Doorway to You ✨☽

I remember I dropped a pencil in my 4th grade class and a friend whos name was Cody

came to me and handed me the pencil. He was such a kind and gentle person.

He then said to me that I should be mindful and treat all things with care because

the pencil is God, the classroom is God, and all things around us are God.

At the time, I didn't know what to think as I was only 11 and I thought

"what in the world?" "is he crazy?" and I Just laughed to myself in silence.

But as time passes I have aligned myself with this kind of truth

and I'm just in awe of how wise and beyond his years he was at his age.

(It doesn't mean this truth is right for you or anyone

but It's just something I feel within myself)

I haven't thought about him for years but last night as I lay, I thought

of this event, I thought of him again and it was all because of

me dropping my pencil --the doorway to him.

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Isn't it amazing how these small pockets in time within our past can lead us

back to being with those who are long gone? For him to be such a kind soul and gentle person,

he is no longer around me physically but this doorway has lead me to him spiritually and in memory again.

Do you have such Doorways? Doorways that lead you to people who are long gone

and you enjoy visiting them form time to time. Do you also wonder what doorways that others

may have that will lead them to ((you)) in spirit and memory too?

It doesn't have to be people either, It can be a doorway to many things, to animals,

or to a particular ability or feeling that brings you back by simply walking through.

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I have my old AOL email still to this day and use it because it leads me into my living

room back in 1998. I'm with my mother. We are sitting next to each other trying to figure

out my screenname. "Screenname"? I said. I didn't even know what that was.

She was an Aquarius and was so very kind and smart.

She decided to use my birthday to help reveal it to me and so now looking at my

email, I just return back to this special moment anytime to be with her again.

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You're such a hippie

loll

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Posted by Jan12girl

So beautifully written. I went deep down the memory lane . It all felt like an invisible web of connections that never breaks

Thank you 😊

That is what I mean too. It's so delightful.

To have those webs lead us to those who

Are no longer here and yet they still are in a way.

Not all of us will be on this site for long.

Some find new hobbies..

Some may take a long break..

Some may even cross over..

But we can all connect again

--return to each other

no matter the circumstances

because of these webs, doorways 😊

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Posted by ImperfectStorm

I love this so much ❤️❤️❤️ Thank you for sharing this. I do have doorways that spiritually and emotionally link me to people who are no longer with me. My mom passed in 2009 but there are countless memories/doorways that lead me back to her.

You're very welcome ☺

And thank you too.



Would you rather travel in this way ((physically))

from place to place? Think of something

in your mind and then be there instantly? 😊

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I have too many memories….I literally absorb everything. People, places, animals, nature. I seldom forget anything. I may forget some details, but never how I felt that particular moment.

However, I do have a problem. I like to burry things deep down inside of me and I don’t like to visit “that hidden place” too often.

I have lots of 12th house stuff (including Chiron, wounded warrior or whatever Chiron means), so I am not surprised. Along with lots of Neptune planets and aspects that makes me somewhat Piscean like 🐠 💕 Lot of it is subconscious but I am aware of some of it.

Posted by Jan12girl

I have so many things coming to me. And this keeps happening every now n then and i just go back in my mind to that time and place as if no time has passed.

Heavy rain takes me back to my early days in college . Specially the morning routine. I feel restless when i think of that time and also a sense of bliss that i had been there. Even if that time has long gone, that world does not exist in my life any more but nothing can take it away from me because i have lived it. A place that i am always grateful for.

My Virgo best friend in college . She passed away many years back and her memories feel surreal . I just have to snap out of the fact that she is no more here. But every memory is so close to my heart . And those memories are my connection to her. She once shut the room door on me which we were sharing in college hostel because we had a fight . She said first say sorry or i won't open and i had something important to do in the room . She took sorry out of me . According to her someone needed to tell me that i was wrong n stubborn. This shouldn't have been a fond memory but her right to tell me how to behave connects me to her even today . With her i have so many of those.

About 10-11 years back I shared an out station cab with an old man and another guy. We started talking about so many things. He was a numerologist . He somehow got impressed with certain books I had and somethings i spoke of and was happy in a way to know that i am also a Capricorn like him . It was the first time i had heard of dimensions . He spoke about it and said its a difficult thing to understand. I dont remember his name but i remember him very well. That conversation connects me to him and he is in my memory .

Another person from a journey . I met this guy on a long train journey. I dont know how we started talking but i felt so much at ease . We must have spoken for at least 10 hours plus. He was a techie by profession . Somethings he told me about using laptops i still follow. I wonder what his sign was.

