope it works out and your husband doesn’t get fucked over more ny this. I guess it's a situation you have to go though to learn.
Can't believe this cap guy is 35. He seems to be 22.
fuccboi years never stopclick to expand
For some they really don't. Some years ago I met a 36 year old guy and thought : finally! A guy older than myself with hos life in order.
But nope, just a regular fuc boi. He almost made me feel like an escort for real.
Well he obviously wanted yor attention as an ego boost. Especially since he knows you are married - damn good boost for his ego to have a married woman giving the time and attention he craves 🤷🏻♀️ Of course he disappears again because someone else caught his attention in the meantime who‘s down to get sexual with him. If he needs another ego boost he‘ll be back texting you
Deep down you know it‘s wrong to entertain his sorry butt. Focus on yourself and your marriage. Karma is a b.itch you know? So better not feed her with ish like this
Good luck 🌷
Deep down you know it‘s wrong to entertain his sorry butt. Focus on yourself and your marriage. Karma is a b.itch you know? So better not feed her with ish like this
Good luck 🌷
Posted by stillstillwater
I can relate to the fact that you're holding on to something that you've experienced at a very young age. It seems Caps hang on to their past beyond it's usefullness. I was in love with someone at the age of 14 and it took me 8 years to get over him... which was rediculous given the depth of the relationship. I think we are just super vulnerable and open at that stage in our lives and after that become more and more reserved. So we feel that it is that person on our past who holds the key for our vulnerability but in reality it is only our current reservations that hold us back from finding that similar free-ing feeling.
You want mature advice? This Cap guy wasstringing you alng the whole time. If he had feelings for you even half of what you had for him he would've NEVER let you go and ON TOP OF THAT dare to ask you advice about another woman he was pursuing. He came in and out of your life for sexual purposes only. He doe not care about you as a HUMAN with feelings. He just wanted sex and after realizing you're being physically loyal to your husband his patience wore out.
You need to realize there IS someone in your corner who actually cares about you and that is your husband. So you need to give him the love, and respect he deserve by NOT entertaining useless relationships. Now if you don't have desirable sexual relationships with your husband you can see a marriage counselor or sex-therapist because for women A LOT of our sexually is tied to our emotions/mentality and that can easily be fixed with therapy. Finding someone who supports you and loves you for who you are (Rather than your body or sexuality) is one in a million.
When those feelings come back just remember you're not tied to him, you are tied to your past and those first-time feelings of being the 14 year old you.
I hope you find your truth!!
You are amazing!
You've explained the situation such on 'my language'. I've never thought that, that 'detail' can actually change the whole picture. I was thinking about it and I am sure that you are right. If he were a true man at 21, he was never discussed with someone on her 15. Not to talk about seeing or doing such things. It's obvious that he was having sexual issues even before meeting me. The fact that he was not able to control the instincts, says all about him. I know that after that meeting he was telling me that he is ashamed of what he did but even so, he continued to pretend sexual things from me without any regret. I was too in love to realize that that was the moment of 'true him'.
Thank you again!
Posted by AquaNextDoor
Well he obviously wanted yor attention as an ego boost. Especially since he knows you are married - damn good boost for his ego to have a married woman giving the time and attention he craves 🤷🏻♀️ Of course he disappears again because someone else caught his attention in the meantime who‘s down to get sexual with him. If he needs another ego boost he‘ll be back texting you
Deep down you know it‘s wrong to entertain his sorry butt. Focus on yourself and your marriage. Karma is a b.itch you know? So better not feed her with ish like this
Good luck 🌷
Thank you for your advice!
I will take care of my aqua man who learned me what means to be loved! 🙂
Posted by Capgirl15Posted by stillstillwater
I can relate to the fact that you're holding on to something that you've experienced at a very young age. It seems Caps hang on to their past beyond it's usefullness. I was in love with someone at the age of 14 and it took me 8 years to get over him... which was rediculous given the depth of the relationship. I think we are just super vulnerable and open at that stage in our lives and after that become more and more reserved. So we feel that it is that person on our past who holds the key for our vulnerability but in reality it is only our current reservations that hold us back from finding that similar free-ing feeling.
You want mature advice? This Cap guy wasstringing you alng the whole time. If he had feelings for you even half of what you had for him he would've NEVER let you go and ON TOP OF THAT dare to ask you advice about another woman he was pursuing. He came in and out of your life for sexual purposes only. He doe not care about you as a HUMAN with feelings. He just wanted sex and after realizing you're being physically loyal to your husband his patience wore out.
You need to realize there IS someone in your corner who actually cares about you and that is your husband. So you need to give him the love, and respect he deserve by NOT entertaining useless relationships. Now if you don't have desirable sexual relationships with your husband you can see a marriage counselor or sex-therapist because for women A LOT of our sexually is tied to our emotions/mentality and that can easily be fixed with therapy. Finding someone who supports you and loves you for who you are (Rather than your body or sexuality) is one in a million.
