Should I sing or dance? Or start my real estate career?

Hello everyone. I'm having some trouble finding motivation. I think I'm focusing too much on my south node and that's why I'm depressed. But I don't feel motivated to work on my north node. Im also a pothead. Its really hard for me to stop smoking. Any ideas could help. Thank you so much!

5/29/1991

Nyack, NY

1:27pm

Why the focus on the south node? Just curious... as far as motivation and weed; that's a tough one. Have you tried a more upbeat strain? Considered getting a prescription for adderall?

I used to smoke a lot of pot until I had a panic attack / paranoia. I stopped for several years. If I smoke now it's only with close friends. If I have the urge I'll take a few hits and make sure I start some type of active outside activity like a long walk.

For motivation I tend to watch speakers like Brian Tracey or "212 degree" videos. There's also some good audiobooks that get me pumped to start the day.

I'm trying not to focus on the south node anymore. I guess I feel it more than other aspects in my chart. My smoking has been better the last year. I started to focus on what I like about myself instead of what I don't like.