A certain person's eyes. I remember that from the first time we spoke. Just that eye contact is a fresh memory. I remember it exactly . Beyond that i did not know the person although i did know him for many years .

Thank You so much for sharing this, @Jan12girl



This is so beautiful. ✨

so beautiful ✨

Your doorway through the rain to your friend again.

The rain has so many beautiful attributes for me as well.

I know that when it rains, I enjoy cutting everything off

in the house and just listening to it. I do it as much as I can.

There is a sacredness to it all on its own and then for you to

have a doorway through that is beyond magical to me.

And then the outstation cab doorway and then the doorway

through the train station, I'm very honored to know these things.

Do you feel that you were in fact wrong and stubborn?

And has that doorway with your friend help you to not be stubborn?

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Posted by borednbeautiful

I have too many memories….I literally absorb everything. People, places, animals, nature. I seldom forget anything. I may forget some details, but never how I felt that particular moment.

However, I do have a problem. I like to burry things deep down inside of me and I don’t like to visit “that hidden place” too often.

I have lots of 12th house stuff (including Chiron, wounded warrior or whatever Chiron means), so I am not surprised. Along with lots of Neptune planets and aspects that makes me somewhat Piscean like 🐠 💕 Lot of it is subconscious but I am aware of some of it.

thank you and bless you @borednbeautiful 🙂

wow wait so, You have --you said you have Neptune planets

in the 12th? Do you mean Pisces Planets? Like Neptune and Jupiter are there?

And if Pisces energy is there, how do you feel about Pisces energy? 🙂



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Posted by ImperfectStorm

I love this so much ❤️❤️❤️ Thank you for sharing this. I do have doorways that spiritually and emotionally link me to people who are no longer with me. My mom passed in 2009 but there are countless memories/doorways that lead me back to her.

@ImperfectStorm

I also want to say that my heart goes out to you about your mother.

That is a wound which is all too familiar to me.

There isn't a time I don't think about my mom also and

that I cry almost every day because of her not

being here physically with me.

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Posted by borednbeautiful

I have too many memories….I literally absorb everything. People, places, animals, nature. I seldom forget anything. I may forget some details, but never how I felt that particular moment.

However, I do have a problem. I like to burry things deep down inside of me and I don’t like to visit “that hidden place” too often.

I have lots of 12th house stuff (including Chiron, wounded warrior or whatever Chiron means), so I am not surprised. Along with lots of Neptune planets and aspects that makes me somewhat Piscean like 🐠 💕 Lot of it is subconscious but I am aware of some of it.

thank you and bless you @borednbeautiful 🙂

wow wait so, You have --you said you have Neptune planets

in the 12th? Do you mean Pisces Planets? Like Neptune and Jupiter are there?

And if Pisces energy is there, how do you feel about Pisces energy? 🙂



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No, I don’t have Neptune and Jupiter in 12th. Lol 🙂

Sorry, that’s a misunderstanding because of the way I worded it. I have Chiron (subconscious wounds) in my 12th house.

I have Sun opposite Neptune. Neptune is in my 7th, and even 8th house. Jupiter in Cancer, in 2nd house.

I feel pisces energy because of Neptune sitting in my 7th house. I always feel nebulous when dealing with other people. Like it’s out of this world experience, especially romance.

You are so right. I think of people coming into my life as guides along my journey. Perhaps teachers, and some who open a doorway, or perhaps show you a certain doorway as a possibility.

A boy I met when I was 24 & he was 17. He has been in and out of my life at various times. I was struck when I was 27 and he was 21 how wise beyond his years he was. This was after I was separated from my first husband. At this point, we were friends only although he was crazy about me. But we could talk about anything. I was in a lot of pain and he was there to hold my hand. He introduced me to my second husband. We lost contact for 18 years, and then I was divorced again and there he was searching for me. In the last 7 years, he has always been there for me when I needed him. Me, when he needed me. The cord doesn't break. I believe now it's not meant to. He is the person who knows me best in this world. He taught me it's okay to have emotions and express them. He taught me I'm absolutely okay no matter what anyone else says. He was what led me to therapy to work on some things. Not because he told me to, but because I was facing things I needed to, and it was necessary. He was there to hold me hand again. Two times in my life after both husbands. I practiced boundaries on him which meant I walked away from him, and not towards him. He finds me still and is supportive of all I need to do for myself. The irony is my first husband brought him into our lives, befriended him and somehow that was a doorway to this connection. I'm not the one who opened it, he was after my divorce. He found me, and somehow opened up something within me. I'm not quite sure what this is. Maybe I was the doorway for him, but it became a doorway for both of us.