When those feelings come back just remember you're not tied to him, you are tied to your past and those first-time feelings of being the 14 year old you.
I hope you find your truth!!
You are amazing!
You've explained the situation such on 'my language'. I've never thought that, that 'detail' can actually change the whole picture. I was thinking about it and I am sure that you are right. If he were a true man at 21, he was never discussed with someone on her 15. Not to talk about seeing or doing such things. It's obvious that he was having sexual issues even before meeting me. The fact that he was not able to control the instincts, says all about him. I know that after that meeting he was telling me that he is ashamed of what he did but even so, he continued to pretend sexual things from me without any regret. I was too in love to realize that that was the moment of 'true him'.
Thank you again!click to expand
Yes exactly. I didn't even touch the issues of a 21 talking to a 15 year old... I tried to focus on your experience because that is your reality.
The obvious fact definitely is why would a sexually-mature 21 year old want to be with a 15 year old other than her vulnerable state of mind and ease of convincing her... But it's more important to realize your experience and that you were robbed of innocent young-love.
I dated someone 15 when I was 14 and we did the whole make-out etc etc but he was at a vulnerable age just like me so what seemed like a big deal to me was a big deal to him too. You see what I mean? We were experiencing this at the same level and hence we were able to influence each other emotionally with the same weight.
He had an upper hand on you always because those experiences were very special to you but... him he was 21+. He had already gone through porn and who knows how many other experiences. He might've told you that he didn't have experience so that it seems that despite the age difference you guys are still the same. It was a way for you to relate to him and may be sympathize with him.
Keep seeking your truth, your experience, your value... you're beautiful and I'm glad you were able to find someone who put you together.
I've had some sensitive experiences at a young age too and I can tell you that after 13 years I still have not found anyone to put me together lol but by God's will I've been able to heal myself throughout the years and continue to learn about myself and develop healthier habits/mindset . 🙂
Posted by starlord
He is like most men: he wants your sexual attention and I guess, now that you are married, also the win of having you cheat on his husband.
In everything you write here not a single thing makes it seem like he has any sort of real care but for himself. He is apologizibg to you to have sex with you.
If he wanted to be with you, he would certainly not go about it this way, his only focus is on sex. And he would not have not tried to date you in all these years.
You guys have a crazy sexual connection, and you are in live with him, but he is not in love with you.
Hope it works out and your husband doesn’t get fucked over more ny this. I guess it's a situation you have to go though to learn.
Can't believe this cap guy is 35. He seems to be 22.
👏👏👏👏
I hope the OP is listening. This here, is Gold.
I stopped reading after husband.
Gurl bye
Gurl bye
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- we stayed together 8-9 hours - he was very shy at the beginning - I was very jaunty - he was fascinated by me (he told me some years after) - in the last 4 hours of that meeting we kissed almost continuously, it was....at least wonderful. At the end he wanted to touch my boobs, I've let him. It was his first time (he told me some years after). At the end of day, he returned on his hometown, no tears.
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Beginning of 2018 - I answered him, felt the need to know about him. We spoke on the phone, said that he still finds me fascinating, he can't get over me, can't forget our meetings and me. Explained why he did not continued when I was at his place - it was not the right moment, he was afraid not to get pregnant and not be able to raise the child. I told him I am married. He started to remind me our special moments together and be very sexual...asked for photos/videos, especially with my boobs. Never sent him what he wanted. During all year 2018 he was looking for me, especially in the evenings/nights. I told him to find someone, I am married and that's it. I was trying to explain myself that I have to get over him and live my life as it is...without him. I spoke everything with my husband..he explained me the situation from a men's perspective. I understood, but my heart wanted something else...
Beginning of 2019 - we started to speak more often, like everyday..he confessed me that he is sexually attracted to me, he wants me like crazy. He became very warm and human with me, he even asked me to forgive him because he made me suffer all these years, said that he was always afraid not to hurt me. Even though, he reacted very bad when I have tried to ask him about his relationship s past, he said that he cannot have feelings anymore, for no one. His sexual energy drove me crazy (especially because we knew we were on the verge to happen..). There were a lot of crazy conversations, we discovered each other's sexuality. We are very compatible, same desires, same fantasies, we were horny each and every day, at the office, home, keeping the fire on each other. We started to speak about to meet each other again, he said he wants very much...then he enjoyed our moments.
Conclusion: after all these 2 intense months, 10 days ago, he dissappeared - again, silence treatment. He said 'I have some other things to do too..It's my time and I decide what to do with it. I really can't understand your attitude.' I was super nervous and I've blocked him instantly. Then, I have sent him some sms, but no word from his side. I saw that he blocked me as well.
I love him as on my 15's, I knew it's him from the first moment. I was just psyhically manipulated all these years or...?
He has Rising in Virgo, Moon in Cancer, Venus in Saggitarius and Mars in Scorpio.
Sorry for the long message..but it's about 14 years.
Thank you in advance!