A best friend .. she opened the idea of personal growth to me. Life wasn't going so well and she asked a couple of questions. It led to more questions. An idea planted in my brain, and I opened the door. Our friendship has evolved over the years, as we have. The path started holding hands and has veered, occasionally to go back but veering again. It sure took me down a different road then I was planning, and I'm grateful I opened that door. It made such a difference.

An ex-boss - as my career had taken a dive, he called me and gave me an opportunity. It was a door to reclaim the career in a different way and achieve something I'd missed doing. 4 years later, it's quite amazing I took this path. It has filled a void that helped me get where I needed to get to in a couple of ways. It looks like I left the old path behind by opening this door. One little yes, I will agree to a meeting started it.

So what is the next doorway to be opened? You just never know. All of these have changed my life in amazing ways. I am much better for it.

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Posted by xxAjuxx

Posted by borednbeautiful

I have too many memories….I literally absorb everything. People, places, animals, nature. I seldom forget anything. I may forget some details, but never how I felt that particular moment.

However, I do have a problem. I like to burry things deep down inside of me and I don’t like to visit “that hidden place” too often.

I have lots of 12th house stuff (including Chiron, wounded warrior or whatever Chiron means), so I am not surprised. Along with lots of Neptune planets and aspects that makes me somewhat Piscean like 🐠 💕 Lot of it is subconscious but I am aware of some of it.

thank you and bless you @borednbeautiful 🙂

wow wait so, You have --you said you have Neptune planets

in the 12th? Do you mean Pisces Planets? Like Neptune and Jupiter are there?

And if Pisces energy is there, how do you feel about Pisces energy? 🙂



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No, I don’t have Neptune and Jupiter in 12th. Lol 🙂

Sorry, that’s a misunderstanding because of the way I worded it. I have Chiron (subconscious wounds) in my 12th house.

I have Sun opposite Neptune. Neptune is in my 7th, and even 8th house. Jupiter in Cancer, in 2nd house.

I feel pisces energy because of Neptune sitting in my 7th house. I always feel nebulous when dealing with other people. Like it’s out of this world experience, especially romance.

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😆



lol You're fine lol

wow okay so... lets see...

(I am thinking)

...

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Planets in the 7th house are very interesting.

What is your 7th house cusp sign? Is it Sagittarius?

And Then you have Jupiter in the 2nd house.

WHAT IS THAT LIKE? Do you feel you have an abundance of wealth/money/things you own easily?

Is your self worth okay?

I apologize for going a bit

off track of the thread.

Wait, I made it so its okay 😄

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Posted by PuzzlePieces

You are so right. I think of people coming into my life as guides along my journey. Perhaps teachers, and some who open a doorway, or perhaps show you a certain doorway as a possibility.

A boy I met when I was 24 & he was 17. He has been in and out of my life at various times. I was struck when I was 27 and he was 21 how wise beyond his years he was. This was after I was separated from my first husband. At this point, we were friends only although he was crazy about me. But we could talk about anything. I was in a lot of pain and he was there to hold my hand. He introduced me to my second husband. We lost contact for 18 years, and then I was divorced again and there he was searching for me. In the last 7 years, he has always been there for me when I needed him. Me, when he needed me. The cord doesn't break. I believe now it's not meant to. He is the person who knows me best in this world. He taught me it's okay to have emotions and express them. He taught me I'm absolutely okay no matter what anyone else says. He was what led me to therapy to work on some things. Not because he told me to, but because I was facing things I needed to, and it was necessary. He was there to hold me hand again. Two times in my life after both husbands. I practiced boundaries on him which meant I walked away from him, and not towards him. He finds me still and is supportive of all I need to do for myself. The irony is my first husband brought him into our lives, befriended him and somehow that was a doorway to this connection. I'm not the one who opened it, he was after my divorce. He found me, and somehow opened up something within me. I'm not quite sure what this is. Maybe I was the doorway for him, but it became a doorway for both of us.

A best friend .. she opened the idea of personal growth to me. Life wasn't going so well and she asked a couple of questions. It led to more questions. An idea planted in my brain, and I opened the door. Our friendship has evolved over the years, as we have. The path started holding hands and has veered, occasionally to go back but veering again. It sure took me down a different road then I was planning, and I'm grateful I opened that door. It made such a difference.

An ex-boss - as my career had taken a dive, he called me and gave me an opportunity. It was a door to reclaim the career in a different way and achieve something I'd missed doing. 4 years later, it's quite amazing I took this path. It has filled a void that helped me get where I needed to get to in a couple of ways. It looks like I left the old path behind by opening this door. One little yes, I will agree to a meeting started it.

So what is the next doorway to be opened? You just never know. All of these have changed my life in amazing ways. I am much better for it.

Wow this is so beautiful.

Thank You So So much.



All of this. so so beautiful.

Yes, You were also the doorway for him too!

That is something I often think about.

I wonder about the other person and what

doorway they may have that will bring me

or a memory of me to them one day.



And not all doorways invite good things,

negative memories too so I feel that is why

it's important at least for me to "be" from

the heart now so that I can be mostly of

a positive memory to others.

Recently, there has been some events

that has happened to me in June that created

this in me but I plan to explain one day fully as

It's so sacred to me so I keep it close to my chest. to my heart.



But, you were able to do quite a bit of healing

because of these doorways and that is the beautiful thing here, @PuzzlePieces

What is the next doorway indeed 🙂

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Posted by xxAjuxx

Posted by PuzzlePieces

You are so right. I think of people coming into my life as guides along my journey. Perhaps teachers, and some who open a doorway, or perhaps show you a certain doorway as a possibility.

A boy I met when I was 24 & he was 17. He has been in and out of my life at various times. I was struck when I was 27 and he was 21 how wise beyond his years he was. This was after I was separated from my first husband. At this point, we were friends only although he was crazy about me. But we could talk about anything. I was in a lot of pain and he was there to hold my hand. He introduced me to my second husband. We lost contact for 18 years, and then I was divorced again and there he was searching for me. In the last 7 years, he has always been there for me when I needed him. Me, when he needed me. The cord doesn't break. I believe now it's not meant to. He is the person who knows me best in this world. He taught me it's okay to have emotions and express them. He taught me I'm absolutely okay no matter what anyone else says. He was what led me to therapy to work on some things. Not because he told me to, but because I was facing things I needed to, and it was necessary. He was there to hold me hand again. Two times in my life after both husbands. I practiced boundaries on him which meant I walked away from him, and not towards him. He finds me still and is supportive of all I need to do for myself. The irony is my first husband brought him into our lives, befriended him and somehow that was a doorway to this connection. I'm not the one who opened it, he was after my divorce. He found me, and somehow opened up something within me. I'm not quite sure what this is. Maybe I was the doorway for him, but it became a doorway for both of us.

A best friend .. she opened the idea of personal growth to me. Life wasn't going so well and she asked a couple of questions. It led to more questions. An idea planted in my brain, and I opened the door. Our friendship has evolved over the years, as we have. The path started holding hands and has veered, occasionally to go back but veering again. It sure took me down a different road then I was planning, and I'm grateful I opened that door. It made such a difference.

An ex-boss - as my career had taken a dive, he called me and gave me an opportunity. It was a door to reclaim the career in a different way and achieve something I'd missed doing. 4 years later, it's quite amazing I took this path. It has filled a void that helped me get where I needed to get to in a couple of ways. It looks like I left the old path behind by opening this door. One little yes, I will agree to a meeting started it.

So what is the next doorway to be opened? You just never know. All of these have changed my life in amazing ways. I am much better for it.

Wow this is so beautiful.

Thank You So So much.



All of this. so so beautiful.

Yes, You were also the doorway for him too!

That is something I often think about.

I wonder about the other person and what

doorway they may have that will bring me

or a memory of me to them one day.



And not all doorways invite good things,

negative memories too so I feel that is why

it's important at least for me to "be" from

the heart now so that I can be mostly of

a positive memory to others.

Recently, there has been some events

that has happened to me in June that created

this in me but I plan to explain one day fully as

It's so sacred to me so I keep it close to my chest. to my heart.



But, you were able to do quite a bit of healing

because of these doorways and that is the beautiful thing here, @PuzzlePieces

What is the next doorway indeed 🙂

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Yes not all doorways are positive. I only listed the positive ones because that's what I need to do.. lol I'm a Sagittarius so I twist to the positive. So here is an example. That second husband, I opened that doorway the guy in the earlier post gave me to him. He btw wanted to be the one, and I didn't really get it for some reasons. I would've been better off opening that one to that place then. However, I did not. I opened up a door that brought me love, 2 children, and mostly a wonderful life for 20 years. However, it also had a darker side. It brought me to become very unhealthy. He is an alcoholic as it turns out (which I didn't get until years into the relationship and marriage) since he hides it and doesn't want to deal with it. I became codependent, spent years trying to save him and support him towards a healthier way. Well he never took that door, but I did taking my children along with me on the journey. I had realized things were getting worse, he was no longer acting like he loved me, but loved his demons. At some point, you have to realize you can only help yourself. That is a door I took with the help of that best friend. Me & the adult children are so much better off, and he is in a bad place now. It breaks my heart, but I had to save what I could and let him find his way or not if that was his choice. So, in the end a journey to a darker place to where I became completely shut down to protect myself and was who others needed me to be almost destroyed me. But, another door I walked through and healed. It took a long freaking time - about a decade. And partially due that guy in the first post. He found me 2 years after the divorce and thank goodness. Life has such funny twists and turns. But now, I am mentally, emotionally, and financially in a good place taking the healthy road. My ex has cirrhosis, and now another health problem related to the liver. I look back and am amazed, the bad doorway can take us on a journey, but we can journey back to ourselves finding better doorways along the way. It's always a hard decision, but worth it. Now I'm a little hesitant & don't jump so quickly without thinking. Maybe overthinking a little bit too much. But obviously there are reasons for that.

Btw the guy in the first post sent me a text the other day with a song and quotes a line - If you're lost, you can look and you will find me, time after time... That's what he does and of course it's him telling me it goes both ways. The door is always there. He has told me that before, but this song tells the story.

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Posted by xxAjuxx

Posted by PuzzlePieces

You are so right. I think of people coming into my life as guides along my journey. Perhaps teachers, and some who open a doorway, or perhaps show you a certain doorway as a possibility.

A boy I met when I was 24 & he was 17. He has been in and out of my life at various times. I was struck when I was 27 and he was 21 how wise beyond his years he was. This was after I was separated from my first husband. At this point, we were friends only although he was crazy about me. But we could talk about anything. I was in a lot of pain and he was there to hold my hand. He introduced me to my second husband. We lost contact for 18 years, and then I was divorced again and there he was searching for me. In the last 7 years, he has always been there for me when I needed him. Me, when he needed me. The cord doesn't break. I believe now it's not meant to. He is the person who knows me best in this world. He taught me it's okay to have emotions and express them. He taught me I'm absolutely okay no matter what anyone else says. He was what led me to therapy to work on some things. Not because he told me to, but because I was facing things I needed to, and it was necessary. He was there to hold me hand again. Two times in my life after both husbands. I practiced boundaries on him which meant I walked away from him, and not towards him. He finds me still and is supportive of all I need to do for myself. The irony is my first husband brought him into our lives, befriended him and somehow that was a doorway to this connection. I'm not the one who opened it, he was after my divorce. He found me, and somehow opened up something within me. I'm not quite sure what this is. Maybe I was the doorway for him, but it became a doorway for both of us.

A best friend .. she opened the idea of personal growth to me. Life wasn't going so well and she asked a couple of questions. It led to more questions. An idea planted in my brain, and I opened the door. Our friendship has evolved over the years, as we have. The path started holding hands and has veered, occasionally to go back but veering again. It sure took me down a different road then I was planning, and I'm grateful I opened that door. It made such a difference.

An ex-boss - as my career had taken a dive, he called me and gave me an opportunity. It was a door to reclaim the career in a different way and achieve something I'd missed doing. 4 years later, it's quite amazing I took this path. It has filled a void that helped me get where I needed to get to in a couple of ways. It looks like I left the old path behind by opening this door. One little yes, I will agree to a meeting started it.

So what is the next doorway to be opened? You just never know. All of these have changed my life in amazing ways. I am much better for it.

Wow this is so beautiful.

Thank You So So much.



All of this. so so beautiful.

Yes, You were also the doorway for him too!

That is something I often think about.

I wonder about the other person and what

doorway they may have that will bring me

or a memory of me to them one day.



And not all doorways invite good things,

negative memories too so I feel that is why

it's important at least for me to "be" from

the heart now so that I can be mostly of

a positive memory to others.

Recently, there has been some events

that has happened to me in June that created

this in me but I plan to explain one day fully as

It's so sacred to me so I keep it close to my chest. to my heart.



But, you were able to do quite a bit of healing

because of these doorways and that is the beautiful thing here, @PuzzlePieces

What is the next doorway indeed 🙂

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Yes not all doorways are positive. I only listed the positive ones because that's what I need to do.. lol I'm a Sagittarius so I twist to the positive. So here is an example. That second husband, I opened that doorway the guy in the earlier post gave me to him. He btw wanted to be the one, and I didn't really get it for some reasons. I would've been better off opening that one to that place then. However, I did not. I opened up a door that brought me love, 2 children, and mostly a wonderful life for 20 years. However, it also had a darker side. It brought me to become very unhealthy. He is an alcoholic as it turns out (which I didn't get until years into the relationship and marriage) since he hides it and doesn't want to deal with it. I became codependent, spent years trying to save him and support him towards a healthier way. Well he never took that door, but I did taking my children along with me on the journey. I had realized things were getting worse, he was no longer acting like he loved me, but loved his demons. At some point, you have to realize you can only help yourself. That is a door I took with the help of that best friend. Me & the adult children are so much better off, and he is in a bad place now. It breaks my heart, but I had to save what I could and let him find his way or not if that was his choice. So, in the end a journey to a darker place to where I became completely shut down to protect myself and was who others needed me to be almost destroyed me. But, another door I walked through and healed. It took a long freaking time - about a decade. And partially due that guy in the first post. He found me 2 years after the divorce and thank goodness. Life has such funny twists and turns. But now, I am mentally, emotionally, and financially in a good place taking the healthy road. My ex has cirrhosis, and now another health problem related to the liver. I look back and am amazed, the bad doorway can take us on a journey, but we can journey back to ourselves finding better doorways along the way. It's always a hard decision, but worth it. Now I'm a little hesitant & don't jump so quickly without thinking. Maybe overthinking a little bit too much. But obviously there are reasons for that.

Btw the guy in the first post sent me a text the other day with a song and quotes a line - If you're lost, you can look and you will find me, time after time... That's what he does and of course it's him telling me it goes both ways. The door is always there. He has told me that before, but this song tells the story.

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oh no. I'm sorry. I think I..

I didn't mean you had to share a negative doorway...

or that your post without it was some how less than...

Your post was perfect. I only mentioned the alternative because

I aim to come from my heart, from my center, so that more

doorways that lead to me are positive for others.

However, I am extremely grateful for this post PuzzlePieces

and I'd like to thank you once again. You went through so much. A lot.

I'm glad that you were able to get out of that situation and I hope that their father can one day heal

--escape from his demons as you have said he's still in that dark place.

I love that song by the way too, the line from it that your friend used,

which is another doorway that leads to him ✨

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Posted by PuzzlePieces

You are so right. I think of people coming into my life as guides along my journey. Perhaps teachers, and some who open a doorway, or perhaps show you a certain doorway as a possibility.

A boy I met when I was 24 & he was 17. He has been in and out of my life at various times. I was struck when I was 27 and he was 21 how wise beyond his years he was. This was after I was separated from my first husband. At this point, we were friends only although he was crazy about me. But we could talk about anything. I was in a lot of pain and he was there to hold my hand. He introduced me to my second husband. We lost contact for 18 years, and then I was divorced again and there he was searching for me. In the last 7 years, he has always been there for me when I needed him. Me, when he needed me. The cord doesn't break. I believe now it's not meant to. He is the person who knows me best in this world. He taught me it's okay to have emotions and express them. He taught me I'm absolutely okay no matter what anyone else says. He was what led me to therapy to work on some things. Not because he told me to, but because I was facing things I needed to, and it was necessary. He was there to hold me hand again. Two times in my life after both husbands. I practiced boundaries on him which meant I walked away from him, and not towards him. He finds me still and is supportive of all I need to do for myself. The irony is my first husband brought him into our lives, befriended him and somehow that was a doorway to this connection. I'm not the one who opened it, he was after my divorce. He found me, and somehow opened up something within me. I'm not quite sure what this is. Maybe I was the doorway for him, but it became a doorway for both of us.

A best friend .. she opened the idea of personal growth to me. Life wasn't going so well and she asked a couple of questions. It led to more questions. An idea planted in my brain, and I opened the door. Our friendship has evolved over the years, as we have. The path started holding hands and has veered, occasionally to go back but veering again. It sure took me down a different road then I was planning, and I'm grateful I opened that door. It made such a difference.

An ex-boss - as my career had taken a dive, he called me and gave me an opportunity. It was a door to reclaim the career in a different way and achieve something I'd missed doing. 4 years later, it's quite amazing I took this path. It has filled a void that helped me get where I needed to get to in a couple of ways. It looks like I left the old path behind by opening this door. One little yes, I will agree to a meeting started it.

So what is the next doorway to be opened? You just never know. All of these have changed my life in amazing ways. I am much better for it.

Wow this is so beautiful.

Thank You So So much.



All of this. so so beautiful.

Yes, You were also the doorway for him too!

That is something I often think about.

I wonder about the other person and what

doorway they may have that will bring me

or a memory of me to them one day.



And not all doorways invite good things,

negative memories too so I feel that is why

it's important at least for me to "be" from

the heart now so that I can be mostly of

a positive memory to others.

Recently, there has been some events

that has happened to me in June that created

this in me but I plan to explain one day fully as

It's so sacred to me so I keep it close to my chest. to my heart.



But, you were able to do quite a bit of healing

because of these doorways and that is the beautiful thing here, @PuzzlePieces

What is the next doorway indeed 🙂

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Yes not all doorways are positive. I only listed the positive ones because that's what I need to do.. lol I'm a Sagittarius so I twist to the positive. So here is an example. That second husband, I opened that doorway the guy in the earlier post gave me to him. He btw wanted to be the one, and I didn't really get it for some reasons. I would've been better off opening that one to that place then. However, I did not. I opened up a door that brought me love, 2 children, and mostly a wonderful life for 20 years. However, it also had a darker side. It brought me to become very unhealthy. He is an alcoholic as it turns out (which I didn't get until years into the relationship and marriage) since he hides it and doesn't want to deal with it. I became codependent, spent years trying to save him and support him towards a healthier way. Well he never took that door, but I did taking my children along with me on the journey. I had realized things were getting worse, he was no longer acting like he loved me, but loved his demons. At some point, you have to realize you can only help yourself. That is a door I took with the help of that best friend. Me & the adult children are so much better off, and he is in a bad place now. It breaks my heart, but I had to save what I could and let him find his way or not if that was his choice. So, in the end a journey to a darker place to where I became completely shut down to protect myself and was who others needed me to be almost destroyed me. But, another door I walked through and healed. It took a long freaking time - about a decade. And partially due that guy in the first post. He found me 2 years after the divorce and thank goodness. Life has such funny twists and turns. But now, I am mentally, emotionally, and financially in a good place taking the healthy road. My ex has cirrhosis, and now another health problem related to the liver. I look back and am amazed, the bad doorway can take us on a journey, but we can journey back to ourselves finding better doorways along the way. It's always a hard decision, but worth it. Now I'm a little hesitant & don't jump so quickly without thinking. Maybe overthinking a little bit too much. But obviously there are reasons for that.

Btw the guy in the first post sent me a text the other day with a song and quotes a line - If you're lost, you can look and you will find me, time after time... That's what he does and of course it's him telling me it goes both ways. The door is always there. He has told me that before, but this song tells the story.

oh no. I'm sorry. I think I..

I didn't mean you had to share a negative doorway...

or that your post without it was some how less than...

Your post was perfect. I only mentioned the alternative because

I aim to come from my heart, from my center, so that more

doorways that lead to me are positive for others.

However, I am extremely grateful for this post PuzzlePieces

and I'd like to thank you once again. You went through so much. A lot.

I'm glad that you were able to get out of that situation and I hope that their father can one day heal

--escape from his demons as you have said he's still in that dark place.

I love that song by the way too, the line from it that your friend used,

which is another doorway that leads to him ✨

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No worries. I shared because I thought it was a good example, not because I thought you wanted me to. We are dealing with a lot right now with him or mostly my children are. I am supportive to them, he’s handling things in ways that don’t sit well with me. But, it’s no longer my place. He is not going to deal, right now he’s trying to get on the transplant list again. At least he stopped drinking a few years ago after he destroyed his liver. It was good for me to share & think about the relationship of these doorways. 🙂

Yes, he’s reminding me about the doorway again. ❤️❤️

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Posted by Jan12girl

I have so many things coming to me. And this keeps happening every now n then and i just go back in my mind to that time and place as if no time has passed.

Heavy rain takes me back to my early days in college . Specially the morning routine. I feel restless when i think of that time and also a sense of bliss that i had been there. Even if that time has long gone, that world does not exist in my life any more but nothing can take it away from me because i have lived it. A place that i am always grateful for.

My Virgo best friend in college . She passed away many years back and her memories feel surreal . I just have to snap out of the fact that she is no more here. But every memory is so close to my heart . And those memories are my connection to her. She once shut the room door on me which we were sharing in college hostel because we had a fight . She said first say sorry or i won't open and i had something important to do in the room . She took sorry out of me . According to her someone needed to tell me that i was wrong n stubborn. This shouldn't have been a fond memory but her right to tell me how to behave connects me to her even today . With her i have so many of those.

About 10-11 years back I shared an out station cab with an old man and another guy. We started talking about so many things. He was a numerologist . He somehow got impressed with certain books I had and somethings i spoke of and was happy in a way to know that i am also a Capricorn like him . It was the first time i had heard of dimensions . He spoke about it and said its a difficult thing to understand. I dont remember his name but i remember him very well. That conversation connects me to him and he is in my memory .

Another person from a journey . I met this guy on a long train journey. I dont know how we started talking but i felt so much at ease . We must have spoken for at least 10 hours plus. He was a techie by profession . Somethings he told me about using laptops i still follow. I wonder what his sign was.

A certain person's eyes. I remember that from the first time we spoke. Just that eye contact is a fresh memory. I remember it exactly . Beyond that i did not know the person although i did know him for many years .

Thank You so much for sharing this, @Jan12girl



This is so beautiful. ✨

so beautiful ✨

Your doorway through the rain to your friend again.

The rain has so many beautiful attributes for me as well.

I know that when it rains, I enjoy cutting everything off

in the house and just listening to it. I do it as much as I can.

There is a sacredness to it all on its own and then for you to

have a doorway through that is beyond magical to me.

And then the outstation cab doorway and then the doorway

through the train station, I'm very honored to know these things.

Do you feel that you were in fact wrong and stubborn?

And has that doorway with your friend help you to not be stubborn?

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Rain is much more to me than just taking me back to a place. I am a pluviophile. But heavy rain combined with cool breeze I go back to that time yes.

As for being stubborn I don’t think I am extremely. I am just as stubborn as anyone else having a clear ability to be able to say no to things that don’t appeal to me . That particular incident with my friend I don’t even remember what was it about . But I guess I could have been rough with my words , which was my nature unfortunately when I was younger . Although with people close to me like her , it never hampered my relationship beyond few minutes or hours. I remember that incident more because very few people I feel have right on me to tell me things on my face and still continue loving me .

To help me not be so stubborn or rather arrogant it is a Leo with Virgo moon who changed things because I found some one more stubborn than I am and I changed because if don’t want something to be done to me , I have to lead by example and then demand the same in return .

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I too would consider myself a pluviophile. wow.

My family thought I was crazy (and some still do lol)

because I would just laugh and shout to the top of

my lungs "I LOVE THE RAIN!!!". My uncle and Granny

were so confused lolll.



But wow. What you say here...

"if don’t want something to be done to me , I have to lead by example and then demand the same in return"

" if don’t want something to be done to me , I have to lead by example and then demand the same in return"

" if don’t want something to be done to me , I have to lead by example and then demand the same in return"

I can read this over and over again. Infinitely. These words...

It's gift to read and I agree --I agree with it 100% .



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Posted by MysteriousHeart

Some of mine are kinda silly…

The smell of the sea air…..takes me back to my childhood and family vacations at the beach with my best friend. Running and laughing, splashing in the waves, ice cream cones, summertime and just being a carefree child with no responsibilities. The sea air will always instantly take me back to that place in my life that seems so long ago yet just like yesterday at the same time.

Coffee….takes me back to all the years spent with a close family friend whom I knew ever since I was around 2 years old. I grew up with her and as long as I knew her she always loved her coffee. I still remember my parents along with her and her husband having game nights at either my parents house or her house and she was the first one to always put on a pot of coffee. We would vacation together and she’d always have a coffee in hand. After dinner….yep, you guessed it, coffee time! As an adult I even worked with her for a couple of years and she’d always make some coffee even if it was the middle of the day and drink it while she worked. I probably love coffee just as much and maybe even got my love of coffee from her, but every time I drink a cup my thoughts are filled with her and I can see her clear as day drinking her coffee out of her favorite cup. Sadly in 2019 she passed away from brain cancer.

Girl Scout cookies…..reminds me of staying at my grandparents house as a little girl. They had boxes upon boxes of girl scout cookies. I remember playing hide and seek with my cousins. I’d be hiding in a room, find a box of those cookies and just start munching away as quietly as possible while waiting to be found (secretly hoping I’d never be found). That is one of the very few fond memories I have of them since they passed away when I was still very young.

The smell of aftershave mixed with exhaust fumes…..takes me back to those cold early mornings in elementary school when I’d be squished in my middle between my uncle and my cousin as my uncle drove us to school in his old truck. He’d always leave it running for awhile with the heat on to warm it up. He wore an excessive amount of aftershave so the smell filled the entire truck. I remember walking into the school still able to smell it on me. Lol

I have so many more, but if I listed them all I would have written a book!

First I want to say Thank You for sharing and Bless you ,@MysteriousHeart.

And Second, Please share as much or as little as you like.

These are all sacred to me @MysteriousHeart.

None* of these are silly. Not at all.

So Share the book Share the book!

🙂

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The Smell of the Sea..

I have to say..

Well, I don't really want to say...

too much because I feel it just doesn't translate how I really feel when

reading this. This touches me within my center. Do you still feel your friend?

Do you feel she is close or have you had any dreams about her?

You don't have to answer if that is a bit too personal.

And I loved that moment you were hiding away

eating peacefully hoping not to be found.

& The Aftershave... Smells to me are probably

the most powerful when it comes to doorways.

I am forced to go down them...

Smelling the rubber from a school bus seat...

The lotion that was prominent in the 90s

but rare to smell now, It forces me through but I don't mind...

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